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I am intense
Too much intense
For anyone to take in.
I am difficult person.
Too difficult
For anyone to digest.
I am too harsh,
Too harsh to swallow.
I am too narcissistic,
Narcissistic people like me
Are highly problematic
For anyone around them
I am toxic.
So toxic, I destroy and kill
Anything that has vitality.

But I won't apologise.
I won't apologise for what I am
I won't make excuses either
I am done trying to be
Someone that fits the mold
Just so you can feel
Comfortable and smile.
I won't try to fix myself.
I am done being miserable
So the society and you
Feel relaxed and accepting.

I won't have to speak
Break the silence.
I won't have to lie to
Be accepted
I won't have to smile
When I am not okay.
I won't change anything
About me.

I am all that you consider bad
I am all that you consider Wrong
I am what you consider needs
Changing.

No I won't do that anymore.
No I won't be sad anymore.
No I won't stay silent anymore
No I won't feel apologetic
For anyone anymore.

We are two different people
Living different lives with
Different thoughts.
You walk in the light
And I will walk in the shadows
But at least I won't change,
For anyone, even if it's you.

If I am toxic and too intense
I am meant to be this way
For a reason that I have yet
To discover and learn about.