Many don't know about me much. I have grown up with them since 1st grade and they still can't remember my last name.
I don't like the school I go to. I'm not popular. I have very few friends. My heart has been broken many times and my one true friend has been there to pick up the pieces and put them together with tape, bubble gum, and glue. I'm a more serious person now a days (sometimes) I no longer look at life the same way, to me life is now a project and I can only go as far as I am willing to go... With that being said its obvious this love I have has created a burning desire to improve I'm strong enough now to walk straight and not let anything deter me from my goals.
I have recently gone through a very hard time and today made it a little better. I love the rain, you see, and whenever I feel the cold, wet feeling of rain drops on my face; I am at peace.
I have always hated my life, I have always wanted something different than I already have. Many call me spoiled, when really I do not have much at all. I am content being with myself, but I do enjoy being with my friends. My friends are more special to me than all the money in the world. I love them dearly and it would pain me to lose them.
Everyday a day that I wish I could trade or rather change for that fact. I made some mistakes and I wonder "If I did something different would my whole day be changed?" "Would it affect another person's day?" "Would my day have gone better if I did this?" I wonder all these things but I can never know, because I can't go back in time. I can't change things that have already been done. I am just a girl that's full of mistakes, stitched together with good intentions.
I look back every single day and I frown. I say to myself, "Today did not go how I planned at all."
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