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when I go it won't be because of you it won't be your fault or anyone eles it will be mine and mine alone I will have lived the life I will have hope to live better late than never but happily I shall be with people that actually love and care about me you will not be on my mind my mind will be at peice I will be healed by then and free of your trauma torment and pain I will I will have done something with with my life more than you can ever imagine! I will not suffer from you no more!

you know what sucks more is you can laugh smirk joke and take too many things from me ,while I'm left torture broken and a broken record a parrot repeating your words to myself over and over and out loud I'm stupid I ruin people's lives I'm a bother I'm a problem I'm the reason people have a bad day I'm not doing enough I'm jot kind enough considerate enough I'm stupid I'm an idiot why was I born no one wants me here why do I even bother over and over again when something goes bad I blame myself I apologize over and over again I say I'm sorry every five seconds I bust out crying from triggers of ptsd over and over from the trama you inflicted upon me noises make memories come alive in my mind again feeling it like I'm their all over again,I go to sleep and I'm stuck with you their totureing me all over again sometimes in new ways and old reliving my nightmares all over again. get me out of here please someone free me from this cage