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Quote: If it's true that our species is alone in the universe, then I'd have to say that the universe aimed rather low and settled for very little. - George Carlin
Now, some of the basics about me are as follows:
- I'm twenty-four years old.
- I live in Southern California.
- I'm a contradiction.
Great, now that than nonsense is done, we can get on to the substantial part, the part where I tell you who I am, regardless if you’re interested or not. Though, if you’re reading this, I would hope that you’re at least a bit curious. Ready? Let us begin..
Please, allow me a few paragraphs to give you some glimpse as to who I really am. No pretending, no playing some silly part. I shall be nothing but completely honest with you. Take the good and the bad, because it's all me.
I am a typical woman of my age group. There's nothing truly unique about me. I do not stand out in the crowd, I am easily overlooked, I blend in all too well. Most of you wouldn't give me a second glance if you saw me out on the street. But, then again, I'm not so typical. I am not, have ever been, or ever will be one of those people who considers themselves an "open book." I am an enigma, a puzzle to be solved. I never make getting to know me easy. I do build up walls, and I have been known to wear masks. But, I don't pretend to be something I'm not. I do not play parts, I'm really just not that good of an actor.
I will state that I, like everyone else, am flawed. I've tried to be something perfect but than I realized perfection doesn't exist in the real world. However, that realization didn't come easily to me, I still bear the scars. a constant reminder of how hard it was to get there. I'm not going to claim to be a vampire, I'm no were creature, I've never seen a fairy in my life. I'm not suffering from any delusions to make me believe I'm something other than a plain human being. I'm not even a person who gets depressed a lot. Though, I am an emotional being. I am easily swayed by those pesky emotions. I am timid, shy, soft spoken. Conversation has never been a strong point of mine, I'm socially awkward to an extreme sometimes. I prefer to sit on the sidelines, to simply observe, as opposed to joining in on the game. I think far too much, but rarely voice my thoughts. My mind is my only true sanctuary, it's the only thing that will always truly be my own.
I hold no ties to any religion. Faith has always been an issue with me. I want to believe in something, some higher power, but I find that as the years progress, I lack that ability. I am one who needs to see something in order to truly believe in it. I need to know that it's there. Deities aren't like that. They aren't solid and you can't prove they exist. It's all a matter of belief in something bigger than yourself. Am I agnostic? Am I an atheist? I really couldn't tell you at this point. I simply am, and what that means right now is uncertain. However, though I may or may not believe, I do so love learning about different religions and belief structures. I've dabbled in a few separate practices myself, so I do find it interesting to hear what some hold true. I hold firm to the belief that no one should be prosecuted for what they have faith in. Religion, faith, it's all up to you, no one can ever tell you that you are wrong. Practice what makes you happy, and what makes you a better person.
I believe this is only life we get. So, I do my best to live each day as best I can. I don't regret, I don't dwell on the past, I only look towards my future. I try to find happiness where ever I can. Life is so short, in the blink of an eye it's all over. So, I see no point in living in the darkness. I don't think on the negatives in my life, the bad, I don't allow myself to become depressed about things that don't matter in the long run. This attitude is fairly new, I will admit. It took a lot of bad for me to adopt it. But, all that bad has helped to shape me into the person I am today. I may not be completely happy-go-lucky, but I do my best to not let things get me down. With each new day comes new experiences, be they good or bad, I welcome them.
I am very much a hopeless romantic. Love is one of those things that I just can't live without. I love with all that I am, which often times leads me to being hurt. But, I've never given up on it. There is no emotion to compare with love. There is no better feeling than to love and be loved in return. It's magical, it's pure, it simply beautiful. I believe in soul mates, to an extent. I do not believe there is only one person you're meant to be with, but I do believe that there are people who can touch your life in way no other person has, people who, upon meeting for the first time, you feel you've known for all your life. People who just get you. I do not believe in love at first sight. That's always seemed like such a shallow concept to me. You're basing your love on looks, nothing more with that one. I'm a firm believer in true love, however.
Art and music, I couldn't live without either. I consider myself to be an artist. I weave words, I paint pictures, I create digital work and I take photographs. I'm learning how to play the violin. I'm a creative person by nature, it's in the deepest parts of my very being. The need to create is something I can not, nor ever would attempt to, ignore. I love to read as well. I have such a strong attraction to written word, thanks to my book loving mother. And, well, music is considered art, so I figured I'd put that here as well, save some time. Music is a huge part of my life. I can't go five minutes without listening to something. If there's nothing to listen to, I'll sing. Music speaks to me like nothing else possibly could. I have no favorites when it comes to what I listen to. These days I can find something beautiful in just about anything I hear. As I stated before, I'm learning how to play the violin. I'd also love to learn how to play the piano. There is nothing more beautiful than those two instruments.
I am a very family oriented person. My family is my rock. When things are at their absolute worst, when I feel like there's no way I'll get through something, I turn to my family. They've held me up when I couldn't stand on my own two feet. It's because of them that I am the person I am today. We may not always get along, see eye-to-eye, we may have our disagreements and fights, but in the end, they're always there, always willing to look past my many (many) faults, and welcome me home. I am nothing without them.
I admit I'm a total gamer nerd. I am somewhat obsessed with WoW, and Starcraft 1 and 2. I am eagerly anticipating the release of Diablo 3 and The Old Republic. More so The Old Republic than anything else. I live for first person shooters, and Gears of War is my most prized possession. Final Fantasy is my particular drug when it comes to RPGs, and I love playing god with the Sims. Consul or computer, it makes no difference to me so long as I can kill something. Preferably in an awesome way, say, with a chainsaw gun for example. I got out of playing video games for the longest time, but I've recently embraced that part of me again with wide open arms. I am who I am, and I'm a gamer.
I love body modification. I have multiple piercings and one (for now) tattoo. Your body is your own, to do with what you please. I find nothing more beautiful than to use your body as canvas. To place art on it, knowing that it will always be a part of you. Modifications are the one thing you take with you when you part from this world. All your worldly possessions stay behind, but that art on your skin, that will always be a part of you. Well, until your body decays, anyway.
I could prattle on and on about myself, for there's so much to me, I'm a flawed, layered individual. However, everyone likes a bit of mystery. And, no one wants to read a profile that goes on for days. So, I shall call it a day with what I've given you above. If you've actually sat and read all of what I had to say, I deeply appreciate that. So few people like to read more than a few paragraphs, and people around here seem to like even less. I will not say that if you wish to know more about me all you have to do is ask. I probably wouldn't answer if you did that. If you really wish to know more, take the time to get to know me. Prove to me that you're worth my effort and time. So with that, I bid you all adieu.
You can't blast, stalk or bite me. I've turned these functions off, as is my right as a Premium Member. That does not mean I wish to receive your stupid custom made bites instead. If you've rated me and stamped my profile, good for you. But, please, do not send that same stamp in a message to me. It's pointless and redundant.
In all my years here few Societies have been able to capture my interest quite like Les Enfants has. I was part of the first incarnation so many years ago, and since then the Coven has been a favorite of mine. When it closed down I felt like I lost my home. But it had been an experiment from the beginning and I knew this. But it was reopened and again, I sought a place within it's walls. That feeling, belonging, was no less prevalent in it's new form as it was in its old. But, I stepped out to run a Coven (or three) of my own. Since then I've been in and out of the place with different accounts, and I've always enjoyed my time spent there, even if it was for a short while. But now, now I've returned to the place I love so dearly. And I intend to stick around until I am no longer of use or wanted. Les Enfants is an amazing Coven, one of the best I have ever taken part of, and if you know me you know I've taken part in many. The information and the people are what make the Coven what it is, and they are all wonderful. Plus, it's part of Arthropoda which has some truly amazing Societies in the Alliance. I'm home. This is where I belong.