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Fading
08:36 Apr 28 2007
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Is there a point in loving you?

I have given it my best, done all I could do

... And still I fell short

My heart was yours for the taking

But over the years it hasn't stopped breaking

I have hurt so much, I can hurt no more

You hurt me so much, but still I adore

Everything about you

I am finally making myself realize that the chance of "Us" ever happening has long been gone

I am finally making myself realize that I'm just your shoulder to cry on

I reflect on myself and see what I have become

A depressed little boy that will become a bum

Why would you want me, When I don't want myself

It's the memories that keep me going

It's the memories that keep me glowing

But they are something of the past

And like me.. Are fading fast

08:34 Apr 28 2007
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Love isn't real

It's all just a gag

It is the world's cruelness

Of showing us something we can't have



No matter how much you think it's there

It isn't real

Because it only takes a split second

Before its a done deal



There is no way to win

You'll lose, you're fucked

Might as well not try

Might as well give up



It's not worth the time

No matter how good it seems

It's just your mind playing tricks

It's all just a dream

08:32 Apr 28 2007
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Falling back to the same thing,

Falling back to you again,

Falling back to where I was,

Falling back just because.



Every time I come this far,

All I see is who you are,

You lied too, to get me here,

Again I fall too far,

Fall away from who I am,

Let your knife find its slot amidst my back,

Loving, Fighting, Mending broken ends,

My love for you blinds me again,

I clear my eyes of blue stained tears,

As my heart sears with worries and fears,

I have been here before,

Lost in your eyes,

As you settle the score,



Falling back to the same thing as before,

Falling back to you again,

Falling back to where I was,

Falling back to who I am,



Can you see me for what I really am,

Or do you see a person you can bend,

To you I am simply a pawn in play,

But you and I are fated for a different game,

The question remains along with the blame,

I have come to prove the person I can never be,

A blindfolded spirit tied down with shame,

Doomed to repeat the mistakes I have made,

Screaming for justice in a life rancid with blame,

You have broken my heart and left me to die,

But you can’t kill a spirit that was never alive.

Never with you Again
08:29 Apr 28 2007
Times Read: 1,046




When insecurities rise

And all your passion inside dies

I cant seem to fall asleep without crying

All those around me lying



Father time tic tocking away

Wasted day by day

In a cage trapped by my own fears

Always hiding back the tears



Trying to make the best of it

Never the courage to make the final split

Doing whats best for others

As would any good mother



Never doing anything for myself

Putting my hopes and dreams on the backshelf

Resentment rising to the top

Fits of rage not knowing how to make them stop



Wanting more out of life

Tension so thick you could cut it with a knife

Yelling Screaming Arguing it never stops

Neighbors threatning to call the cops



Thats it never again will i allow myself to be hurt

Dig a hole bury my feelings deep in the dirt

From now on I will have thick skin

Never loving again will be my final sin