She is slowly driving me insane. ARRRRRGH! I kill her.
My holiday was pretty good over-all. Justin and I had a snowball fight last night at the Train park which was absolutely beautiful, lights were stunning and the music lovely. It was rather a romantic setting and made me miss Pinja even more but am grateful for the time we had together this last week.
I spent Christmas Eve with my son Brandon and his family at his in-laws house who happen to be some great people, it was fun. Then on Christmas day I had Justin of course and then my other son Darren and his family showed up as a surprise visit from Montana. It was good to see my granddaughters again. Ditto, my bestie made Christmas dinner so I escaped the duty one more year hehe...
Looking forward to next year when Pinja will make my world complete. Hope you all had a wonderful holiday :)
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Wow, what a lovely surprise! That was much better than any present that money could buy!
So true...being around loved ones is the best!
Got back home last night, feel like a part of me is missing. The ride there was hell. Got stuck in the snow twice, did a cookie once, my GPS refused to work due to weather conditions and my cell phone decided to misbehave as well. I told Santa. ;)
The visit with my Pinja was lovely and just what we needed, to be in his arms again was the best Christmas present ever. We attended masquerade Mayhem in Seattle and the performances were beyond my expectations, it was pretty cool to see everyone masked too. I had a great time.
Only 6 weeks till my love returns to me.
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I am so happy to hear you two had a lovely time. Two special people that you are...
Today has been one of the worse days of my life, this is not an exaggeration, I wish it was. One of my greatest fears came to fruition today and the kicker is that I have no one to blame but myself. I am all about taking accountability for my actions, and I am paying in the worse way for something I did. I am not perfect, not even close, I made a HUGE error in judgment that has cost me the most important thing in my life. With time I hope to regain it. It's not over yet and the repercussions of my actions will be a part of my life for a long time. What I would give to turn back time. I can't even begin to tell you. All I can do is take my punishment as painful as it is and hope that I will be given another chance. It's almost a relief. I'd like nothing more than to huddle up in a corner and shut everyone and everything out but I can't...I have responsibilities and they won't wait for me to stop feeling sorry for myself. Life goes on whether we opt to be a part of it or not. I will be thankful for the things that I do have and what part of J's life I can still touch.
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wow...oh holy shit.
*hugs you tightly*
I know the feeling... : / ~hugs~
Explaining Christmas to my son or rather reminding him what it is about has a new twist this year as I am no longer Christian but Agnostic. I explain to him what all of the "religions" believe it to represent and then my own take on it. I try to be open-minded while I do this and leave it up to my son to make his own choices. Over at his dads house he gets Katies rendition (the new Mrs.), and that is Christian and that is that. I tell him he has plenty of time to make up his own mind, he is only 10, I don't believe in pushing my beliefs onto anyone else. I grew up Catholic and then non-denominational Christian, I was a Deaconess at my step fathers Church of which he is the Pastor of. Somewhere along the way I lost my faith. It is very hard for me to believe in something that cannot be proven, I side with the Science of things more often than not. Blind faith and hope are things I just don't possess these days.
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Without religion you can still celebrate the magic of Santa Claus and the spirit of that magic. Beyond that- I don't push my religion on others... but as far as not believing in something you can't see: You can't see the wind, and you can't see love... but you can feel it, and know it's there. Not everyone feels it. But I do.
Oh yeah- I believe in science as well. I am not a Biblical literalist. I believe what a good friend and Episcopal priest once shared with me: There's a difference between fact and truth- just because something isn't factual doesn't mean it's not *true*... Like Aesop's Fables. Jesus spoke in parables to get a point across. The *point* is all I care about- I don't necessarily believe Jonah was swallowed by a whale, or many of the other stories like that... I still come away with my personal truth.
Thanks for your thoughts images :)
I consider myself an Agnostic as well.
My ex-husbands wife called here last night ragging and bitching about how selfish he is. *chuckles* Is it bad that I am glad that he is the same with her that he was with me, probably but I'm kind of a bitch that way.
She bought lights for the outside of the house, he refuses to hang them, she asked him to move the piano into my house and he says he is tired of moving things and spouted off that he doesn't care if Justin plays the piano he would rather he take karate lessons. Now she has to hire someone to do these things. I guess he took a piece of garlic bread out of his step-daughters hands because she had already had some and he didn't and wanted it. Oh and some other things...I'm just glad he is no longer my problem...
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yeh well she is seeing that there was a reason he is your ex and No it isn't bad for you to be glad he is the same way with her..it just proves more and more that it was him the whole time and had nothing to do with you..cause from the sounds he treats everyone like shit.Your awesome anyway you look at it hun.
Thanks babe
I bet you are gloating weg
Trying to get my Christmas Cards out and I have ran out of them after oh about 30. *sighs*. Sorry it is taking me so long ....If for some reason you don't get one from me it's nothing personal, after buying 3 boxes of cards, 2 books of stamps my card fund is running low...ugggh.
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I'll take a pair of your panties instead, k?
Thanks LSS :D
Pat, you is a naughty girl...any preference in color? :P
can you send me pics of ThePinja in hosiery please?
pat and I wanna see the Evidence.
LOL, for a fee ;)
Black, split crotch please. And Jadee, we have your addy so sending the fee is no problem. We wanna see!
Yeah!
We can send the FEE!
So my son is once again taking piano lessons and we have added fiddle lessons as well so that he can join the church group his step-mom belongs to that goes and plays at the different convalescence homes and so forth. He seems to prefer the piano, he loves it and it seems like he is learning much faster than he did previously. I think it will be good for him, I try to nurture any interests he has. I have been noticing all the changes in him this year, he suddenly LIKES girls lol, he is embarrassed by any show of affection from us adults of course, he is showing more confidence and he is changing physically by leaps and bounds as well...my baby isn't a baby anymore...
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im sure hell always be your baby hun.
Fiddle, or violin?
Actually both....
I was a very bad girl today, somewhat selfish in fact but a girl shopping for any reason is a dangerous thing hehe. I bought myself a Christmas present, a beautiful deep purple Pea Coat pleated in the back. I wuvs it ♥ And of course I had to buy a scarf to match *grins*.
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I would of thought that you would of brought more shoes.
Not really a shoe chick but I have 2 closets full of clothes, a vanity and some in storage hehe
a girl cant have enough shoes...and what about a new bag and lunch with the girls and...and...and...its not selfish btw its necessary these are all items you cannot live without LOL
ok you gots the coat and the scarf , but you needs a pretty purse to match and some gloves too.
Hmmmmmm, "Oh Pinja...*
merry xmas to me will be blue diamond stud earrings.
Us girls can never have to many accessories....def need to post some pics of this coat in a journal entery :) would love to see it
Thanks LSS... thanks. Great I see what i'm going to be looking up now.
Good for you Jadee ^^
Finally got to see Eclipse, my son and I saw the first two in the theater. It was ok, a lot of mush and I noticed they sexed up "Bella" a bit. She needed it, I'm sorry but she seems a wee bit frigid for me. Where is all the vampire sex dammit? LOL
Even though I have had house guests for the last few days and they are driving me nuts I might add, it was pretty sweet to wake up to breakfast in bed. My roommate knows I have been stressed and surprised me with bacon, sausage and french toast, yummerz.
On the down side there is no hot water left after all my guests showered this morning and I have a million things to do today.
Oh the innocence of children. Or not. When my son Justin first met my best friend, she had said "I love your mom" in that off-handed friendly way and he replied; "are you two lesbians?".
*Le sigh*
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And what was your answer? :P
lol, that's society for you.
I'm actually bisexual which I explained to my son when I dated a girl for awhile.
*smiles* quite an interesting situation
I just had it out with my ex-husband. Why? Because when he asked our son what we were having for dinner, Justin wouldn't tell him we were having pork chops, he said he was afraid. Yes, afraid. Since when is pork chops, applesause and baked potatoes so sinful you might ask? Since Jason and the new Mrs. Brown have been pounding it into Justins head of what he "can" and can't eat. They are on a healthfood kick and apparently the food at my house isn't good enough and the portions too large. They call just to make sure he has eaten an apple everyday. They tell him he is not allowed to eat fast food, ever! Apparently he is allowed one piece of toast or an apple for breakfast, a half sandwich for lunch and so forth. Funny since they had fried chicken last week, a food he was told he couldn't eat...
THIS IS MY HOUSE! What we eat here is not up to them. I would never do anything to harm my sons health for heavens sakes. Justin is not overweight, in fact he just lost about 8 pounds. He has shot up several inches in the last few months.
The pork chops were the last straw, I flipped out.
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WTF! I mean he is a child, and FFS it should be up to your child what he or she would want to eat! Diets and eating fads were not meant for children. Eating healthy yes.. telling them no to a pork chop, completely STUPID!
Yeah, I have nothing against eating healthy but when your kid is crying because he is terrified to tell them we eat things like pork chops and red meat here its pretty ridiculous...
It is sad when a child fears one of their parents like that...and afraid to say what they ate...wow.
Your ex husband sounds like a nut. If he is going to eat fried chicken. Your son is growing and he needs protein.
Next time they get all high and mighty about their health kick. Remind them that everything in moderation, anything in excess can cause issues. Excess Vitamin C causes diarrhea, Not too many health foods have the right amino acids, and proper proteins that common meats and legumes have.
Well! If pigs could fly.. I know where one could land and wrap itself around! For frigs sake, how picky. We all need protein, and protein comes from meat. Soo, whats their problem!
you go girl, I had to do the same thing with my ex when my girls were small , told him point blank when he had them what they eat was between them but at my house was none of his business and to keep his nose out of it or lose it.
omg that is crazy - the day my ex tells me I can't feed our child something he will have it shoved right up his @ss!
How old were you when you were told that Santa wasn't real? Were you devastated? My son Justin is 10 and still believes, I want the magic to last a little longer *smiles*. I remember being so let down when I was told, I think I was 9.
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He has to exist. I saw him today seven different times in three different towns. And, for his age he sure gets around quick. ;)
Ahaha! Cute :D
Santa isn't real?? &!$$$###*&&$$@ NOOOOOOOO!
I am 39. and i still believe in the magic of christmas.
Santa weather or not people should believe in it is purely up to you and your son.....
I say this...........
drat, the video didn't embed..... sighs.
8. But I agree with Robin. The fat guy in the red suit with the presents, no. Santa and the spirit of Christmas, different story.
Video embedding isn't allowed in journal comments.
Merry Christmas.
I figured out on the embeding part.. lol first time i tryed it really lol Never had the need or reason too, till now lol now i know lol
But basically, To not believe in Santa, is not believe in christmas.
All in all, The magic lives with in us. This is what the video would of said, .......
Eight-year-old Virginia O'Hanlon wrote a letter to the editor of New York's Sun, and the quick response was printed as an unsigned editorial Sept. 21, 1897. The work of veteran newsman Francis Pharcellus Church has since become history's most reprinted newspaper editorial, appearing in part or whole in dozens of languages in books, movies, and other editorials, and on posters and stamps.
"DEAR EDITOR: I am 8 years old.
"Some of my little friends say there is no Santa Claus.
"Papa says, 'If you see it in THE SUN it's so.'
"Please tell me the truth; is there a Santa Claus?
"VIRGINIA O'HANLON.
"115 WEST NINETY-FIFTH STREET."
VIRGINIA, your little friends are wrong. They have been affected by the skepticism of a skeptical age. They do not believe except [what] they see. They think that nothing can be which is not comprehensible by their little minds. All minds, Virginia, whether they be men's or children's, are little. In this great universe of ours man is a mere insect, an ant, in his intellect, as compared with the boundless world about him, as measured by the intelligence capable of grasping the whole of truth and knowledge.
Yes, VIRGINIA, there is a Santa Claus. He exists as certainly as love and generosity and devotion exist, and you know that they abound and give to your life its highest beauty and joy. Alas! how dreary would be the world if there were no Santa Claus. It would be as dreary as if there were no VIRGINIAS. There would be no childlike faith then, no poetry, no romance to make tolerable this existence. We should have no enjoyment, except in sense and sight. The eternal light with which childhood fills the world would be extinguished.
Not believe in Santa Claus! You might as well not believe in fairies! You might get your papa to hire men to watch in all the chimneys on Christmas Eve to catch Santa Claus, but even if they did not see Santa Claus coming down, what would that prove? Nobody sees Santa Claus, but that is no sign that there is no Santa Claus. The most real things in the world are those that neither children nor men can see. Did you ever see fairies dancing on the lawn? Of course not, but that's no proof that they are not there. Nobody can conceive or imagine all the wonders there are unseen and unseeable in the world.
You may tear apart the baby's rattle and see what makes the noise inside, but there is a veil covering the unseen world which not the strongest man, nor even the united strength of all the strongest men that ever lived, could tear apart. Only faith, fancy, poetry, love, romance, can push aside that curtain and view and picture the supernal beauty and glory beyond. Is it all real? Ah, VIRGINIA, in all this world there is nothing else real and abiding.
No Santa Claus! Thank God! he lives, and he lives forever. A thousand years from now, Virginia, nay, ten times ten thousand years from now, he will continue to make glad the heart of childhood.
http://www.newseum.org/yesvirginia/
My son said the funniest thing tonight, "Mom, what was dads last name before he got married?". Terri and I just cracked up laughing, and Justin was standing there like "what?" ....hence I had to explain...the role of the mans world.
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That is quite funny.
That's hysterical.
Tell Justin it was "Noob" then daddy married Mommy and got some class! :P
HAHAHA! Damn straight lol
Cute!
LOL my youngest used to tell folk his father (my ex) was just a friend of the family. Embarassing in company!
HAHAHA! Thats priceless...
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xxEmaeraldxx
20:02 Dec 27 2010
Hold that thought heh!
PandorasBx
20:10 Dec 27 2010
Do I have to? *pouts*
Raina
20:25 Dec 27 2010
lol
KattrinaK
22:05 Dec 27 2010
O.-
Ezio
07:20 Dec 30 2010
I have some rope! you can make it look like suicide XP