20:13 Jul 31 2021
Times Read: 185
Had my first night at work last night, and it went really well. My job is pretty easy though. I'm working at an ice cream place down the street. I take the kids in there constantly so the owner asked if I was looking for a job last week. Technically, I have my business so I didn't really need a job, and I definitely make more money with my business, but it's nice, I enjoy it. It's super easy, 99% making ice cream cones, covering things in rainbow sprinkles, making them look pretty, stuff like that. They really hired me because most of the people who work there are teenagers, and they wanted someone a little older to kind of rule over them xD Hey, if it's one thing I'm good at, it's yelling at children, I've constantly got several of my nieces, and nephews in my hair so I totally got that part down. I may look like one of them since these 16 year old guys are like a foot taller than me, but I know how to be bossy, I can handle that, and like I said, aside from that it's just ice cream. Wolfie is worried about it affecting my health, he always tells me I don't need to work, but I'm tired of living in a bubble, I need to get out especially since he's still not back yet, and the waiting is getting to me, I need a distraction. And I only work 4-5 hour shifts maybe 4 days a week so it's just a really simple part-time, throw away when the time comes kinda job. It's really exactly what I need right now since, once again, Wolfie doesn't know when he'll be back. He was supposed to be back at the beginning of the month, but it's been put on hold, again, so hopefully it won't take longer than a few more weeks. I dunno, things are always complicated, but it's good for now, I'm happy to be out being independent :3 And with my work hours being usually 5-9, I never have to get up early xD That's one major thing about having a job that I hate, I don't sleep easily at night so having this job where I go in later is another perfect thing. And the owners are super relaxed. The one main owner is pretty strict on how she wants people to look, she doesn't like piercings/tattoos/colored hair, but she's also completely blind... So her son, who runs the place, tells me he doesn't care how I look as long as I'm not obscene or anything. It's a family run business for the most part so their kids are also there all the time, they have a little girl who's probably 6, and she follows me around everywhere trying to help me, it's super adorable. I feel good though. I think this was exactly what I needed♡
02:59 Jul 30 2021
Times Read: 235
I love it, and almost hate it how with one word Wolfie can instantly calm me. No matter how angry or upset or scared or anything I am, it just takes one word from him, and it all instantly stops. He can just walk in, and everything in my head stops churning, everything in my heart stops hurting.
I heard him this morning. His voice woke me up. I'm known for hearing voices when I sleep, for seeing things, for arguing with things that aren't there. Sometimes voices I know, sometimes complete strangers. It's happened since I was a kid, the doctors always tell me it's just hallucinations. But I heard his voice so crystal clear that it woke me up with a gasp like some cheesy movie.
Gentle, almost sad, a little unsure. I didn't tell him about it when he got ahold of me later.
I got another job today. I need to be doing something, I hate feeling like all I do is sit here and wait. I work tomorrow night, 5-9. I hope my immune system can handle being around lots of people. It's not like physical contact or anything, but it's still breathing the same air. The guy just kinda offered it to me randomly then after the interview hired me right there. I'm proud of myself. I can do this♡