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I'm passionate about music and business, I love my baby brother and sister (I'm the oldest of 7 but I only like the 2 little ones)and I like standing by trains at night, I don't trust people but I'm really good with kids an dogs, I love coffee, and I write a lot of poetry. Ive been writing songs and poetry since 4th grade. I also like dancing and weird old movies.
I want to do a lot to change my appearance, I want to bleach my hair white, and dye parts of it blue and purple, I want a naval piercing a cartilage piercing a nose stud and spider bites, I also want a large rainbow smoke treble cleft tattoo going down my spine, an owl flying off a sword on my left arm, jack skellington on my left calf and the corpse bride on my right calf with their fingers turning into flowery vines that eventually go up my ribs.
Right now I look nothing like that. right now I live with a jehovahs witness and a vietnam war veteran, and Im grateful to them, so Ill wait until Im on my own to look the way I want to.
I dont belong to any set religion really, I believe in a god and a goddess, with many facets, I believe they are both good and bad, and I belive human beings are not the most important creatures in the universe, but Im not cynnical or anything its just how I feel.
the controversial part about me I suppose is I dont care about death. my grandfather thinks im sociopathic and tried to have me commited when I was little and didnt cry at my grandmothers funeral, but that isnt it because I do feel extreme empathy or people. I just think its selfish to grieve over someone simply because theyre no longer in your life, because we all die and if we didnt no one could live. there would be too many people. its complicated I guess and hard to wrap your head around.
I wrote a lot here because I most likely wont hold a conversation well.