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If there is nobody left

Then who do i trust?

For everyone to have friends

Is a definite must.



Why do I love so many

And hate so few.

I'm so destraut right now

I can't even tie my own shoe.



I can't imagine why

So many have betrayed.

After everything I have done for them

All the sacrafices I've made.



What have I done to make those I trust

Break my heart once more?

I don't think I could ever

Possibly feel anymore.



All I want

Is a normal life.

And someday be able

to have a wife.



But if I am right

Then what do I do?

Then who will I trust

That will speak to me true?



Why must I suffer

Through all of this deceit?

I can't really think.

I can't even eat.



I even tried to move away

A little while ago.

But all this hurt seems to follow me.

There's no other place to go.



I don't know what to do.

I don't know where to go.

After all of this bullshit,

I have nothing to show.



For all those I care,

Just answer me this.

I would like to know whom

I would really truly miss...



What have I become,

My sweetest friend,

When everyone goes away

In the end?

I lose all sight of things,

As I sit in my chair.

Hoping for that one day,

I'll be too dead to care.



Feeling so selfish,

Just thinking of myself.

I seem to have lost my mind,

And yet others still see hope.



I can't help but wonder,

Why I get into these moods.

Is it how I truly feel?

Is this really me?



How can anyone want to be friends with someone,

Who can no longer trust...

And yet having friends

Is a sure must...



Whatever has happened

To this world we live in?

In every single religion,

Everyone seems to "sin".



So many thoughts,

I cant seem to contol it.

I only find sanity by

writing through this.



So many hurts,

So many eternal pains.

I just want them all,

To please go away.



The only way out,

to drink another beer.

But everytime I do,

I can't help but shed a tear.



Must put it down,

Have to live with myself.

Get over my mistakes,

and learn to know thyself.



I try everyday,

To make myself clean.

I just want to wake up

From this terrible dream.



And this is when

I finally wake,

Then I realise

There's more than my mind at stake.



My worst fear of all,

Is not dying and going rotten.

It just so happens,

It's my memory being forgotten...

Everyday all I see

Are those lovely green eyes.

So soft, sensitive, and serene,

Just like the beautiful dawn sky.



A one of a kind beauty

With a personality to die for

It just makes me wonder

If I have to search anymore.



I know that we've only just met

but something tells these feelings of mine

That we've talked to each other

for nothing short of a lifetime.



Sometimes I feel like

I just want to give her a hug.

But I don't want her to think

that I'm starting to be a bug.



Everyday we talk

And sometimes even sing.

But the most precious moments

Are when we don't need to say a thing.



Sometimes I feel

We are moving a little fast.

But then I begin to realise all we want

Is for this to last.



Every chance she gets

She wonders what sets her apart.

And I always tell her

I'm just following my heart.



I hope that one day,

When I go there to visit,

That I just don't seem like

Another fumbling idiot.



But right now all I can do,

To help her with anything that gives her a bother,

Is to shield those beautiful eyes

from anything that wishes to harm her.