Just enjoying all the big crows hanging around outside my place today.
Oh how funny that you think my journal was about you..
actully, you hadnt even crossed my mind when i wrote that entry..
so i guess..
YOU are the one calling your problems silly..
not everything is about you.. get over yourself..
Fuck you and your silly little problems, there is a world of fucking innocent beings, starving, being abused, having no homes no love. If only everybody could help eachother out.
as well as the nature and animals.
no, human is a disease.
feed a stray today!? atleast.. anything..
So for the first time since sunday noon where my mom made me eat a hotdog, i feel hunger in my belly
i can feel it pull together, its not a hunger like, i want food, more like i need it. soon
its weird tho, havent eating since sunday yet my body dont react the slightest till now.
its almost midnight to wednesday now.
i might be able to eat tommorow and not feel it grow in my mouth. ugh.
''Feel them'' she said as she twisted her arms around and placed them in a lock on her middle back, posing.
preparing, for the touch of his hand.
He slowly left his hand fall over the two bumps left where her wings had once been, as an strike of intense energy tickled down her entire spine.
Come home my little darklings, come to your master.
dont make me wait.
Im a freak, i freak people out. i dont even have to work for it.
i just have to show my true self. lol
ofcurse once they get past that they be fascinated (spelled) pardon me cant be bothered to give a flickering fuck about grammar. right now.
so all that is natural to ME,
what is not so natural is finding someone likeminded and be able to
whats the chances?
i know theres someone out there for everybody and all that.
but in all honnestly it takes someone in which i dont even have the word for.
to find me so likeable that theyd actully love and choose me.
and same goes for me.
maybe i really just shouldcontinue and focus on my arts and working on myself personally
Ive done alot of things alone in life, so that is not an issue to me.
however, it is not always so healthy.
we all need someone.. right..
im not letting just anyone close.
and most fail half way trying. no, wait.. all ..
I imagine being truthful and tedious in your efforts to explain why....might make a difference in how your.more deranged proclivities are met.
Just a thougt.
Freak them out. Their loss for having such soft skin and weak constitutions. If they cannot handle it.... oh well.
Most if not all people are not worth the tedious efforts of illustrating oneself in hopes to be seen in a clearer light. Time itself has show what invested time in a person can leave you writhing in regret and questions.
Should there be someone who doesn't make you feel like you need explain yourself while being yourself... that person... perhaps... deserves the reasons of your being... you. : )
Ptsd sucks specialy when it hits with depression coming from bpd.
I Just want to stay to myself.
I cant sleep at night, and havent been able to for a decade.
i had a four hour nap today so guess who wont sleep tonight either.
its two hours ago i woke up and its 20.00 at late evening.
I have to get high on hashish in order to keep all the night terrors away and they work
i dont dream nothing on it.
i just get so damn sensitive when i smoke that shit
(rests halo on horn)
How can I be so stupid and dark and cold
With such a pure, light and love
And my human standing there on the sideline trying to figure shit out
Maybe I should bother the living instead
Was my thought, but I’m tired
With Spirits you don’t have to explain
You’ve been on my mind the past few days
So it don’t surprise me to see you back
I wanted to talk to you but I know better now
If not one thing it made me grow
I wish you the best
Always have always will.
I dont know if i've started to hear voices or ghosts.
It sure did answer me, in my talking to myself in my head.
However the low voice came from outside my head.
and it came unexpected.
Du er smuk.
Just no tho
Love me today.
I do you tommorow.
so love me like there is no so.
if not, to hell i go
The devil inside
Keepin an angel
this world is killing us
the demons that lurk just in wait
they will not set me free
i belong somewhere.
but its been long since i could call that home.
my whistle my cry
love me today
we can take turns tommorow.
When your mom thinks you’re going through an early mono pause but In reality it’s withdrawals
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