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I miss those days when I was free and innocent...where my friends and I would dream about the future ...how we were gonna help our parents n siblings out...how we would build schools for the poor and then charge the rich a high amount so that the poor would pay nil..I miss those days where we would walk to school dreaming...when we still feared and respected our parents...now we just lil shitheads with no future ...some of us are enjoying life knowing that our futures are surely fucked.some we studying but we don't know what we want to be and the stupidest of us are following our parents like lost sheep..we tryna force our selves into things we don't deserve or need at the moment...I wanna go back in time and stop the events that have allowed us to reach here.I'm hoping that things will improve in the next couple of years...that we will wake up and smell the shit our lives have become or else I seriously don't know how we shall live...I miss them days when I was young and not so fucked.

varsity opened today and now I knw thats its my time to 'shine' ..I got a good feeling about it ..im doing modules that I love. ..God is blessing me in small effective ways...ma friends are sort of happy and im fine..thing is I need a bursary or else im dead shit..or mayb God is gonna make a Lekker plan. ..finally im feeling him in ma bones...second semester is gonna have to be the time of my life. ..I deserve a break right now...cant wait for zulu and English classes..so far sociology seems abit hard..buh imna crack it

dreaming big ...but every time I look at the future my gut hurts ...I need a miracle...dreaming very big..but I'm afraid

you said hey...u reminded me of someone else that I knew a while back...mayb your are him...I dont know. ..it would be amazeballz if u were...I would never let you go again. .you so secretive. ..u remind me of yet anada guy...u dnt wanna tell me nothing bout u...its cool I guess..ill share for both of us..I think im starting to fall

As a youth we are goin to review the code of conduct of the church I attend some times. .im pretty excited. ..first thing on the agenda for me is hair dye..if them older women are allowed to dye their hair black we should be allowed to dye our hair whatever colour we want.a sin is a sin n dye z dye..colour doesn't matter.hope they will listen to us...I have to dye my hair purple next month if they say no den I guess I shall have to look for a new church to join ...im excited for tomoro. . hope its gonna be as much fun as last time. .I hope maman makes it home on time so that we can go together. .I miss her lots...I wanna do something special for her....ill try n make a plan I guess. ..she is amazeballz

living in a community where all the youth have fathers except you sucks...your friends be like my daddy this my daddy that...fuckin irritating ..and then u start calling them your pa too just to feel something inside. ..ur friends are quick to point out that their pa aint yours...man im over this shit...wish he never died.wish I could have seen him...I wish I could have had just one memory with him...ma hardly talks about him..when I ask she goes off on me.I wish she had remarried. ..buh I guess she did what she thought was best for me and im highly thankful for her...but still I wish I had a dad..or even an older guy who acted like a dad to me

im so dumb..ma is right my naivety is gonna get me killed. ..this is the second phone that has been stolen from me because of trusting a human. . I should learn fast and know that humans are evil and not to be trusted..they always end up stabbing your ass and back same time.hopefully ma will buy me a new phone coz I cant do next semester without my music. .ill be like fish out of water..dead.

ma went out..she is gonna be gone for a week and now I have to stay with my sorta bff...her mom is just too much..n her kid bro n her aunt..man niggaz depress me...hopefully ill b able to smoke tomoro after I pass home. .shit better work. I got angry at God for a second buh that was me being stupid. .im Lucky nothing happened to me.I now need to decide what church to join. and imma have to stick to dem rules...naaah breaking a few will be lekker. Sandrine misses her bf..nxt semester should come so that they should be together. ..cant wait for the day when she tells her parents..her mom will shit on her...man..im bored and feeling low...hope shit works out