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Where do I even begin?
There are some people that
I'd love to speak to again
But at this point, I'm not sure
If they'd let me back in

Looking back, I can see that
I really wasn't that great of a friend
The fault was truly my own
In the end

I took the time that was spent with them
For granted
Not caring what awaited me the next day
I didn't even take the time to hear
What they had to say

I miss the one's I was able to
Speak to day to day
If they knew how I felt
I wonder what they'd say

Would they even bother to forgive me
For the way I used to be?
Or am I just an after thought
That they'd rather not see?

Still, I wish I could get to know them again
Would love to know how they've been
But I that in the very end
I should have been a better friend

I'm sorry for the things that were left unsaid
And for not saying the words I should have said
If anything, I hope you at least know this is true
I really do miss you

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Cadrewolf2
17:34 Jun 07 2026

Wow powerful

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I know I'm not the best example
Of reaching out and saying hi
I've definitely missed every chance
I had to say goodbye

It's not as if I strive to be this way
Just not sure of what to say
So here I remain silent
And alone at the end of each day

When I go to reach out to someone
My inner thoughts hold me back
What I initially wanted ends
On a broken track

Not trying to say this to make excuses
Or some convenient reason
I'm just afraid people will leave
Like a change in season

I'm half afraid to know if there was
Anyone who decided to remain
While the other half of me
Is still trying to figure out how
To be sane

I feel broken, completely lost
Damaged beyond repair
I'm not even sure
If there's anyone left that
Even remotely cares

It feels like I'm redoing everything from scratch
I just don't know where to start
After part of my life that fell apart
It felt like I lost a portion of my heart

It's kind of hard to try to talk to someone
When you know you have practically nothing
At this point, even a stable mind
Would be something

I realize that my recent writings
Haven't been remotely positive
They're probably a little too negative
And for that, I apologize

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Adain
08:43 Jun 05 2026

Hey, the best of friendships and connections are based on the concept of nothing. Nothing at all. They simply exist and don't need to be filled with anything, no words, no thoughts, no actions, no worrying about what to say or what to do.

You clearly have all the feelings and empathy to be a good connection to any like-minded people, just 'be' whatever you are, just be you.

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Adain
08:48 Jun 05 2026

Rated your pro' but ran out of honour points today.

People care, people cared about me when I needed a hand, and as one lady said when she helped me, people had helped her too when needed, so here I am here with you. It's good. It's right.

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StormWatchers
06:17 Jun 06 2026

Sending a hug, just thought you needed one.😁

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I may be lost, but for a cost
I could sell you a map
Was originally stated as a joke
But now I just feel
Physically and mentally broke

Like I took two steps forward
Stepped on a land mine
Now there's not enough pieces
Of me to find

Caged in for only my inner self
To be able to see
Is there really no way out
From my own misery?

Tired of dealing with this
Surrounding silence
Would peace actually exist
With my absence?

I haven't been in a good head space
Maybe my mind needs to be replaced
I can only hope for my hidden thoughts
To be erased

Just don't know where to start
Or even begin
It's beginning to feel as if
My life's a sin

If only it didn't feel as if
I'm always in the wrong
Maybe then there could be
A place for me to belong