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My darkest side or me now? Choose to your own consequences

10:44 Dec 08 2015
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Slipped into the most darkness of all days it can't be helped. No one can stay strong for long time. We all get weak and ill and fall. It takes time to recover ourselves back. Sometimes we get back stronger or the same or different weaker or more estranged. Which one I will be I shall never know and I have no much care either.



This blue hair is my identity. Myself. My stability in every way. If I dye it red, black, brunette whatever tone it is, purple or blonde it will turn me back to those darkest phase of my life where I went out of control with exaggerated violent spree. It brings the darkness out and the beast. That beast I rather so much control cause I will leave death and destruction in my wake. If I loose that control just to make my hair in the eyes of society of work acceptable be prepared to see me coming at any moment behind you and strike at you or play games with your mind and your emotions or very much suicidal in drugs and alcohol till I self destroyed.

I am that person. The real truest me is when I am like that. I caused real damage wherever I went when I was like that. That damage unfortunately can never be recovered nor survived. So I rather keep my blue hair and be all bipolaric and lunatic beyond repair yet at times funny and all then that kind of person. Unstable. I don't want to go back for the sake of work and society. Society can go and fuck it self. I wobt depart from my stability. Blue is me now. Blue is my identity today. You try to keep me away from it be prepared to pay one of the nastiest consequences of all.

We all slip into the darkness. We all slip into turbulence that leaves us deeply damaged or shaken. Let me go and set me free from your society and learn to accept diversity in me.

Make me loose myself for your sake of satisfaction and I will disassociate myself. I won't be able to stop myself from doing what I will do in that phase. In a way or another I will destroy myself and those around me whether I know them or not. I will have no care if it's family or not. I will have no feelings but pure rage and fun I guess. It's one of that darknesses that I struggle everyday to keep inside.



You say what bullshit am saying. Well hair color effects me. It represents the levels of my psychopathic self out properly without missing. Blue is stability and calmness. Like a binding contract on that me that keeps it still. I don't expect you to care or to believe. Actually I have no much care but if you are going to mess with me I am not any less harmless or dangerous. So careful.

Let me go and set me free from society


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