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08:47 Jan 27 2018
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02:59 Jan 27 2018
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00:42 Jan 27 2018
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08:42 Jan 26 2018
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20:46 Jan 25 2018
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19:38 Jan 24 2018
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17:38 Jan 23 2018
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06:54 Jan 23 2018
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I got to see my Tommy for the first time in years today. It was amazing. To see who he has become, what he's been doing with his life. I'm so proud of him. He works at an occult shop in Hollywood, and he has become a really skilled reader of runes. I remember when we would read books on paganism in the back of his dad's van at Young Marines.
He treated me to lunch and then we went to a few occult shops in the area. After he took me to a local gay bar for a few drinks, then back to my place for some talking and a reading. It was hard, hearing the things he was telling me, hard, but needed. The same six runes kept popping up every time he threw, and out of so many, that's pretty amazing. So, you really need to stop and listen to what they're saying. I know what needs to be changed, it's all about getting off my ass and making those changes. For the betterment of myself.
He left a little bit ago, he's got a long drive back to Hollywood. But, before he left he gave me a set of ruined to play around with, see how I like them. He says I could probably be a really good reader. I suck with tarot cards, so maybe I'll be decent with runes. He also gave me a hematite, because I need to ground myself. He says I'm most likely an empathy, and I have a lot of untapped potential for all of it. I know Tommy, he's not one to just bullshit about such things. So, I listened to what he had to say, and I considered everything. I have to agree with a lot of stuff he was saying. He wants me to go out and visit him at some point, meet some of the people in his coven. I'm actually pretty excited for that.
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17:57 Jan 22 2018
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19:14 Jan 20 2018
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10:05 Jan 19 2018
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14:09 Jan 18 2018
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05:23 Jan 18 2018
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00:17 Jan 18 2018
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17:51 Jan 17 2018
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I've got a date with Tommy Monday! You have no idea how happy I am to be seeing him. It's been years since we last hung out, I think 2014, when we went for sushi and got hammered on soju and sake. I've missed that kid. I'm so glad he sent me a text this morning. Granted, he's concerned about my state of mind, but, I'm better than I have been. I'm excited now. That's what's going to get me through my work week, the thought that at the end I have a date with my best friend.
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10:27 Jan 17 2018
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19:22 Jan 16 2018
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05:31 Jan 16 2018
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16:15 Jan 15 2018
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07:38 Jan 15 2018
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02:14 Jan 14 2018
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04:34 Jan 13 2018
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12:23 Jan 12 2018
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13:24 Jan 10 2018
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Has one line from a TV show or movie or book ever hit you so hard you just break down completely and sob?
"You did the best you could."
That one line from the anime, Death Parade tore me to pieces. It's in the fourth episode, an episode about a woman who does the best for her kids but is a bitch to everyone else, and a kid who committed suicide. It's said at the end, after they play the game, after judgment has been passed. Decim holds them while they cry, and he says it.
You did the best you could. I don't know why it resonated so much with me. Maybe I saw myself in the one who killed himself, with my recent attempt, with my depression. Maybe I'm holding out hope that someone will hold me close, tell me that I'm doing the best I can. To hold on...
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08:14 Jan 09 2018
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23:08 Jan 08 2018
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10:01 Jan 08 2018
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03:56 Jan 08 2018
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15:51 Jan 06 2018
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When people I don't know message me like they know me, it takes a lot for me not to respond like a bitch. Normally messages go unanswered here, unless I feel it's important. There are very few of you I want to have any kind of communication with. I mean, I don't think I come off as someone who's super approachable and friendly. And if I do, I should probably work on that. Point being, don't message me. Like, ever. Unless it has something to do with this site, I likely won't care. I don't want to be your friend, I don't want to take part in idle, pointless chit chat. I'm not interested.
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10:53 Jan 06 2018
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00:03 Jan 06 2018
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03:20 Jan 05 2018
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16:02 Jan 04 2018
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