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💀•TITLED-GHETTO-WINTER BLACKS🌹

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Outside the windows
Stalks the empty-night
Stalks the endless-fears
Night is just pitch-blackness
Only the blacks-cover the nightime sky's
Like nature's holding-in disquise
That's just mother-nature
It's just the Dark-winter Goddess
Black queens-harshness
Dark queens-winter hardness
Her darkness-her nature
Her coldness-holding harsh-winters
Her ghostly winter-halls
Her reign-kinda like hell here on-earth
Her blackened-nights
Like a harsh-nlack cloak*
Black as a crows-body
Like black crows-wings spreading out
Across-the waiting lands*
Emptied-landscapes*
Winter thralls-from winter halls💀
Cold father-winter
Old father-winter*
Old father-time
He's strong in her-he backs her up*
Her-consort powers*
His icey-stoney lands
His empty-stoney face sees-noone
Icey-black earths-covet his name
Hard-goats hooves clamber over-it
Nature's winter nights are naked-black
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But inside me chest-me heart it matches
A pitch-black heart
Sad to go say-it*
Bad-blacks-to this dumber world*
It never cared for-me life*
When I most needed-mercys*
It didn't go-spare me*
A pitch black-heart*
Inside its-lurking
Black as the night
Life has been very-cruel
Can you beleive-it?!?
So much shit-you can't conceive it*💀
It's all inside-so you can't just see it!!!
It's all gone-over to the blackness
Fills-me up inside
All inside it's a scratchy-kind of black
With pains rising-up & rushing-up
It's getting rather-angry this heart
It goes hot to fire-then cold to earths
Hot blacks & then colder blacks-too
It's not a good-feeling
It's not a godly-thing
It's a lot of scratchy-blackness inside
Should be love for God & goddess
Warm & safe inside me house
Like a mole-buried underground
I shouldn't care-about the world outside
But somehow the world-has gotten inside
It's gotten-inside me waiting heart*
Love of the gods-is a holding-thing
But evils from outside-can still get-in
But I'm afraid to-say-it
A pitch black-hearts-a thing*
Darkness from somewhere*
Has gone-gotten in*
My enemy's have gotten-in
Gotten inside-their badness
Made me fear-life itself
Hatreds & some angers-too
Primitive-stuff inside the heart
I don't want-it
I don't no more-pain
Feeling so hurtful
Feeling so hateful
But the world is all in a lawless-state
Ghetto-gutters in black
Go running with-reds
It's all gone to-shit
I just cant abide-it
I just didn't make-it
I just don't accept-it
Born to reject-it
Born all reactive
Born to go-hate it
Read lots of books
Reactive to-realitys
Reduced to-reclusive💀
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It's always dumped-on my plate
Plans-made on my face
You just don't know-me
You just don't own-me
You just can't show-me
Anything that matters
Hard not to hate-it*📍
Life inside the slums
It's hard to stay-standing
It's hard to go-take it
It's all such-chaos
It's all so-painful
You needed a better-start
You need a better-heart
It's all so-baneful
Life is so tough-you fear it braking
How much shit can you take?!?
When your own-heart was already broken📍
Broken-already from years-before
Death thinks hes-claiming
From somebodys-door
He gets to be-taking
It's not very-hard
When so many hearts-are already braking
Getting-on in the ghettos
That slippery-pole of life
Heart-life is so bloody-fickle
Heartless bastards-leave you in a pickle 💔
You think you've invested-in living
You never did have-much
But you don't stop-trying
Your trying to have-life
You've trusted in-somebody
You didn't really want to need-anyone
You wake-up one day & it's all changing
You've made some mistakes
You didn't mean to do-it
You know life in the-slumlands
It works right through-yah
Trying to just survive-it
It works right through-yah
Eating you from the inside-out
Like worms working through-some corpse
It's all just mindless-like worms*
It's all just faceless-like worms*
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It wasn't easy being-borned
Your born into a life-without any pity
Trying to make choices-it ain't been pretty
It's bad enough being born-in
Now you can't get-out
Now your gonna-be paying
Hells in life-coming for your face💀
You've trusted-in others
Who can go flip-you over
They can-go f*ck you over
Then your inner-life is all going-dying
Like the lamps-burning down lower
Don't go lowering-me into some coffin
Don't go putting me in the cold-earths
Don't go thinking-im all over yet
Don't want cold black-earths
Go cover-me over when I'm still-fighting
& no-worms on me face
Don't deserve-no blighting
You wanting me down-but I'm still alive
Just cause I've been-making mistakes💀
Don't want to be-spoiling your plans
Your evil nasty works-trying to use me hands
Trying to use me & abuse me in-this life
Trying to take me godgiven-things
Steal it from me-to do bad-workings📍
Trying to take me blessings all from me
You can go take yourself-all to hell💀
Decay & deprivations
Povertys & badness
Agonys & sadness
Constant days of struggle
Hour after-hour
Looking-out at gods precious-world
And they've stole-it all from us📍
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It can go tare-you down
Winter-scarys
Those cold winter-nights
Seem to pray-on your fears
Deepest-darkness digs deep-inside yah
Like a grave-digger
Going after all-your face
Digging into your darkest-fears
All the deadly-hours
All the deathly-days
Life in-death just ticking away📍
Feel so close to death-in all ways
And all workings-strange walkings
In the winter-months
Playing with your own-mind
The darker-colder-months
Eating out your soul
Messing with your-mind
Numbing & freezing-out your heart 💀
Crowns of the winter-Goddess
Kingdoms of the winter-gods
Come from a long-time ago
Showing you your-comforts in this life
If you still have-any left?!?
To help to pull-you through
The blacker-empty skull-bowel of life
Godly-stuff should hold the crown
But inside the slums-the devil is king
And evil-is the queen of whoredom
Anarchy's are the spirits of boredom*
If you don't have some-access
It's rip you-all to peices
But in the slums-its greedy angry hearts
Pulling-everybody-down
It comes-on depressing
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It's got some hidden-hates inside-it
Don't want to carry-that hateful stuff
Feel kinda hateful
Feel kinda darker
Life feels-starker
Hours feel bit-strained
Hungry winds of winter
Seem to call your-name
Stupid games of vicious-life
Just struggle to-sustain
Praying to-remain
Holding+out against distain*
It's a slumlands-game
Praying every day-to carry on the same
Feel plugged-in to the ghettos
Even inside your own-home
You feel plugged-in to the gutters
Even inside your own-mind
You feel chained-to the slums
Even sat inside your own-home
Lying in your bed-it runs through your mind
Like the ghettos-run with all strange-wires
Wicked hearts & bad-desires
Evil thoughts & crueler fires
Like wires-through your blood
Like fear through your bones
From inside your wrecked-up heart📍
Those evil-players
Those bad-memories
Those sad-controllers
They won't be saying-sorrie
You can't hold your-breath
Theyll stalk you-to your grave
They'll drag-you to your death
Your only blessings are your-skills
Blessings-through the gods
Prayers to help-walk you through
Herbal-blessings
And prayers inside of-you
Love is just a thin kinda-layer
Don't go outside-all alone
Fears from-inside yourself
Go cutting to the-bone
Your just another-number
Just another-pawn in their game
Just another spawn-up from hell-life
Just another torture-device
Just another-soldier 💀
Can't go extricate yourself
When your dug-in deep
And all-wired-up
How safe do you feel?!?
When their turning the wheel 📍
When your mind is still-too alive
Like the ghettos-a tide
Living inside your body
Likes it's hotwired-through your heart
Your heartlife just keeps on-burning up
Enemy's from the past-keep on turning up
Still walking-it
Just bones getting-heavier
Souls-getting older
Face getting-wrinkly
Skin looking-colder
Blood fire & bones
Agonys from the brutalities
Social-funetal pyres
Burning higher & higher
Your plugged-in like hot-wires
Your walking a tightrope
From the brutalist-traumas
Where your nervous-system
Don't function the same-anymore
The brutalist-life
Dog eats dog
Like a human-chain of sausages
A conveyer-belt of humans
All being ground-down inside the ghettos
Like a mincer-for your soul
Your just another-party
To grind you into-mincemeat
For a richer-mans table
They dont care who you-are
Or who you-were
Your just trying to run from the pain
Just trying to-sustain
Night-frights
Daytime-fears
Pain between your-ears
Tears behind your-eyes
The waiting world of-wicked
How time-flys
It's a hate-life sometimes
Waxing-lyrical
Wading through too-much shit
Working with-words
To help-us to see it📍
Like the top of the mountain
It's cold-near the pinnacle
The wind is faceless & harsh
As it blows-up & blusters
It don't know your-name
It just is natures-ways
Growb-man can't conquere
Death-in it's wake
Feel myself-closing-in
A solid black-heart inside
It matches-up to the darkness
My older-crone heartlife
Black goddess of earth & night
Cold black earth & old bones
Guess she remembers-rather a lot
Humanitys-historys
She's got those-races
She's got those-faces
She holds those-places
She's like the crone goddess
Like the story's of-old
She's gotten that much-older
Some kinda mother-figure
From strange-old legends
Ye-Olde world's we've forgotten
But the older-ways of working
There not just-stopping
Historys-stages
Some other-ages
Pagans from-pages
She's like some kinda-mother
If you can-feel her
For some kinda-sons & daughters
Old bones & cackling-crows
She's wiser & stronger
It's all rather-shaded
Powers of winter-its all feeling grimer
During those hungry-hours
During those harsher-nights
During those blacker-hours
The clock feels-colder
Me heart feels-colder
Feel all boney-inside me
Feels all lonley-divided
All cut-up & conquered in-society
We're all in heavy-chains
Held-down
And pushed-on back
In the ghettos & gutters
It's just more sh*t life again
Fighting & feuding
Brothers feel much-too close
In each others-pockets
But your too-far apart
We're all in heavy-chains
When's it going to-stop
All angers well-up inside
Burning hearts-the hellife inside
Someone's got contracts-somewhere
To kill somebodys-heart📍
To displace-someones future
To take somebody-out
To brake some mothers-heart
All the lawless-workers
All the bad-mind walkers
All the gun-man styles
Soldiers from a lifetime
Born into a bound-life
Circles of heavy-chains
Life of brutal-pains
Dark brackish-quoqmire inside
Powers of the ghettos
Hard to go-hide it
It's powers of the street-life
The state-powers deny-it
The gutter-trenches
Those unmarked-soldiers
Those powerful lives
You just can't know-it
They've walked those hidden-miles
We're all in heavy-chains
History's to blame
Fighting & feuding
Disrespect is the fuel-on the fires
When you walk-as the wicked
Your braking bones-as your walking
Cold cracking-sounds in the night
Nobodys been-really talking
All the wrong-words
Going the wrong-ways
Where nobodys-walking
Cold-end agendas
No love is lost
None left to-lose
Cold-hands
Fighting & feuding
Family's are just-braking
Broken-hands
Can't hold-the wheel
Cold hard-agendas
Broken-hearts
Can't hold the-deal
Secret-society members
Like ever turning-wheel
It's just fueling the-pain
Shame blame pain
Mind-games
Burning-up hearts
Braking-down lives
Been smashed-up right from the start
More trauma & greif
Rivers of agonies
Angers burning through-underneath
Inner-demons they go-walking
Your inner-fears they get-stalking
Your internal-mind can go-slipping
It plays on your-mind
Ghetto-survivals
It's got that Finland
So your always feeling-kinda wary
It just weighs down your-soul
Wandering who's lurking?!?
And who might be-around
Too many targets
It's getting-around
Always trying to walk-away
Always trying to stay-back
No matter what they-say
Thinking of calling
But they don't know your-name
Find your face-is a target
Trying to face-yah
Think they can come & take yah
But it's all just-nothing
Got eyes-on to brake yah
Words of dumb-strangers
Didn't mean-nothing
Promises & lies
Shades & disquise
Enemy's acting-strange
Strangers try to call-yoyr name
Feeling tensions-in the nightime
Icey cold-games of the mind💀
As empty as the icey-winds
It's all just the past-taking over
Stupid bloody-strangers
Fear inside-faces
Angers & traumas
Agonys & brutal dramas
Ganglands-always colder
Makes your soul-feel older
Drags down on your-heartlife
Feels so heavy-inside
Like your heartlife went leaden
We've all been-pushed around
We've all been-triggered
We've all had those days of-agonys
Those rages-inside
Those brutality-circles
Closing-in on your face
Pain from your origins
It just never-ends
They won't let it-lie
Holding-back
Stuffing-down your angers
Too many-targets
Too many broken-hearts
Too many angry-eyes
We know we're kinda poorer
So there's always those-worries
Grimer days & nights
Inside the slum-houses
It's a constant fight
It's all going-on inside yah
Having fights with your inner-demons
Finding your fighting-yourself
Finding pins-inside your mind
Taking stranger-turns inside your mind
Bless her ways-nothing she don't know❣️
My older heart-its all gone blacker
Outside the windows
Blackness-is colder
It's so much starker-if you feel bad
Hate anger fear & pain
Don't want-that on me name
But life & death can turn out-strange
Can't ever be colder
Can't ever be older
Than the frozen-hearts of men
Never had that-love
Not in this life-thats for sure💀
Started-off all distant
Distant cold-ghost man
It's stayed that way-still
Only the sound of the tv-brakes the silence
Nightime-tales
Strange-takes on reality
Horrors of humanitys
Criminal-fatalitys
Than the hearts of men
Outside the window
Death is looking-in
Outside the window
Cold winter-nights
Dark-city stages
Painfull-hours
Inside these hovels
The older style-houses
It's all rather-depressive
It's not how I planned-it 💀
It's a struggle through the hours
It's not how I planned-it
But you've got to go-care it
Me faiths standing-stronger
Inside me heart-its blacker
It's for the darker-ways
It's a blacker-heart inside me chest
It's all filled-up for a blacker-god
Powers of colder-earths
All bare & naked when it's blacker
It's a black coloured-rose
When the goddess is all-older
It's that way-sometimes
I get around to hating-on society
Got a backlog of enemy's
Born into the bohemian-life
But it didn't help-me enough
Then it turns-over to the light
If I can go turn-it
Then I can go work-it
Slum-life puts fear in your heart
If your holding-it can tare you apart
Shitty kind of world
Gritty kind of-ways
Shifty kind of-world
Scary kinds of mental-haze
Life's like a-haze around me
Bridges to the outside-world
They sure do-scare me
Bridges to life
They keeps-on braking
Lots of folks they plan-on faking
Can't see me way-through it
Crystal-clear sure would help-it
Crystal-claritys sure would know-ot
So much mental-pain
You just wouldn't know-it
Sad to say sometimes it shows-it
It keeps me heart-darker
It keeps me feeling-blacker
Love the righteous-Lord
His colour is whiter
It's holy-fires & bones
Bones that burn & creak
Heavy weight on the bones
As I walk
Through the valley of empty-death
Feel-alone in this life
I turn me living-heart
Back to black
For the righteous-Lord
Holy-fires of hell
Turn the clock-back
Back to-blacker
Bastards rule from-everywhere
Fighting & feuding
It's all going-on
It's never going to go-stop
Ganglands-party peices
Everyone's in-chai s
Everyone's in some kinda-pain
Someone else is to blame
Somewhere life is in-chains💀
Because of the slum-life
Slum-lifer
These ghetto-hells
Didn't get to choose-that
Wouldn't ever do-that
Wouldn't want to be there
Be somewhere-better
If I could've been born-free
I wouldn't ever choose-that
Slum land-citys
It ain't looking-pretty
Pretty broken-down
Pityless & mean
Pretty-harsh sh*t pits
Dark hearted-snake-pits
Broke your heart-to bits
Deprivations
Depressions
Depravitys
Stolen gods-crown
To go feeds-off the ghettos
Hellands
Slumlands
Badlands
Bad-landlords
Life is just full of-evils
Hard to not know that
Some folks-dont ever know that
Land of milk & honey
Paradise here on-earth
Born from the golden-spoons
Life without constant-fears
From that perspective-life is too dear
From their own-privilige
Your just born to be shat-on
Go project their own-hates
They've lived a life of love
But you just get their own hates & fears
Hard to believe their ignorance
Such arrogance-you are some human-too
Got some blackness-sometimes
You've always known these hard-times
The clock is too-cruel
This life you cant-bare it much

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💀•TITLED-HEART-WIRES🤍

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Pains in your body
Pains through your mind
Pains inside your body
It's coming in-through your own mind📍
Amplified-realitys
Motor-neurons
It's all alight-its all aflame
Like screaming from inside
Burning-thoughts
Slice through your mind
Like wire-filaments
Thin silver-wires
Of burning-pains
Youve got heart-wires
Your electric-inside
Your overly-alive
Pains too-damned alive
Even-in your sleep
Its going-creeping-in*
Try to damp-it down
Try to go-shut it out*
Just to get your own day-done
You've got heart-wires
Can't breath-right from the pain*
Catches you-out again
This heart-life inside
Alive against your own-will
Pin-points of liquefied-light
Pain points of liquefied-light📍
Thin-threads of thoughts
Barely can think a sentence
And it transmits-as pain
Can't understand-where it comes from
Or where it's going-to
God only can be the judge
Only they alone-can really see you
Like tiny silver-wires transmitting pains
Like live-wires inside
Hyper-sensative thin wires
Liquified silver-pain wires
Makes you want to scream
Makes you want to wail
Your own-personal capacitys
Can they go & fail?!?📍
Perceptions
Perception-points
Pain-pointers*
All burning-away*
It's your internal types of hell
Pin-points of penetrations
Emotives
Evocatives
Educations
Elation & frustrations
Things your keeping-out📍
Getting set-alight
It's just memory's
Jumping all-around
Thoughts in your own mind
It's all just pin-points
Where are you going to?!?
Inside of-yourself
Pain-pointers*
Being objective
Your going-subjective
It's all just focal-points
But if you didn't know-it
Suddenly-turned back-on
You can't even-know-it
Crazy-ass pains
You can't even-show-it
It's kinda mind-blowing
Heart-life
It's got a life-all of its own
It's gone like a live-wire
Sharper-points of inner-focus
Carves inside-of your chest
From inside your own-mind
You've amplified your own mind-life
Your now full of living-wires
Burning-away from inside
The pain isn't funny
When memory's cut like a cheese-wire
Like cheese wires-cutting inside
The futures so-insecure📍
When words are what you've taken-inside
When others-intentions cut you like a knife
When you've been-beleiving
In what others have gone & said
And your hoping it's the truth
When your trusting in-others
And hoping it's the truth
Living like a live-wire
When your ending-up alone📍
Memorys-intense
High-up on capacitys
Neuro-dynamic realitys
Strange-will against yourself📍
Trying to fight your own-emotives
It's not working-to go against your heart
It's just too-strong this time
The more you go-try❣️
The more your gonna-know it
The more it's gonna go-hurt yah*
You just can't know-it
The more you think
The less-you know it
Too much has gone-on
Too much to get-over*
Too much to try to understand*
It's not how you planned-it*
It's gotten-out of hand*
You take a-chance*
You take a-chance*
Then pay the price*
And that is-life*
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Power of friendship-over the waters
Too many words have poured-like water
Two-minds have united-in knowing
Two-minds have united-in growing*
Knowledge has poured down the-wires
Talking to go-show it
Mind to-mind*
To try to-know it*
Showing-off what you've known
So many-years it's stayed unshown
Such a shame-where it's nowhere to go
You've felt more love & unitys-than in years
Words just weave & wave like water
Words just weave a spell
Words just go carving-away💀
Taking on more-weight than you'd figure
Saying more-stuff*
Than you felt-like you outta
You've come out with stuff
You never thought you-should
Shared-more than you thought you-could*
Sudden-expressions
Stuff just comes rushing-out
The more you know-it
The less you can-compute it
You have knowledge
But it's just too-much*
But you can't know-whats gone on📍
But the less you understand-it
Motor-neurons
You just can't can-it
Weird emotional-surges
Romantical-urges
The more it burns-inside your brain
The more you want-it
The more it yearns
The more you want it back
The more it-burns
Burning threads of silver
Inside your own heart 🤍
Just memorys-still burning📍
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Wanting someone
Who was just-there before
Who's just gone-off
Suddenly just gone-sour
Uptight attitude of the hour
Kinda keeps you-feeling trapped*
Scarred by-stupid rulings*
Uptight & insular*
Cold hard & brittle*
Deadly-attitudes*
Makes you feel-sickened*
That's not friendship*
That's not any kind of justice*
That's just exclusion*
Worse sentence of the year💀
Gone & walked-off
For no real-reason
Like favours-off season
Heart just got squashed
Green-heart squashed
Sudden attack
Sudden green-heart
Bad green-feelings
Turned all-insular
Upright & closed
Walls closing-in
Feels like years
Just suddenly-closed in
Bad greens-just suddenly got-in
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Horror-sentences
Heartlife-matters
Narrow-minded sentence
Sudden nerdy-nightmare
Stranger to the-most
Suddenly-who the hell knows?!?
Where do you get-off?!?
Trashing your brother's
So much for loyaltys
All your demanding
You said you wanted-family
Don't like being locked-out
You treat loyaltys with contempt
Don't throw your shit-about💀
Don't go-squashing-someone's heart📍
Someone's loving
Don't go-start📍
Your just way-off
So what you got left with now?!?
Strange-promises📍
Strange-reputation
Strange-situation
Some scored-reputation📍
Everything's suddenly so-sour*
Some ugly-spaces
Beautiful people
All with sad-faces
It's gone all soured
Sad shitty-silences
Strange-black sentence
It's not how I planned-it
Like cream just gone-bitter
Life was kinda-focused
Constructive-endevours
Quite an endurance
Thought you'd be staying
Continue the journey
Continued-endurance
Concentrated-controls
Got killed-off badly
Nobody-knows
Horrible-closed door
Slammed-in your face
Been-put outta-place
Balls been kicked-in
Left crying in-pain on the floor
Been left-hanging
Cliff-hanger going feeling
Left in outer-darkness
And he's not telling*
He's not calling*
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Strange bitter-blackness
From the lights of the world
From atlantic-swells
From capacity-aspects
To just blacked-out silences*
Pleasures of transmissions
Pleasures of confessions
Mentalist-activitys
Mental angles
Words of wisdom
From angle to angle
From mind to mind
From brain-actives
From constant-chatting
To sudden-darkness💀
The world you knew of connectives
Suddenly got-silenced
Bad heart-prioritys
Sudden cowardly-heart
Freaky-ass shit
It's not showing-outside
But it's burning-through your brain
From the inside-coming on through you
Freaky-ass shit!!!
Icey burning-fires
It burns you alive
It's like cold-icey pins
Like icey burning-scars
Like icey-pains all on fire📍
But you just can't bare-them
You don't really know-them
Thoughts that just seem to be-burning
Thoughts that just seem to be like-worms
Eating away inside your own-mind stem
Your own sense of self-is all just blind📍
They don't stop-turning
Thoughts you just cant-stand it
If you could just stop-it all you would
Go turn-back time
Freeze-it all out 📍
Lock it-all out
Keep it-all outside
Just to carry-on then you most surely would
If you could just control-it
But this pain seems to have a life-of its own📍
Fueled by memory's
Confused by-pains
It lives it's own-life📍
Don't want to like-anyone
It don't do me-good much
I don't want to know-yah
I don't want anyone-out there
Being part of me
Being part of meself
I'd rather just belong to my gods
And nobody-else
Some part of meself-not belonging to me
Lost something-somewhere
To somebody-out there
Not sure what's happened?!?
Not sure what's going-on there
Time feels so-rocky
The wheel-is turning back & forth
My hearts on a wheel
It's something inside-me
As it turns & twists-inside me
Bit by bit-moving inside me chest
I can feel it-inching along by degrees
Keeps-on turning back & forth
Powered by my-will
As I will-it so it turns
Inside my chest-i feel it churn
Powered by prayers
Me heartlifes-come alive
Like a wheel-of degrees
It's turning-bit by bit inside-me📍
Going through-these degrees
Pulling away from a life-ive known
Wanted to stay-it cuts to the bone
I won't be destroyed-ill fight it alone💀
I wanted to stay-it cuts to the bone
It burns through-me bloods
Pulling-away from a life I have lived
Don't want to go-away
But I've got-no other way
It's all turned-sour
Bad-vibes clipped the hours
Feel sick-inside
Best hours of friendship
Best life hours-been denied
Feel tipped-upsidedown
From this life
Been so long-so many many hours
I just couldn't know-it
When the bones would go-poking through
Didn't always show-it
I've found me own-heart
I'm feeling it-turning
It's all by-accident
From rather strange-events
From life-going changing
From the prayer-life
These things you can go-put inside📍
These degrees inside-meself
I can feel it-go moving
Slowley turning-back around
Moving-inside back & forth
Me own wheel of life
Found from the prayer-life
Found me own-heart by mistake
Didn't know what that would-take
It's all just so-disturbing
It's all just painfull & frightening
We've all gone-away
Shouldn't be much left-now
Just memory
Just can't bare-it
Just so bloody f*cking-painful
Some kinda interactions
Memory's of talking
So your own-mind
You could go back & own-it
Your mind as your-own
Without-outside influence
It just feeds some weird kinda-pain
Inside your own heart-there is just pain
It burns like cold-pins
It builds like cold-fires
You can't know-why?!?
You just don't want-it
Burning & binding
But your carrying-it anyway
Your getting them-anyway
Carrying your own mind-everywhere
Feels very-disturbing
Intrusive kinda-pains
Inside your own-mind
You've found these pin-points inside
Brains not-right
Like your brain is-burning
Like your own brain is-not working
Like your own mind-is a stranger
Thoughts of agonist-you don't know
What the hell going on-inside there?!?
Brain-fires
Mindless-agonys
You don't know yourself
Burning on-through
Pushing-on in
Pouring-on in
Rushing-around inside
Screaming-inside yourself
Like your mind is-all afire
Helpless like an animal
Naked to the heartless-world
Wild like an animal
Humans trying to cling-on
Hateful heart-secretly growing
Darker heart-secretly growing
Silent heart-raging & hating
Pains-driving you to dark-angers
Splintering-coming from inside
Don't know why?!?
Don't know what you feel?!?
Dark rages just come ripping-through
Hidden-inside the darkness
Sudden blinding flashes
Strange ripping-rages
Somewhere-somehow is angry
Some kind of darker-core inside
Don't know why?!?
Don't know from where?!?
Pains are just like fueling-crazys
Can't even see your own Realitys
Fears of becoming a-fatality
Left naked & blind-to a world of shit
No kinder-words
To carry-you along
No small-mercys
To carry you-along
No real-realitys
To carry-you through
You just can't understand
Really sudden-changes
It feels like years-just dropping out
A lifetimes works-just dying
Just folding-away
World just stopped-spinning
Like your heart just stopped-beating
Like somebody pulled-out all the plugs
And the world just went-black
Plunged-into darkness
Silence & no more lights
Like the world-just died
How a heart just blacks-out
How a heart just-drops out
How a heart goes-on all silent
After torrents of words
Walking & talking
The world was just-open
Full of words just scrolling & scrolling
Just pouring & pouring
Crafting & sculpting words & ways
Ways of different faces-pouring down
Just running on-empty
How friendship-is extinguished
How Realitys just dissipear
How alliances-just drop into the abyss💀
All the darkest-nights
Closing-in and stifling
Drowning-you out
Winters icey-blanket
Blackened streets
Burning-inside
No idea-why?!?
Blinding
Binding world💀
Pains in your-mind
Pains-in your heart
Pins burn like-icey fires
Like diamond-glass points
Like glass-hearts crystal clear
Your heart is just-full of pins
Your heart is swamped-out
Swimming with-pains
Pouring like a fountain
Till your blinded
Wanting to roar-out with pains
It's all taking-over
You can't see-anything
All you can do is feel
Blind like an-animal
Pin-points
Pain-points
Human pin-cushion somehow
But you don't know where or why?!?
You try to think-things through
But all you do-is fill on up
To try to focus your own mind
Roaring
Tareing
Tripping
Ripping
Through your heart
Burning kinda pains
Pin-points everywhere
Pressures build-up inside
Can't ignore-it
Do try but it's burning-up
Crazy wiring-all inside
Like a generator in my heart
Liking-you is like glass
Looking through-glass works
Like your mind is a glass-pyramid
And we're all bouncing off-it
Like glass hearts-burning
Mind bending-mind
Life bending-life
Heart bending-heart ❣️
Will opposite-will
Calling opposes-calling
Realitys-conflicting
Realitys-bending
Raw realitys-in collision
Worlds-opposite world's
Words-opposite words
Ways-opposite way
Your mind-going bending
Your hearts going-on melting
Melting-in on itself
Losing-control somehow
Time is too much-bending
Like the clock is all-melting
It won't hold us-right
Hearts not-holding
Hearts are just-bending
Your hearts going on-pricking pains
Can't understand what happen?!?
Can't remember so-much
Can't understand these-symptoms
Trigger-points in realitys
Them lying around-everywhere
Trial of all-errors
Manage your own-madness
Symptoms just waiting to-manifest
Agony-traps I've seen him lay
Tripper-traps
Him love to watch you trip-over his traps
Him bloody-face watching you
Him watching you-near the wire
Cold hard steel wire-stretching over
Lethal-looking trip-wire
Tripper-trap wire
What you get punished-for?!?
Just still being-alive
Sadistical sense of-satisfaction
Hot firey-hells
Lawless-hells
Lawless-hellmasters
F*ck them-all
Angers inside-him body
Angers-he nurtures
Angers-that drive him
All electrical-impulses
All crazy silver-pinworks
Pin-marks
Pin-points
Pain-points made from the mind
Mind-poinTS
Mind-maps
Mind-poinTS
Thoughts just generates-pain
Like eletrical-pins
Like eletrical-pins
From sonewhere-inside
Makes me mental
Want to just roar with-pain
Blind-to my own self
Don't know why?!?
What I can feel
What I can see-inside myself
I don't know why I'm burning?!?
Don't know what the hell it all is?!?
Your the amplifier
Your the machine
Mechanical-monster
Masterful-bastard
Logistical-nightmares
Where your brains-the conductor
Where his will-is the controller
Can't even know-you
I'm the human pin-cushion
I'm the pin-machine
For your twisted-dreans
Domination-of human puppets
Can't know what it means
The pin-wheel
The circle of pin-points
The pain-wheel
The pain wheel-of your own mind
The will of your own self-inside
The will to agonys
Love of gods-driven on through
Pain of the human-slaves
God-slaves driven mad
Driven-mad from pain
Will of the will
Wanting-from the will
It's just constant
Intrusive-thoughts
Power of your own-wanting
Trigger-off yourself
Pin-points of pain
Pin-points of fires
Pin-points in my mind
Pins inside me heart
Pins inside me chest
Cavity-inside all in a riot
Cavity inside all filling-up
Cavity-inside aches & burns
Till your eyes well-up again
Someone out there-on the world
Don't really know your name
But it start-up all the crazys
Heart-life got a kickstart
It's all got ignited
Don't know why?!?
Don't know what the hell happen there?!?
Got all trigger-points
Me mind all cut-up like glass
Me insides full of pin-points
Pain-points burn like hot wires
Pins on fire
Pins of pains
Pin-point me mind
With your weird brilliance
With your wired-up mind
With your inner-logics
Your weird logisticals
Your the strange-one
Very bloody-strange
System all under-strains
The pressures from the emotives
Fluid-energys
Stuff move around inside-me
Can't even know-it
The more you not here-the less we can know it
The more we want it-the more mad it seems
The more your wanted-the less I want it
The more your here-the less it makes sense
Mentalisms-gone riot
Wanting someone-whos estranged
Wanting someone to-remain
Wanting so much-all in vain
Wanting more than I can-take
Wanting so much-more
It's more than I can-stand
Pressures of time-collapsing in my mind
My mind like a pyramid
You left it-all behind
We're born just for-pain
Always & forever it'll be the same
Trained like an animal
From the start
Spirit-tampering
Before we ever-got to part
Barely can stand the silence
Barely can take the strain
Straining-to go bare it
Stresses of holding it-in
Straining-from the pains
Stressed from holding-it back
Like a cross-inside me
Like me own-crazy pathways
Mindness in my mind
You can ignite-the systems
Or so it seems?!?
Driving me around the bend
Driving me-onwards
Don't want to feel-anything much
Don't want all the roaring inside
Me chest-on pain inside the middle
Can't even know why?!?
Life in the living part
Life in the living heart
Life in the vessel inside your chest
Got its own life
Got its own mind
Hearts on fire
Hearts alive
God only knows why
Pains
Thoughts of the future
Pins-points in your mind