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FEH.03:55 Aug 30 2009
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It was well pointed out to me tonight, not intentionally mind you, but I get it. I read it loud and clear and I have realized it for a long while that I have not written anything of substance for months and months.
No good poetry… I have a story I started that I haven’t touched in almost a year.
There is just nothing of value in my mind right now. There is nothing I can put on paper and even consider to be not crappy enough to share with the world.
It’s more than a block. It’s a complete inability to find and express creativity. Maybe I’m just not as creative as I thought… maybe it was just a brief period of existential connection with the cosmos or spirits or a muse or maybe it was just the constant inebriation in first class seats at 6AM…
I don’t know… odds are it was just a lot of luck in getting some words to combine to sound like I had a creative and original thought…
Whatever… maybe it will return but I doubt it.
This could just be the realization that my time here is coming to a close…
I read the name game...15:56 Aug 29 2009
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...I read the name "metalbatman" as...
meatballman...
I need coffee...
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23:46 Aug 26 2009
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Nah03:43 Aug 21 2009
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It's not like that... not a blow to the gut. Not a statement of "If your work was better I'd bother to show up..."
It's just the way most people are. They're as reliable as the weather. Especially if there is nothing holding them to doing something like that.
I think you should charge a refundable deposit via paypal even if it is trade work...
Whoops!22:52 Aug 20 2009
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I guess I lost.
What do I owe you?
Time spent preparing21:17 Aug 20 2009
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...is usually wasted. When we do things last minute, that is when other people come through and demand we be ready.
My money is on the no-show.
Really...19:33 Aug 20 2009
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...my inner child wants to set something on fire right now....
17:21 Aug 20 2009
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My hemispheres are fighting against each other today... too much work, yet too many distractions... I want to clean my camera and go take some GOOD pictures for once.
I want to take a nap.
I want to finish all this work that has piled up.
I want my customers to at least TRY to call my office before calling me directly on my cell phone.
I want to know certain people are actually doing 40 hours of work for what they get paid every week.
I want to buy a canvas and paint a picture.
I want my distributors who bomb me with marketing and "reasons" to do business with them to actually pay attention, answer our requests and stop fucking up the orders we place.
FEH.
...05:09 Aug 18 2009
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That was as enlightening as a new moon...
Things that remind us...14:28 Aug 11 2009
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...why that line of questioning just made that whole situation pop into my head... I'm not sure. But it did. And all the pain and frustration that came with it. I was supposed to see things differently when you behavior was nothing but what it had always been? I was supposed to be aware of some monumental personal change in your life when you showed me nothing?
FEH.
Go cry to someone else about it.
Ate too much...05:03 Aug 10 2009
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...gah... that was just.. so... wrong...
Notes from a wedding...19:00 Aug 09 2009
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...going to a wedding is like watching a car wreck unfold before your eyes...
...you know what is coming and you know it will probably be bad... yet you're powerless to stop it.
...and then there's a lot of alcohol...
A new kind of spam...19:01 Aug 08 2009
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...I got this in my email today...
Hello,
Give me the rates of 5 single rooms for 5 delegates from East London
University shall be coming for a 10day seminar IN YOUR CITY.
Check in date........ 15th September 2009
Check out date...... 25th September 2009
Number of Nights 10 Nights.
Number of Rooms: 5 single rooms/Apartment/Cabin.
Number of guest: 5
Send the total cost of accommodation for the 10 nights
including tax and breakfast if there is any.
PAYMENT IS VIA CREDIT CARD ONLY.
Regards
Dr. Joan Carlos
Hamilton Travel Agency
8 Old Bond Street London
W1S 4PL United Kingdom
+447024029848
Anyone with a travel agency want to reply?
No?
I didn't think so...
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COMMENTS
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Irony
05:07 Aug 30 2009
I don't know, we all get block. I seem to average years between writing rather than just months. Usually I have other things on my plate that seem to wipe out all creativity, but I think somewhere underneath it all, my subconscious is still playing around with ideas for things to write.
Work out what it is that is sitting in your way and kick it in the crotch til it goes away, then your creativity might come out again and play for a while:) Good luck:)
Morrigon
07:07 Aug 30 2009
I feel you.. There are some things that I feel I won't accomplish and I am ready to give up on.
Sorry, I don't have words of encouragement right now.
sahahria
17:21 Aug 30 2009
When we fly, we still need our rest. Do not worry for the hindrances will not always be there, feel what you need to, rest as you require and when it is right- you will step off to greater heights than you imagined.
CAJOME
00:06 Aug 31 2009
Don't go throwing in the towel of ingeniously imaginative creativity... when you least expect it, inspiration can come rushing back like Montezuma's revenge on the Kingda Ka.
Yes... I am a strange (but charming) one.