I'm the undisputed Queen of Fuckups.
I am struggling so much with work and my non-existent social life... much less my personal life, at it is.
I am picky with who I fuck.
Yes, the man attached to the member makes a difference for me.
I feel so fucking lost.
I feel so fucking low on energy.
I just need a nice, long, happy fuck, for some energy to function normally.
Fuck you, Men.
That is all.
I've been having major flashbacks.
I've always been mocked and derided for my literary abilities, all my life, which, compared to others, aren't all that special, tbh.
Do I have an imposter syndrome?
No clue on that one, I guess.
Anyway.
Yeah... I'm sure I'm still being mocked, derided, and isolated, for my abilities... Whatever they may be.
*rolls eyes*
There was a short period of time when I thought I suffered from Asperger's; but, my shrink ruled that out.
I just don't know how to jive with most people.
I'm a small-town woman, what can I say.
Always was. Always am. Always will be.
Nothing's gonna change that, for sure.
My heart will always be with the Vampires. I prefer Western men to Asian men because they are direct and straight to the point. However, I don't think there is any reciprocating feelings and thoughts on their part towards me, tho.
Ah well. Something has got to give, right.
Yeah well, why me when you can find any other woman in a cosmopolitan city of beautiful people?
Clearly, it'll take some head clearing, to sort out the confusion.
Haw.
Don't blame me; I'm a city chick myself.
Just a small town Vampire, skulking in the night for her lover...
Humans just don't get it, do they? Well, they will never know.
Vampires like myself are cursed creatures of the Night, I swear.
Identity theft is rampant.
Nice try.
Why don't you try again, in, let's say, thirteen years?
Good luck!
I have re-started to visit nearby places of worship, lately. I have been craving rituals, due to my ongoing involvement in the Occult. I have been several books intensively. And trust me when I say that they are *intensive*. They are Dark Academia books - very similar {if not the actual!) to textbooks used in University!
I am a Luciferic Kheprian Vampire Priestess and a devotee of Hekate, Lucifer, Shiva, and Durga.Yes, I am glad to have found my path in this life.
So, yeah... I am just feeling so much better than I used to, in the last couple of months.
Thanks be to Spiritual Rituals conducted by *actual* Priests.
Other than that, I have been working the graveyard shift. Nothing glamorous about that, really; it's just a career path. It feels awesome to be totally free in the day-time to run errands. The day stretches out nicely. I am still single - so, I am not bound by family matters that much.
Oh well, just make use of my time wisely, I guess.
Ugh.
Just yesterday, my mental health took a dive for the worst. I was coming up with ways to die painlessly.
Can you imagine how dark my mind went just last afternoon? I mean, there I was sitting on the edge of my bed, with a bottle of pills, ready to not wake up the next morning.
Then, I went on IG and saw all the other Vampires I am currently following... And well, I felt better, knowing that I am not alone in this world. There are so many thrivkng Vampires like myself, around the world.
So, yeah, I'm just going to be myself and spread the love around.
The struggle is real, my friends.
Eid Mubarak, my friends!
Blessed Be and May the Force be with You.
Why do these mother fucking jokers have to ruin everything for me.
I wish they'd be roadkill.
Thanks, fuckers.
Syonara, fuckers.
I may as well reside in the bible belt.
I have given up on the male species.
The last date I went on was fun, really, tho.
We had that instant connection upon meeting...
But...
Yeah, he disappeared on me, post-meetup.
Just poof.
I have been single for the past decade.
And going nowhere in the romance section of my life.
I'd like a pretty lil' baby, tho.
Guess it's just my biological clock ticking away like a time-bomb.
Ah fuck it.
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Honey believe me you don't missing anything lol Enjoy in your freedom 😉 ❤️
Eventually.
Finally.
My career has always been an "eventually" case.
Now, it's "finally".
I haven't had much of a life lately... Working the graveyard shift, that's why.
I'm shocked that VR is still floating around, in cyberspace, tbh.
Hell, I've been a member for slightly more than a decade!
Isn't life just peachy?
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