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I have grown this weird fascination with Korean dramas. I'm obsessed with a show I've been watching online lately, Coffee Prince. Anime, manga, and now Korean soaps. I need help.
I've gotten interested in the Suicide forest of Japan.
Not the same thing, not even a television show, actually it's in an entirely different country. ha. Still. I don't know. Yeah.
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Seeing Neil Gaiman live and in person and right there in front of me was absolutely ah-may-zing! I will never forget last night for as long as I live. And that signed copy of the 10th anniversary edition of American Gods is my new prized posession.
New season of True Blood starts tonight. Yeah, I'm excited. Plus, HBO is doing something awesome. If you have HBO Go they're putting out next week's episode right after tonight's new one. So, I've gotta get it on my computer, or most likely, my phone so I can watch.
And then, Torchwood starts on the 8th. I think I'm anticipating Miracle Day more than True Blood right now. I really want to see where Starz takes my third favorite Doctor Who character, Captain Jack. :]
... That really sucks. The third season of True Blood hasn't even come out here. We don't get it on paid television (No HBO!) so we're forced to wait until it's released or find it with crappy audio online.
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It's so selfish of me to want to keep you in my life. To say you're mine, to stake a claim to you, to say I love you. It's selfish because I know I am hurting you. I know I am the reason for your pain. And yet, I won't give you up. I can't. I want you, but in what capacity? I don't know.. Nothing I say to you is false, and that's the problem. You care so deeply, and though I care to some extent, it's nowhere close to your feelings. It's unfair to you. You love me like I love him. I don't want to continue to inflict this pain, but I can't let you go. Even if it's for the best, even though I know it would be the right thing to do. I am not willing to see you go. I'm being selfish, and yet, I don't care.
You can't get over him...and I certainly can't get over you. *sighs* What a pair we make, hmm?
I've said it before, and I'll say it again, my dear. Fate brought us together FOR A REASON. ...Somehow, I'm not quite sure that reason has revealed itself just yet, but for either one of us to shut the other out, I can't shake the feeling that it would be a grave mistake for the both of us.
When you told me a while back that aside from the distance we truly work as a couple, I couldn't have agreed with you more. However, I couldn't...WOULDN'T ask you to wait for me, even though...even though I want to with all my heart. Because while I love you, I also want to see you happy. Yeah, it's hard on me. I can't get you out of my head...but the screwed up thing is, I think...I think I'd be worse without you around.
Look, I don't like that...person, and never will, not after you're willing to give him another chance after he's hurt you twice before...and I'll probably never trust or respect him, but if he makes you happy, then my opinion doesn't matter.
*sighs* Look, we were friends, great friends, before we were ever...*ahem*..anything else, so if nothing else we've got that going for us. Like I said, just don't shut me out. I don't want to lose you.
I'll be around if you want to talk.
(I already told you once, above all else, I'm loyal. You're stuck with me for life. After near five years, you still haven't grasped this idea? C'mon!)
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Went out for a hike in the Anaheim Hills with my aunt Stacy and two of her friends. It was killer, it really was. I was just about dying. But, it was fun. Save for the sunburn I got on my right arm. I'll be going out with them again on Monday.
Who told you to wear sunscreen? Hmmmm? :3 I'm glad you had fun.
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Looking up "juggalos", "juggalettes", and "mmfwcl" on Urban Dictionary makes me smile. A lot.
Commonly used by the bane of all human intelligence (also known as Juggalos/Juggalettes), a term usually used to convey "Much Mother-Fucking Wicked Clown Love". However, when looked at closer, the term translates into something more along the lines of "Massive Mongoloid Fucking Wigger Clown Loser".
"Portfolios are no longer limited in the type of content they can contain. The old rules of, You must be in the picture or You must have taken the picture have been removed."
For real? Well, that should be awesome. I'm not rating those anymore. People are just going to snag images from wherever and post them in there, just like they do with their profiles. It kind of ruins what a portfolio is all about..
I know it seems hard to understand- but it is too hard to monitor. DMCA policy still applies. If people are using work as their own and it is not, owners can dispute it. The old rules had been too hard to monitor and make clear- this site will now run as Photobucket and YouTube do in regards to these laws... when the owners complain, violators will be dealt with at that time. People will upload at their own risk. If you see something that isn't theirs- you can feel free to alert the real owners online- it's up to them to take the steps from there.
Remember when your portfolio was suspended and it was really your work? You won't have to worry about anyone assuming your work isn't yours anymore. It was never up to us to to make that judgment in the first place- but it kept happening here and there.
I just got the best profile comment. Ever. Random strangers really have the ability to make my day with a few words.
"You're not plain and easily looked over, you are beautiful, a gem really. You think there is nothing significant about your life or special about you, and yet your profile is one of the few that is carefully thought out, planned, and written with perfect articulation. No madam, you indeed are special. The universe does not waste its time on people who dont deserve it, and your intelligence is enough reason for blessings to be bestowed upon you. Just wait, i guarantee you that as you age life will open all its secrets up to you, it has for many like you of all ages. I only write this because you intrigue me in a platonic way and i felt someone needed to inform you of your worth (endless). Blessed be and merry meet again."
My day out yesterday was pretty awesome. It was great seeing my aunt again. I've missed her. And, while I didn't get to see my little cousin, Brenna, it was still fun. We went out to a semi late lunch, at two, to the Olive Garden. My aunt made me have a glass of this deliciously sweet wine. It was so yummy. And it went perfect with my lunch. Then we went and saw Bridesmaids. Not typically my kind of film, but it was pretty funny. We got done at around seven, and headed back to our house, where she stayed and we played catch up until like nine. It was fun, because everyone had been home, or just getting home, when we got to the house, so it was everyone who was sitting in the living room just having fun and chatting.
After my aunt left, I got a call from Nick and we hung out for a bit. Played some old school Sonic on his PS3. We both sucked. Neither of us had played it since it was on the original Sega system. We then talked about E3 and the awesome and not-so-awesome that came out of it. Then we watched some Doctor Who on Netflix. It was a great day and night. I had a lot of fun hanging out with people I really enjoy being around.
I'm really looking forward to tomorrow. I get to see my aunt Stacy for the first time since July of last year, when I was saying goodbye before I left for Oregon. I've missed her. It's funny, when I was younger I must admit, my favorite aunt on my mother's side was definitively my aunt Sue. I grew up with her and her family. My brother and I spent Christmas and summer breaks at her house, we'd go over for weekends, just to hang out. She ran a dance studio for a number of years before she got sick, and I used to do tap and ballet, and gymnastics for free. She was, in my book, the best aunt ever. And my aunt Stacy.. well.. She was really into being a born-again Christian for a number of years. As I got older I branched out with my religious beliefs, and she constantly railed me about that. And about things I liked (Harry Potter and vampires). Plus, she was really touchy feely and I was in a stage where I didn't do hugs and all that nonsense.
But now, as I've grown out of that behavior, and since my aunt Sue moved out to Yuma, I really enjoy the time I spend with my aunt Stacy. We have a lot in common, and now that she's become less of the bible preaching religious fanatic, she accepts my choice in faith, or lack-thereof. I've grown up and learned that time with my family is the most important thing to me, and regardless of any problems we may have had in the past, she's still very much my family. And I love her.
So yeah.. Tomorrow me and my mom are gonna go out with her, and quite possibly her daughter, and just go have some lunch, catch up on things, and maybe take in a movie. So, I'm really excited. Nearly a year without seeing her, when she lives maybe a half hour away from us, is just too long. It's going to be fun. :]
I have to say...Wonderland...looks more fun than ever, and I like the new "facelifts" they've given Alice and Cheshire. (Might just be me, but I swear I saw flecks of blood in his teeth! lol)
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I keep getting hit on in cam. This shit is getting annoying. It's not even fun anymore. The lines are just pathetic.
Had to re-take the Acolyte test. One of these days I'd like to pass it with a perfect score. I always end up missing one or two questions. After so many years of being a member here, and holding the position for a good chunk of that time, you would think passing it with a perfect score would be easy.
Alright, kiddies, I am going to say it (for the billionth time now) because it needs to be said. This world, Vampire Rave, it isn't real. It exists only online. The internet shouldn't be your whole life. There's a countless number of things, out there in the real world, that are so much better than the internet. You shouldn't invest so much into something that no longer matters when you log out. All the petty fighting and e-therats, bullying and all that other nonsense is just that, nonsense. Pretending to be other people, nasty journal entries and comments, "revenge" anything, seriously? Look, if you don't like someone, don't associate with them, keep away, block, do what you have to. Writing pointless journal entries, bugging them in cam, it does nothing but perpetuate exactly what you don't want.
This isn't directed at any individual person. But, if you feel it's about you, maybe you should sort out your priorities. Of course, I can't make anyone do anything, and this message will most likely fall on deaf ears, but I don't care. I said what many have said over the years. It's sad that such messages have to constantly be rehashed around here, but, I suppose that's the internet for you.
LOL it's just a pity that the folk who need to read journals like this probably don't read much :)
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I just got the BEST news ever.
I will be seeing Neil Gaiman when he comes out to LA on his American Gods Tour later this month! Plus, I get a signed copy of the Tenth Anniversary Edition of American Gods.
Now, anyone who knows me well knows that I love Neil Gamain and all his works. I would walk to the ends of the earth to see him and get something singed by him. He has been an inspiration in my life for years now. Can't you tell even just a little bit from my Coven's name? So yeah, this is like the best gift ever. I am so freaking stoked about this. June 28th isn't going to come fast enough!
I'm a geek. I know this, I admit this, I embrace this fact. I've actually been thinking about getting a few more tattoos done in the near future. Things that relate to my total geekiness.
First:
The Seal of Rassilon (Doctor Who)
Second:
The Key to Hell (Sandman)
Third:
The Deathly Hallows (Harry Potter)
Yeah, I also want to get a TARDIS and some lines from LotR in Sindarin.
Well.... If you're going to get tats, at least these are cool. If mine were like these I might not hate them so much. I have 17 tattoos and want to get rid of every single one. Be sure to choose the location wisely. What you think rocks today, might not rock so much later. I don't mean the subject matter, but having the tattoos in general.
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