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I've finally gotten that damn song out of my head. Unless I think about it like right now, but its not nearly as intense as it was the past few days. I love the song, but its like it was ingraving itself in my brain, driving me insane. I'm almost scared to listen to it now... A lot has been on my mind. I'm just trying to make it through this semester of school though, and next semester, pay off my bills (all but the loans at least), and then I HOPE LIKE HELL that I can move to Hot Springs. If not, I'll have to wait until December 2013, or Summer 2014, which would mean I'd be stuck in this horrid place for much longer. I'm just so ready to get out. Ugh, if I never married that asshole... If I didn't feel obligated to live up to everyone's expectations of success and shit... Ah, fuck it. I will escape. I will. As soon as I am able, I will.

Working on online homework now, well, after I finish this entry at least. Its Excel work on SNAP. After that I'm gonna try and find some motivation to work on cleaning the room, which I have put off for farrrrr too long now. Tomorrow I have an Accounting II test. *sigh* That's gonna involve a lot of studying later tonight. Then I must go to my manager's farwell party, and then clean house. And much more things the next few days after full of blah until I get off work Saturday and it'll be time for our HOT SPRINGS TRIP! I'm so ready for Saturday.

I was trippin' ballz on the way to Kobi's granny's from Beth's house not too long ago; Everything was so bright and reached out everywhere! And everything was reflected and shadowed with color! It was freaking awesome but my brain kept thinking "damn!" I wish I always saw things that way.

These past few days have been pretty damn good. :) Dez came back last night for... well, not long at all. I think he knew Jesse was around and he left. He says he's not scared of him, but if he isn't, why does he always leave when he's around? Makes no sense to me. Watching Repo now. I would go into more detail about the past few days but I'm too lazy to.