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It went a little something like this....



She told me the night before she was expecting another arguement the next day cuz she said she was seeing HIM again.... rolled over went to sleep and that was that



I got up the next day got ready to go out to go visit a friend (yes I do have those I just do not go out much) who was about to have a disc in his neck replaced. I asked if she still had plans she said yes.... I happend to glance at her online status to see her saying that she was a bird in a cage and can love kill someone to see ONE of the boys reply YES.... on the way out the door seeing what all this has done to me and her I said you should take your friends advice.



I left the house having forgotten in the upset mood I was in that I had left her bank card in my wallet from the night before ( drove my $49,000 mod'ed roadster with no snow tires on it out in a snow storm to get her smokes at 3:35 in the morning with her card cuz if I dident she was threatening to go out and walk to the store in it and with out me?!?!? ) the result was HE took her to the bank canceled her card got a new one just so she would have the money to go and hang out with HIM. I went to my friends house and explaned to him and his wife what has been going on.....



I went over everything thats happend since last october.... there point of view is that The Boy knows exactly what he is doing.... his friends are going to back him up.... she wont leave him for me even thoe she asked me to marry her and shes living with me and im the significant other.... and they know if the choice is ME or THEM she will choose THEM. Point blank I was told dude this is not worth this kick her to the curb they want her so bad let them HAVE HER.



I go home after thanking them for there time the 1 can of beer and I said that I hoped his operation went well. I drive home its around 11:30 at night.... I get home shes not home I go out on the back with a pack of smokes and I just stand there in the cold.... I see the mini van pull up the road I see it screech to a hault in front of the house I see him once again WAIT to see if I let her in.... like his is expecting I wont?!?!?



I hear the front door open she comes in she walks down the stears to our space... I open the door I look in the look on her face.... slightly tinted with NOT HAPPY to be home.... I have another smoke and I go in.... shes already in bed with her DS out playing Pokemon like she does so her mind gets tired so she can go to sleep.... she says nothing to me. I walk over I look down at her.... she looks up at me shrugs and goes back to her game I stand there looking hurt not knowing what to say but that I must say something.... it starts with where I went to night and why.... and that I had talked to my friends about our situation.... not a word she says nothing totaly ignores me.... excuse me I'm talking to you.... what ever.... and I lose it



since last october its all built up HIM HIM HIM and HER HIM HIM HIM what he wants when he wants to see her the plans they have made HIM HIM HIM and HER.... I freak out his name is all I ever hear about how awsome he is how great he is how you would leave your best friend for NO ONE how you HAVE to spend ALL this time with him how when you cant how NOT HAPPY you are.... WE are not happy..... you are not happy here.... why are you continueing this relationship with me when its CLEAR to everyone WHO makes you happy and its not me HIM HIM HIM HIM HIM.... you dont smile for me any more.... you dont enjoy sex with me any more.... you dont drink with me.... we dont go to movies.... we dont watch movies you just keep playing stuff off youtube till its time for you to go to bed when you are home with me.... she gets up and walks past me not saying a word.... I follow her to the bath room.... well I want you to make a choice is it going to be the guy you asked to marry you or the best friend.... is it going to be me who feels more like the 3rd wheel and the best friend.... or your best friend who is more like the boy friend.... she screams at me to leave her alone.... she calls him to come get her..... and in the same PJ's she went out with him in came home in went to our bed in she leaves with him again.... screaming that she gave up enough for me but she wont give up him. I say glade to see you finally made your choice your stuff will be packed and up stears in the morning.... she says no dont touch my stuff WE will come in and get it our selfs tomorrow I say.... HE is not coming in MY home.... and she was gone



around oh let me see 3 and a half hours later 3:30 in the morning.... and a lot of text messages of her saying she and THEM do not understand WHY I am like this WHY I do not understand.... and her saying how much she loves me and how much she wishes we could fix this.... I finally say.... okie you wana fix this come home thank you.... at first its NO NOT TONIGHT I'm staying here with the people who care most about me..... according to her THEY love her UN-conditionally and will ALWAYS BE THERE no matter what.... VS Me who always WANTS something from her? No guys all I want is a grown up relationship like my other friends have where the guy has the right to stand up and say DUDE stop asking my girl out stop calling and being pissy because shes with me and not you.... stop all the texting stop all the COME DO THIS.... COME DO THAT.... COME STAY OVER.... NO and I mean NO other couple I know would A. the girl not be the frist to tell another guy to go to hell out of respect for there relationship.... and B. no other GUY would just stand up and let this HAPPEN any other guy I know would take this little BOY aside and say YOU this stops NOW you understand?



But no in my case i am NOT aloud to be a man..... nore does she respect me enough to put a stop to this eather.... she puts it to me like this eather I come get her our shes staying there and she will see me tomorrow night.... I go and get her cuz she says she wants to come home.... I pick her up she looks scared SHIT LESS and then out the oldest member of the sheared house comes..... "you listen to me you shes a special girl.... if you so much as lay a hand on her...." and the abligitory threats of physical violence.... I look at him "dont blame me I did not start this" "listen you...." and I drive off.... shes sitting there shakeing next to me.... I look at her.... "great now death threats.... wtf have I done to deserve this hay wtf.... I try and stand up and be a man and I get knocked down.... I get treated like the little bitch who has to put up and shut up or else this is insane I did not start this.... I'm not the one constently UP your ass while your out living with him no its the other way around" and she crys all the way home.....



she sits on the floor and tells me she does not understand why I wont let her see her friends.... her friends NOT THE PROBLEM this GUY is the PROBLEM.... this GUY is our relationships ONLY ISSUES.... she basically puts it to me.... if I dont fuck off about this shut up and let her GO be with him and also let her STAY here with me ITS OVER.... but also that NO she is not nore will she sleep with him.... they are just best friends and thats all.... there is NOTHING going on between them.... and on and on and on



she finally asks me one last time to explane WHY I feel the way I do.... and I put it blunt.... look you try being with someone where for 6 months all you hear is THIS GUYS NAME..... I'm invited out to movies.... I'm asked over for dinner.... I'm going drinking with.... I'll be home dont wait up.... this guy is the greatest thing to me.... this guy is going to be my best friend for ever.... I wana keep this guy as my friend for ever.... I said you might as well say dear you dont expect me or any one else to be there for ever.... since obveously you want him and only him to be there and do this.... after 6 months of this I am done as was your last boy friend I can see why your last relationship went the way it did.... when I see other relationships where the couple say oh no put us in that situation I'll take the person im engaged to not any one else.... I said I freak out because every time I hear his name its like nails on a chalk board.... I want to put a gun in my mouth and end this JUST so you can GO be happy with him with out any GUILT about where am I and am I upset....



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shes still here.... she has not left.... I'm left with the choice I eather STFU or shes gone.... if I kick her out THEY'll probley come after me.... more drama.... I'm trapped.... I want out.... I want to talk to a lawyer maybe file something so there not aloud to come near me any more.... I dont know what I can do.... I've been physically threatend now..... no way out of this if I stay in this it KILLS ME.... if I kick her out THEY'll HURT ME....



No way out

So while things around the house seem to have become quite. She's taken to sleeping a lot when there is nothing going on to go do.... we did go out last weekend to a club.... the boy showed up too and for the most part kept to himself.... we had a good night, and went home tired.



One the down side she went to her docter and picked up anti depresents because apparently this whole situation has taken such a chunk out of her that now she needs pills in order to try to be happy?



I want to thank for the advice people have given me but the more this negative crap going on around me seeps into my fibers the more I'm just becoming guilt ridden for NOT just letting her go off with who ever and do what ever.



like my current job searching.... this too is making me want to bang my head off a wall lots and lots and lots



I also seem to be getting a bit of a cold (sniff sniff sneezie sneezie) uhg I hate when I get sick cuz it useually puts me in a hellish place that lasts for 3 or more weeks



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Army
00:28 Mar 22 2011

Well, sleeping a lot IS a major sign of depression. It's a coping mechanism so that they don't have to deal with anything. If they're asleep, they can't think about things.

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I wanted to put there here maybe someone might read this and offer advice.... or something I have no clue on wtf to do any more I'm lost....



I'll start back in October.... shortly after my brithday I met someone.... we hit it off amazingly well. So much so I asked her to move in with in a week of our first coffee outing. Alone we are amazingly great friends.... she asked me to marry her (my pending legal issues aside) and seems totaly 100% hooked on my like I am crack.... there is only one thing we have in our lives that is an issue.



Another boy



She warned me when this started that a lot of her friends where male.... but I guess it is where I am..... not at one with the times maybe? I dunno.... let me explane. The first time I met this young man was at a party at his house that she took me to.... we met and promptly dragged us up to his room in this sheared house he was living in with friends.... he said few words to me but sat there next to her going on and on about new things he had gotten and things he had made.... at the time I had the feeling he was a little "over the top" but rather he is WAY over the top....



I can't totaly go date by date with what followed but it goes something like this. Boy calls cell phone here around 4 to 5 in the morning drunk asking HER to come get drunk to.... telling her what a wonderfull day he had.... calling her while shes in the bath then stateing he wants to come over and her laughing and saying I would not like that much. Showing up out side my estate parking out there calling her cell to get her to come out and go drinking even when SHES NOT HERE.... calling in the middle of things being overly loud on the phone SIGHING VERY LOUDLY when she says of course she is doing something with me and when would she be done..... note - he did this durring Christmass Dinner.... he shows up at local punk shows hugs her putting his hands rubbing them all over her while looking past me and flashing a SNAKE LIKE GRIN.... the night this boy lost his last job he got extreamo drunk.... she just had to go visit him so we went over and I had to watch her get dragged onto the boys bed.... watch her get grouped and kissed and hugged and NOT letting her get up with me standing right there.



I finally lost it with him right after Christmass when at yet another punk show as we where leaveing him and one of his friends came up to us (me standing behind her) bugging her that she MUST come get drunk and do shots now now now now on repeat like silly children.... ammm her having to get up early in the morning and was not drinking said "NO not tonight we are leaving now I have to work in the morning" and the two guys ignoreing my presents altogeather continued to ignore her words bounceing up and down getting louder every time she said no.... after 3 strikes I was out..... "do you 2 have rocks in your heads my girl friend said no now fuck off" he reached to grab her arm I got inbetween and shoved him back hard. I left I walked out.... I actually had to send someone back in to get her.



From this point forwards I was NO LONGER alowed in the BOYS presents.... she could go over to his house and get drunk with out me but I was not aloud to even show my face on his street....



It's gotten to a point now where I can not deal with this any more.... all her days off she makes plans not with me. She goes out and gets drunk.... he is almost always involved even if I get lied to and told other wise. he calls me a (douch bag) for the fact that I spoke out about it in public.... that I have had enough of picking someone up after a night of me sitting around doing not much of anything but cleaning.... to have them so drunk they can not keep there head up.... to take them home take off there cluths put them to bed only to have them next day off wanting to go do it all again....



Last night it finally all came to a end.... I'm so numb inside.... my mom finally pasted away a week ago.... I really have not cryed about that yet.... its always him him him.... he is the greatest guy shes ever met.... he is so amazeing.... and on and on and on all I ever freaking here is The Boy this and The Boy that..... yet when I strongly sugested we END THIS and she go move in with him go fucking be with him god damn it........ i'm the one she loves she says not him.... then why the fuck is it that you 2 are inseperable.... and I get to sit at home on my ass all the time.... I dont get to have any fun.... we are bearly having sex any more all she does is come home take a bath right away have a smoke and go to bed.



WTF AM I SAPOSE TO DO?!!?!?



I pull the tought love thing.... go ahead I said I don't care any more go out with him go to his house, take some cloths stay over.... sleep in his bed with him if thats what he wants.... I'm done caring about this I'm just done.... I'm going out you already had plans with him please go out and have fun.... and I left.... I thought I gave her what she wanted....



the end result was she took a knife and cut her self up a lot.... the end result was "I can't beleave your making me choose between my friends and you" and "if thats the way you want it fine just don't expect me to get out of bed or want to do anything"



this from the person who said they wanted to marry me.... this from the person who never runs to me always to him.... never laughs or giggles around me any more always him.... I want her to leave I want her to move in with him.... I feel so guilt ridden for coming between them for having this relationship with her even thoe they are (COUGHS) JUST FRIENDS.... the last time we had a fight over this I had to drop her off over there I stood in the door way herd them go upstears herd him say "are you ok?" and hear that lip smacking sound of them kissing....



I am sick to my little heart.... I do not want to do this any more stop playing with me like this.... its not fare..... and I'm the bad guy in all this.... all this is my fault....



I do not understand any more I'm lost I'm confused I don't get it I just don't :'(