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First just to say i know i not wrote in awhile i know when i talk or write i dont make sense sometimes so your have to try and see what im meaning sorry. Ok so i know i not written in here for awhile my head is so messed up at the moment well i think it is?? I feel so confused on times at the moment ive im so deeply in love with this girl who means the universe to me i mean im really in love with her i thought id never feel this kind of love again she is what i live for and exist for she is my waking moment and my deepest sweetest dreams, without her id die and have nothing anymore no lie. I'm sooo scared of messing that up and losing what i have with her, she is so understanding and patient with me evern when shes not feeling too good herself she still trys to let me know we are ok in her own way evern if my head tells me otherwise which i worry about as my head seems to mess things up more then often i feel and i make it worse i just dont want to lose her ever because of my past keeps popping in my head now and again and when i say my thoughts out loud on the phone i feel i make it worse and make her upset angry or not want me no more, i just want to let her know what im thinking and going though thats all nothing more and so she understands how i feel about her but on times i feel what i say or think makes her think less of me and not want me as much as she used too i mean everything i do is for her im saving to be with her i want to be with her forever i just feel i make her push me away on times and i dont know how or what i say or do wrong i get told no i havnt but deep down i know i have but dont get the answers. All i ever want to do is make her happy and want me as much as she did when she first met me or more all i want is to be with her and be happy and not worry if im going to lose her or to another i mean this week i had a near Death experience with something wrong with my heart which made me see how much she means to me and how much i love her and want to be with her forever i cant lose her losing her now would be like Dieing shes made me life mean something again and i just dont want to lose that or mess up to make her not want me no more i just dont want to say or do anything to make her change how she thinks and feels about me. I want to have future with her and be with her and love her more then i do now if thats evern posible i want to hold her and kiss her and show her what she means to and how much i love her forever i just try and want to be the best bf shes had and have i never hurt her i just dont want to be hurt myself everything i do is for her i think of her 24 7 when i do my heart beats faster and i cant stop smiling evern when my silly worrys get in my head just to hear from her makes me better and calm and lets me know everything is going to be alright no matter what i say or think i just dont want my silly worrys and fears to scare her off or not want me no more i love her with all my heart and soul when i think of her sometines all of a sudden id hear from her its like she knows im thinking of her when she tells me she loves me its hard to believe how someone so pretty and sexy could ever love me so much as she does i feel im the luckest guy in this world to have someone love me the way she does i mean im not much get silly with thinking things that arent there or happening but my past hurt me and messed me up so much my head but she is healing all the hurt and pain that has be caused by others over the years and making my fears start to disappear i never want to lose her shes my life and world and everything im living for, Without her id be dead and worth nothing my heart would just be a empty shell pumping pain and hurt thoughtout my body but as she loves me so much and has stayed with me this long no matter what ive said or done she fills my heart with happiness and joy it beats faster for her pumping love and happiness within my vains and heart evern though my heart is weak from dieing 3 times already for real she makes it feel stronger then its ever been shes the one for me ive fallen deeply in love with her and want to spend the rest of my life with shes my baby and wife to be and angel watching over me caring for me no matter what i do or say i feel she will always be there for me and be the one as thats how i feel about her too so know you know how im thinking and feeling right now.



Love Damion xxxx

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mistyyaslana
23:28 Sep 20 2009

god i love wat u have ritten and u should just follow your heart man and i hope it works out for u :)

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Lunalessca
00:00 Sep 21 2009

Awww she sounds cool and im sure everything will go good for you. You just got to have a liol faith in yourself buddy.^-^

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HORY
23:30 Mar 29 2010

hae bro i think wat Mistyyaslana aka Aurora said was tru u shuld just follow ur heart and hopes it all works out

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