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I woke up took the dog out this morning and realized now there are two of the same kind of mushrooms that was growing a couple of weeks ago. Which grew to be about the size of a dinner plate I might add. So when does one consider it a “fairy circle”? How many mushrooms does it have to be? Does it have to be a certain type of mushroom? Or do they only reside in a certain region of the world? Asking for a friend. Lol
I take a big risk letting you into my world and heart. I usually don’t judge others by who they hold friendship with. I can’t control that it’s not my place too. It’s a boundary for me though with a specific person here. We have a long complicated history. I won’t make you choose but I will choose myself if I need to if there ever comes a time.
I have let you into my world I’m extending myself despite my own fears of being hurt through this somehow because of him.
I want to feel that he has turned over a new leaf. I want to trust… I want to forgive..I’m trying but my body is revolting against me and so is my heart. They are at war. My heart is always the fool.
One of my favorite songs. I too have issues with some people on this site especially when related to narcissistic personalities some are just fellow empaths still licking their wounds from such or haven't matured from the manipulative behavior themselves as it can be powerful. All this in a text field with typed words is a hard thing to manage. If these people feel the need to just gloss over things in the passed then it kind of demonstrates they really haven't moved on. In Jungian Psychology it states the Narcissist will rarely change but just double down with more potent forms of manipulation to keep their mask in place.
Tree I understand you want to help but this is not your business. Please let the ones involved make their own descions . You yourself are capable of being narcissistic as we all are .. it's part of the dark with us all. We need to learn and grow to over come .
00:41 Oct 03 2026 Times Read: 486
Been a long day. Haven’t been feeling the greatest. Slept like shit last night. Feel like I’m about ready to pop as in either emotionally or chunks or both.
I feel numb. Maybe not numb but paralyzed maybe is a better word. Like when prey and predator meet they freeze.
The prey hoping that if it doesn’t move the predator won’t see it.
It’s like this with most men. Has always been like this. I know why it is. If I can’t fawn out of situation. I tend to freeze and become paralyzed physically and emotionally. Then if backed into a corner, I panic. I lash out. Then it becomes fight or flight. I become a beast. Something, someone I don’t want to be at least not in that form. I don’t do well with men. Never have. It’s not that I don’t love or like them.
I do not ever feel completely safe or at ease with them because of what happened. So that is why it’s difficult for me to find words. To process things. It takes me longer than most because my brain just stops until it snaps out of it.
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xXWickedTemptationsXx
18:17 Oct 10 2026
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IICrimsonII
18:35 Oct 10 2026
🤭😏