The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

RIP Mikayla Raines (Save A Fox Founder)
00:57 Jun 24 2025
Times Read: 137





As a long time supporter and follower of Save-A-Fox Foundation/Corporation, I always looked up to Mikayla and learned about the advocacy for domesticated foxes and other animals she took in from. Mikayla ended her life by suicide after her battle with mental health and harassment. This is a truly a devastating loss.


https://www.google.com/amp/s/tribune.com.pk/story/2552372/youtuber-mikayla-raines-founder-of-save-a-fox-dies-by-suicide-after-online-harassment%3famp=1

What's it like living with depression?
22:05 Jun 23 2025
Times Read: 152

Honestly it fucking sucks. Can't stay happy for too long. I feel guilt and hopelessness. The feelings of being unworthy of love. One negative trigger and suddenly I'm just in a rabbit hole of despair, while trying to function on day to day activities. Staying in bed for hours and neglecting chores. Either Refusing to eat or overeating is a constant struggle. The longest I went without food was 3 days. The nauseous and sick feeling in the pit of my stomach turned. Suicidal thoughts and tendencies are there. Either I want to drink myself until I'm a mess or wanting to lock myself in the bathroom with a knife wanting to end it.
Thinking "Why me?" So much trauma and so much pain I felt. It's a miracle I made it to 30. It's the constant war I'm fighting of my wanting happiness vs feeling pain. Haven't committed Self harm or touched alcohol in 3 years.

In 2023, my mental health severely declined and that was my breaking point. I want it to end it for good. But then I realized I wanted help. I called every local out-patient treatment center I could and even dialed 988. I finally found one center and been seeking treatment ever since. I was placed on a high-risk list and was correctly diagnosed with PDD (Persistent Depressive Disorder), PTSD, and Anxiety.

I began psychotherapy (Talk- therapy) and took the necessary steps to manage my mental health and learn Healthy coping mechanisms. I began a journaling group, learning how to set boundaries with people, I took up learning how to read and write Japanese. I started to color. I go on nature hikes now. I rather talk about my feelings than bury them inside.

May 2023 was the month, I wanted to heal from EVERYTHING. It began my journey to heal myself and my mental health. There is so much to unpack and even trauma I didn't even realize was there. As my therapist told me "it's okay to not be ok."
I also learned that Healing isnt linear.
Healing isn't supposed to be all straight, cleaned up and flawless. Healing is supposed to be messy.

9/11/2025
07:28 Jun 23 2025
Times Read: 174

I'm calling it. I'm calling it now cause we are cooked. 6 months into 2025 and we're entering a war that has nothing to do with us. NOTHING. WW3 you say?! why yes. Trump brought us into a conflict that America isn't even apart of WITHOUT CONGRESSIONAL AUTHORIZATION and NOW he wants to talk about peace with Iran We already dealt with Afghanistan and Iraq. We don't want this. We are officially cooked and us new Yorkers are paranoid to the max. NYC is on high alert! The severity of the situation should speak volumes.

"New York on ‘high alert' after U.S. attacks on Iran
The New York Police Department said in a statement that it was putting officers at sensitive locations around the city in the wake of the U.S. action." By NBC New York Staff and The Associated Press • Published June 22, 2025 • Updated on June 22, 2025 at 6:42 pm

Demiromanticism
04:10 Jun 21 2025
Times Read: 199

Demiromantic is a term for a type of romantic attraction that falls on the aromantic spectrum. If you have ever felt like you didn't seem to fall in romantic love as easily as other people or if you rarely experience romantic feelings for other people, there's a chance that demiromantic might be an identity label that suits you.

When a person identifies as demiromantic, it means that they only experience romantic feelings for someone after they first form a strong emotional bond with that person. It is important to recognize that not all people experience romantic attraction in the same way. Nor is romantic attraction synonymous with sexual attraction.

In the case of demiromanticism, someone will only feel romantic feelings for someone after they have built a strong connection and know the other person very well. Because of this, they often experience no romantic feelings at all until they are able to forge that meaningful mental bond with another person.

https://www.verywellmind.com/signs-you-may-be-demiromantic-7482879


What does demiromantic mean?
Demiromantic is an identity housed under the aromantic umbrella, according to GLAAD. (We’ll chat more about aromanticism soon.) In short, to be demiromantic means that a person has to form emotional bonds with another person before they become romantically attracted to the person. Remember, people of any sexuality can be demiromantic. But as with any sexual identity, there are a lot of terms and differentiations to understand in order to get the full picture.

What is the difference between demiromantic and demisexual?

-Demiromantic and demisexual are often (incorrectly) used interchangeably. The Cleveland Clinic defines demisexuality as “people who only feel sexual attraction to someone after they’ve formed a strong emotional bond with them.” You may be asking yourself, “Isn’t that the same as the definition above for demiromantic?” It’s not!

The important differentiation here is “romantic” and “sexual.” Those who are demiromantic may experience frequent sexual attraction, but may only be romantically attracted to another person after emotionally bonding with them. And demisexuality is a spectrum in itself: many may rarely feel sexual attraction towards others, while others experience a lot of sexual attraction towards someone if they have become emotionally invested.

https://www.them.us/story/what-does-it-mean-to-be-demiromantic

Demisexuality
02:44 Jun 20 2025
Times Read: 222

Demisexual/Demisexuality:

a person who experiences sexual feelings and attraction only after developing a close emotional relationship and not on the basis of first impressions, physical characteristics, etc.
"since demisexuals require an emotional connection to feel sexual attraction, building trust is key"

https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-demisexual-5082519


-What is the emotional bond demisexuals need for sexual attraction?

It varies based on the demisexual’s personal experiences and is slightly different for everyone. Emotional intimacy is a main component, usually, so some demisexuals find themselves attracted to close friends or romantic partners. Other components may include familiarity with the person and knowledge about them (ex: learning about aspects of their personality).


https://demisexuality.org/articles/what-is-demisexuality/

- Demisexuality also falls under the Asexual (Acesexual) spectrum of the LGBTQ+
- Demisexualism doesn't necessarily mean you have to be gay, queer, bisexual, lesbian or pansexual. There are also Straight (heterosexual) demisexuals who do exist!

-You can love someone, but not see them in a sexual way
-You can see someone in a sexual way, but not love them

For Demis, it HAS TO BE BOTH. Demisexuals need to experience the emotional connection and bond first, with a person for the attraction to build up. They want to build a solid ground or rather foundations with another person to experience that intimacy on an emotional level

Tomorrow it's New York
08:08 Jun 19 2025
Times Read: 251

Excuse moi,
I beg your finest pardon!?
This is not very demure of the Israeli prime minister. As a millennial who was born on 9/11 and survived 2001. Leave new York tf outta this! We didn't do anything wrong. Don't you mean "Tomorrow it's DC" cause it's the white house you got beef with. Not new York! like bros we are tired! we're traumatized. We stressed. just leave us alone.

VR needs a 2025 update
03:57 Jun 17 2025
Times Read: 283

I get it I'm still relatively new here as a member going on 1 year. But looking at this site now, it's in need of major updates to keep up with the social networking factor of a site.

- We need the [Reply] [Block] [Delete] buttons to be on top of the page within the message center because it's getting rather troublesome having to scroll down numerous messages just to HIT reply every single time

-It would be nice if we can get A chat system as well. Not a whole chat room, but an actual chat messaging system, that is ya know similar to IM (Insant Message)

-For portfolios, it's 2025 we got different types of files not just photo files. Can we get the option to add video, instead of just posting photos. Speaking of the photos, the feature to include taking a photo within the site could be good. We don't always need to choose a file directly from our phone galleries. Why not be able to have a camera feature so we can take pics right there and tap [Upload]

-The links for profile graphics and videos
Surely not mainly of us are tech savy and coding literate but if there is a easier way to say put a background up on a profile with YouTube links that doesn't require too much. What ever happened to just posting a YouTube video link and the moment it's shared, the ACTUAL video pops up and not just a http link. Can't the same be done for profile customization? Find a link of a wallpaper of background and post it to our profile description, click save and boom it works.

- General Notifications
While I don't mind nor have a problem with the message center pop-up notification. I feel there should be more to the notifications and not just be limited to messages. What about journal and portfolio comments, profile comments, ratings.

That is all. thank you for coming to my TedTalk

Pain
11:53 Jun 14 2025
Times Read: 364

This World Shall Know Pain

What to watch???
06:58 Jun 14 2025
Times Read: 371

Need to catch up on Naruto Shippuden, but also need to start up on One Piece; however, at the same time, I need to pick up Black Clover. What to do? ugh. Also, have to make sure that all Mobile Suit Gundams are watched and completed. Should I return to Dragon Ball or Dragon Ball Z? Is JoJo's Bizarre Adventure worth watching? I'm already caught up with Bleach and Fairy Tail. I finished Attack on Titan, but should I get into my feels again?? Should I traumatize myself with Berserk?



So many options, so little time.