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POEM
04:23 Feb 25 2007
Times Read: 488




and now a poem of a friend of mine here that i liked and reminded me,so i asked her to let me put it here:



XxRockChickxX





"I miss you too damn much"

This heavy silence is weighing on my heart

it is tearing me and pulling me and tugging me apart.

And all I have to say for this awkward time in space

is that I’m so sick and fucking tired of this pathetic looking place.



Cause in every corner of everything in every taco bell

I remember when you loved me and I remember it all too well.

On every street you ever drove on while we were holding hands

I can still see us there, smiling, and hoping for future plans.



Everything was so perfect and Iam not really sure why,

you went and gave it all up and didn't want to try.

You made me believe sweetie and believe you I did.

So I told you all my secrets and came out from where I hid



And in the beginning that made everything so fucking right.

But there always comes a moment, a day, or one fateful night.

I don't completely understand what happened to you dear.

It was only a few hours before you broke me that you held me near.



How could you want to give up my warmth, love, and just leave me behind?

I'm sorry dear but, I fucking love you, you are still there inside my mind.

If I could sweetie I'd erase you so fucking fast.

But I am still hanging on darling still wishing we would last.



Cant you just grow up darling and come find me here?

I am wishing and I’m hoping; but the truth is so damn clear.

It hurts sweetie, knowing that I gave you my all.

And that you took it for granted and just let me fall.



You weren't there at all, all along you were weak.

And you never quite knew what to do whenever I would freak.

But all I needed sweetie was for you to kiss it away.

And that's usually what you did, but it came different one day.



I told you I needed help, I needed to you stop and look.

And you answered me with the closing of our fairy tale book.

I just do not know why you did it darling; I am just trying to understand.

Why don't you want to love me when you used to without command?



Now I fear, my dear, that you've found someone else.

And I am a little penguin doll that you've just left on your shelf.

Marvel at my beauty how I’m so specially made.

But all your stupid feelings for me have already begun to fade.



I am faded,

jaded,

broken and gone.

But damn it darling,

why am I still hanging on?

DANCE OF DEATH
01:19 Feb 06 2007
Times Read: 504

Unfortunately,i dont know whose is this.....







DANCE OF DEATH

Carrying bouquet, and handkerchief, and gloves,

Proud of her height as when she lived, she moves

With all the careless and high-stepping grace,

And the extravagant courtesan's thin face.



Was slimmer waist e'er in a ball-room wooed?

Her floating robe, in royal amplitude,

Falls in deep folds around a dry foot, shod

With a bright flower-like shoe that gems the sod.



The swarms that hum about her collar-bones

As the lascivious streams caress the stones,

Conceal from every scornful jest that flies,

Her gloomy beauty; and her fathomless eyes



Are made of shade and void; with flowery sprays

Her skull is wreathed artistically, and sways,

Feeble and weak, on her frail vertebrae.

O charm of nothing decked in folly! they



Who laugh and name you a Caricature,

They see not, they whom flesh and blood allure,

The nameless grace of every bleached, bare bone,

That is most dear to me, tall skeleton!



Come you to trouble with your potent sneer

The feast of Life! or are you driven here,

To Pleasure's Sabbath, by dead lusts that stir

And goad your moving corpse on with a spur?



Or do you hope, when sing the violins,

And the pale candle-flame lights up our sins,

To drive some mocking nightmare far apart,

And cool the flame hell lighted in your heart?



Fathomless well of fault and foolishness!

Eternal alembic of antique distress!

Still o'er the curved, white trellis of your sides

The sateless, wandering serpent curls and glides.



And truth to tell, I fear lest you should find,

Among us here, no lover to your mind;

Which of these hearts beat for the smile you gave?

The charms of horror please none but the brave.



Your eyes' black gulf, where awful broodings stir,

Brings giddiness; the prudent reveller

Sees, while a horror grips him from beneath,

The eternal smile of thirty-two white teeth.



For he who has not folded in his arms

A skeleton, nor fed on graveyard charms,

Recks not of furbelow, or paint, or scent,

When Horror comes the way that Beauty went.



O irresistible, with fleshless face,

Say to these dancers in their dazzled race:

"Proud lovers with the paint above your bones,

Ye shall taste death, musk scented skeletons!



Withered Antinoüs, dandies with plump faces,

Ye varnished cadavers, and grey Lovelaces,

Ye go to lands unknown and void of breath,

Drawn by the rumour of the Dance of Death.



From Seine's cold quays to Ganges' burning stream,

The mortal troupes dance onward in a dream;

They do not see, within the opened sky,

The Angel's sinister trumpet raised on high.



In every clime and under every sun,

Death laughs at ye, mad mortals, as ye run;

And oft perfumes herself with myrrh, like ye

And mingles with your madness, irony!

Sepultura › Inner Self
03:57 Feb 02 2007
Times Read: 520

and one of my favourite songs of course....





Sepultura › Inner Self



Walking these dirty streets

With hate in my mind

Feeling the scorn of the world

I wont follow your rules

Blame and lies, contradictions arise

Blame and lies, contradictions arise

Nonconformity in my inner self

I wont change my way

It has to be this way

I live my life for myself

Forget your filthy ways

Blame and lies, contradictions arise

Blame and lies, contradictions arise

Nobody will change my way

Life betrays, but I keep going

Theres no light, but theres hope

Crushing oppression, I win

Betraying and playing dirty, you think

Youll win

But someday youll fall, and Ill be

Waiting

Laughs of an insane man, youll hear

Personality is my weapon against your

Envy

Walking these dirty streets

With hate in my mind

Feeling the scorn of the world

I wont follow your rules

Nonconformity in my inner self

Only I guide my inner self

SUICIDE COMMANDO.........................
03:44 Feb 02 2007
Times Read: 524

ok i decided to put some song lyrics of suicide commando here.....if you are depressed...i suggest you not to read this entry...lol i warned you!







::Jesus Wept::



Living like sinners

We don't even care

Loosing religion

We're heathen



Slowly destroying our own precious world

Slowly destroying our mind



God, where are you

Don't leave me alone

God, where did we go wrong

God, where are you

I don't want to stay

God, please guide me the way



Killing our children

We don't give a damn

Killing our jesus

We're blinded



Slowly destroying our own precious world

Slowly destroying our mind



God, where are you

Don't leave me alone

God, where did we go wrong

God, where are you

I don't want to stay

God, please guide me the way







::The Exit::



Looking for an answer

Looking for a way

Where is the exit

Cause I don't want to stay

Lost in the mirror

I'm trapped in this world

Lost in my soul

Please just let me go

The exit











::Godsend (Deceased Part Ii)::



God sent diseases

God sent in pieces

God sent obsession

God sent perversive inhumanity

God sent destruction

God sent perdition

God sent aggression

God sent compulsive immorality



Kiss the deceased



God sent perversion

God sent abortion

God sent damnation

God sent perpetual catastrophe

God sent distraction

God sent delusion

God sent contagion

God sent obsessive sex deficiency



Kiss the deceased







::Better Off Dead::



In the name of jesus

What have we done

Slow death and diseases

We're on the run

No one will hear you

You're on your own

No one to save you

We all die alone



We're better

Off dead



We're the slaves of evil

Where angels weep

Escape from my hell

You fucking creep

We killed our nature

We lost all hope

Destroy my creature

Where is the rope



We're better

Off dead











:: necrophilia ::



I want to get your body

I want to get inside

your ice cold body

covered in shrouds

I want to taste your body

I want to taste your smile

you make me feel so horny

you're making me go wild

necrophilia

I penetrate your body

I'm getting inside

your eyes wide open

staring at the sky

I'm taking of your clothes

you're looking so livid

to hell with religion

you're dead, I'm living

necrophilia







:: so many questions ::



Impressions of death

the last seconds of your life

tell me what do you feel

tell me what do you see do you see

the light the light of eternity

or is it just darkness

purgatory in hell Is there

a heaven Or is it just the hell

Is there a god to believe in

Or is it just the devil

So many questions

stay without an answer

So many doors

stay without an entrance

Impressions of death

the last seconds of your life

tell me what do you feel

tell me what do you see

do you see the light

the light of eternity

or is it just darkness

purgatory in hell

Is there a heaven

Or is it just the hell

Is there a god to believe in

Or is it just the devil









i just...love him