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I wish I was Hardware
06:24 Oct 24 2005
Times Read: 745

There it is on a disk

All there ever was

And ever is

The memories of you



It took 3 nights

Of smashing things

I cut myself

I cried

But no matter what I do

I still feel deep down

That something inside me

Died



I thought if I could

I would destroy

And wipe it all away



But with each day I wake up

The memory won’t go away



I search for in vain

For a plug in my head

I wish I could turn it off

I wish that I was dead

But more solid state inside my mind

Are the memories in my head?



There it is in my mind

All there ever was

And ever is

The memories of you



I thought if I could

I would destroy

And wipe it all away



It took 6 months

Of smashing things

I cut myself

I cried

But no matter what I do

I still feel deep down

That something inside me

Died



No matter what I do

I always wake up to me

No matter where I go

My mind belongs to thee

The memories of you

-VR SEX-
22:54 Oct 20 2005
Times Read: 756

Across the distant miles you scream

Her name



Digital Lust

Riding through your vains



Could this save your world

Could this save the old

Another part of a story soon to be told



You feel you’re self for her

Hoping she's real

Her mortal skin you'll never feel



Could this be the savior

Conquering the world

Another story soon to unfold



Digital lust

Riding through vains



Across a million miles

Screaming her name....

De-Con-Struct-Me
22:50 Oct 20 2005
Times Read: 758

I am not me any more.....

I’m a machine, a construct built out of bits of everything else.

And you, you are all like grains of sand......

Watch as you cause me to brake down.....

And grind to a bloody halt.

Your mere beings sticking in my gears.

And pulling me apart.

Sorrow
22:47 Oct 20 2005
Times Read: 760

I love you

But not all the time

And still I’m left alone

I want to be with you

But you're occupied

I’m scared

Of losing the little bit I have

I wish I could be numb

I want to feel nothing

In the end I’ll always

Be alone

Left in my grave of despair

There’s no one to wipe my tears

That want to

Fall

But are afraid to

Maybe someday I’ll make

A beautiful waterfall

With my sorrows

And I’ll drown in it for you

-Binary Void-
22:44 Oct 20 2005
Times Read: 761

Corporate Mergers filling your screen

This servers down



404 error your only scream

This servers down



Lost in the void

Never to be found

Your connections reset

No hope to be found



This world they created

The binary void

Controlling information

Your life has been sold



404 error the only recourse

This server down



Corporate merger taking you down

Your information

Will never be found

You’re gone....

A Night Alone
20:09 Oct 20 2005
Times Read: 765

It’s another night when we had plans

That we could spend some time alone

The house is empty and here I am

How did I know that you’d be gone?



And I know that things shouldn’t be like this

Go fuck your self and leave me alone



Why do things have to be like this

Maybe I’m better off alone



It’s another night when we should have kissed

But I am here and you are gone

Why do you say you wont do this?

But then I still end up at home



And I know that things shouldn’t be like this

Go fuck your self and leave me alone



Why do things have to be like this

Maybe I’m better off alone



It’s another night spent in this house

Another night but now your are gone

Why do thing have to be like this?

Why do you tell me things will be different?

Maybe I’m better off alone

Bite Back
20:07 Oct 20 2005
Times Read: 766

I’ve got an ugly car

With it I’ll go real far

I’ll run you over

And spit on your body



I’ve got 44

Gage microphone

I’m spitting words

That will hit you like

Bullets



You say I’ve got a lack of respect

I’ve just got about as much as you

I’m just giving it right back

Do on to others

As you’d have done to you



I’m a train

Your just tied to the tracks

And when I run you over

I won’t look back



I’m just the army boot

Put to the back of your head

Your teeth are biteing curb

And I’m feeling no regret



You say I’ve got a lack of respect

I’ve just got about as much as you

I’m just giving it right back

Do on to others

As you’d have done to you



Violence begets violence

Anger spawns harsh words

I’m just a mirror

Just looking right back at you

Why can’t you see in me?

All the bad things that you do?



Why can’t you see in me?

The part of me that’s become you

Dirt Angles
22:38 Oct 19 2005
Times Read: 773

But when they went to war

did they really care about the victims

the body count was high

before there done

we all shall die



how does it feel

to be the king of nothing

because when your done

firing your rounds

and fighting your fights

even your family will be dead



a war of words with out any brain

when you think your always right

your suffering from a psychosis again

what’s the point of being master of puppets

if you have nothing around you but cheep toys

like a 5 year old you chew there heads off

look what you've created

like in a mirror you too lost your head



how does it feel

to be the king of nothing

because when your done

firing your rounds

and fighting your fights

even your family will be dead



how does it feel to defend

firing back with all those rounds

knowing full well

your egos so big

your shooting your self

your killing your self

just to show that your right



gods your not

smart your not

your just a man

small pathetic

grain of sand

and in 100 years

who will care

no one

because it was

NOTHING....

just another monument

to pointlessness

Cache dump
22:33 Oct 19 2005
Times Read: 775

so now this end with violence

a thrashing of memories

you can reformat

but you know that

you can not delete me



how many times have you

re-combined the code

but if you don’t

take out the errors

your existence

for ever will

be truly flawed



so now this end with violence

a thrashing of my memories

you know I can reformat

but you know that

I can not delete me



with every reconfigure

there is still the error

and the loop goes on



for as you see

I am a human being

even when things lose all meaning

until I die I know I will go on



with every reconfigure

there is still the error

and the loop goes on



so now this end with violence

a thrashing of memories

you can reformat

but you know that

you can not delete me



how many times have you

re-combined the code

but if you don’t

take out the errors

your existence

for ever will

be truly flawed



for as you see

I am a human being

even when things lose all meaning

until I die I know I will go on



there is no registry edit

no hack

no fix

no on off switch

my power is my own

Failed Love Song
22:29 Oct 19 2005
Times Read: 776

it was in a moment like this

in another time

in another place

the world was mine

things stopped for a moment

but for now

its all in my mind



when i hold your hand

I see the truth

in the world that surrounds you



when i look in those eyes

my world explodes

but there is nothing

nothing that I can do



and when i feel those lips

its like moth wing kisses

I want to drown in you



But now when I open up my eye

and my vision clarifies

all I see every where is you

and there’s nothing more I can do

all I want to do is hold you

but I fear its something

that I'll never do



when i hold your hand

I see the truth

in the world that surrounds you



when i look in those eyes

my world explodes

but there is nothing

nothing that I can do



and when i feel those lips

its like moth wing kisses

I want to drown in you



it was in a moment like this

in another time

in another place

the world was mine

things stopped for a moment

but for now

its all in my mind



I wish that time was all I had

but all time is not what I've got

and I cant tell you how I feel

but in me I’m not sure

that in me its not what

that you want of me

Grip The Handle
22:23 Oct 19 2005
Times Read: 777

My girl friend is a pretty gun

the light plays across her surface

I grip her tightly

put her in my mouth

and wait for her to go off



she blows my mind

right out the back of my skull

there is a blood flower on the wall

of my good intentions



she is liquid loaded and ready to go off

the bullets are an alcohol-based solution

my hand becomes wet the tighter I grip her

she is liquid loaded and ready to go off



My girl friend is a pretty gun

the light plays across her surface

I grip her tightly

put her in my mouth

and wait for her to go off



she blows my mind

right out the back of my skull

there is a blood flower on the wall

of my good intentions

Blockad Runner
22:21 Oct 19 2005
Times Read: 778

Once again the soldiers jump the barricades

Heading face first into raining metal

We will not give up this fight

Our hearts are in the right place

And we are ready to stand and fight



Oh hand me the body armor of my will

Give me the gun full of hearts

Send me off upon these battlefields

I will fight for this and take the bullets



I will not go down

I will not die

If you want me to go

Then bring an army



There are no by standers here

The ground is soaked with blood

From the fools who thought

There would be a winner



I will not go down

I will not die

If you want me to go

Then bring an army



Once again the soldiers jump the barricades

Heading face first into raining metal

We will not give up this fight

Our hearts are in the right place

And we are ready to stand and fight



Oh hand me the body armor of my will

Give me the gun full of hearts

Send me off upon these battlefields

I will fight for this and take the bullets



And in the end when all is still

The ground is strewn with nothing left

And as the light faded from my eyes

She is the angle falling from the sky

She is the reason I would die

To save us from our selves

more words for bullets for guns for ammo
22:18 Oct 19 2005
Times Read: 779

Bitchyness in the morning

Bitchyness though out the day

give me bullets for this gun

and I'll take them all away



words make good ammo

for the angry man

words make good ammo

for the loving man



you said you where

so I excepted the word

I took you by its meaning

and I'll make it all go away



reload with caffeine

with you I am awake

tuck the words

inside the barrel

come lets blow em

all awake!



words make good ammo

for the angry man

words make good ammo

for the loving man



you said you where

so I excepted the word

I took you by its meaning

and I'll make it all go away



not a sound in the morning

not a sound though out the night

you give me bullets for this gun

and we did what we had to

so we could survive

I ripped my flesh on angel’s tattered wings
22:15 Oct 19 2005
Times Read: 780




I went out walking in an alleyway

ah midst the ruins in decay

but at my feet oh what should I find

a creature fallen from the sky



I took her home rapped up in a sheet

I laid her on my bed to investigate

as I explored she came un-twined



once awake the look on her face

it held no sign of fear

no sign of disgrace



I pulled her to me

her legs rapped around

and then slowly

we moved up and down



I gripped the tatters

the bits of tour wings

and as we move her moans

sound like she sings



I’m fucking angles tonight

acres of pale hairless skin

I’m fucking angles tonight

please let me cum with in





my pretty angle

of you how did I find you

my pretty angle

no one else will do





I gripped the tatters

the bits of tour wings

and as we move her moans

sound like she sings



your all ways on top

it goes right through me

and then slowly moving

your holiness rubs me



once when she is done

I held close to me

no sign of disgrace

she whisper to me softly



I’m fucking angles tonight

acres of pale hairless skin

I’m fucking angles tonight

please let me cum with in



I let her go back to her father

out in the dirty city

my blankets smell of her

but they are not dirty



to bad now she’s gone

I miss my pale angle

my angle with no wings

Lights Camera Die
22:12 Oct 19 2005
Times Read: 781

and there once was a light

but then you turned it out

you left me in a darkness

with nothing but fears

and doubt



but when where together

I know I feel so strong

but every time that where apart

I feel that something’s wrong



and so I go out driving

out there in the dark

all alone on a distant road

taking my corners to tight



for I know what I’m missing

and I know what is wrong

and when your out there with them

I really feel that your gone



oh why did this have to happen

why oh why do they take this love from me

so suddenly life slips back into remission

because of your submission as to who and what

of you that they wanted you to be



for I know what I’m missing

and I know what is wrong

and when you out there

I really feel all alone



and so I go out driving

out there in the dark

all alone on a distant road

taking my corners to tight



and there once was lights

but I know I turned them out

left alone in a darkness

with nothing but fears

and doubt



but when ever we where together

I know now what I felt so strong

but every time that we where

I feel that sometimes

maybe it would of all been better

off

if

I

was

gone



and so I go out driving

out there in the dark

all alone on a distant road

taking my corners to tight



I turn off my lights

I made a sharp turn

I watch as my reality explodes

there off in the distance

I hear sirens as

my in pained eyes

slowly start to close

Could This Be Happy
13:32 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 790

Is this an illusion

Could this be real

I have no words to say

But I can’t help but feel



Now I don’t know what to do

I don’t know what to feel

It’s like a bomb went off

And I

I’ve been blown away



A single tear runs down my skin

Should I be here

Should I let you in

Will you take it

Take all of this away



I said I’d never do this again

But here I am with you my friend

I feel so much

It makes me want to cry



Is this happy

Could this be real

I have no words to say

But I can’t help but feel



Now I don’t know what to do

I don’t know what to feel

It’s like a bomb went off

And I

I’ve been blown away



A single tear runs down my skin

Should I be here

Should I let you in

Will you take it

Take all of this away



I said I’d never do this again

But here I am with you my friend

I feel so much

It makes me want to cry



Is this happy

Could this be real

I have no words to say

But I can’t help but feel



So now I can not sleep

My eyes wont shut

I hope I can keep

This feeling of

Could this be happy

What About Revenge
03:09 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 797

There are people running in the streets

Waving pitch forks and torches

It’s the current matter of opinion

That all seen as evil be stamped out



Popular opinion states

That there are terrorists

Who is the terror for?

In there right fighting back

Against oppression



I am the monster that you speak of

I am that faceless doubt

I am the monster that you speak of

You have shown me out



Take all these signs as warnings

You to could be singled out

The enemy is every where

That is what we’ve been taught



Popular opinion states

That there are terrorists

Who is the terror for?

In there right fighting back

Against oppression



Who is the right in this?

Who is the wrong?

It’s all a matter of opinion

Who ever piles the bullshit higher?

For you to believe there side



I am the monster that you speak of

I am that faceless doubt

I am the monster that you speak of

You have shown me out



Beat me

Beat me

Hurt me

To make it all better

Violence begets violence

Is killing your enemy

Really such a treat

Or are you no better

Then the demons that you speak of

Then the demons that you speak of

Razor Kids
02:41 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 801

"Hickery Dickery Dock

I Cut Too Deep

Im Fucked

I wont learn my lesson

I have pent up aggression

Im checken out so

fuck off!"



-

I actually came up with this for a good friend of mine.... this little rhym was a joke at the time.... and is not ment to be taken seriously

-

I Spent About A Hundred Years
01:59 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 806

I spent about a hundred years

Looking for some one

And I’m just so glad

Because that someone I found is you



So many days so many dreams

Of a faceless entity

But now the shadows have gone

And your eyes are all I see



A character in mists of snow

She is of Raven hair

Dancing round and round

But until I met you

I did not know if she was really there



So many nights so many dreams

Of a faceless entity

But now the shadows have gone

And your eyes are all I see



I spent about a hundred years

Looking for you dear

And I’m just so glad that now I found you

Because you can still be here

To Many Feelings Come To Bare
01:21 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 810

To many feelings come to bare

Fingers twisted in my hair

Linger thought slowly slip from me

Duct tape dreams

Things that will never be



Tastes of bottles of wine

Things that I won’t give up

Like my tong on your skin

A memory from with in



And all these letters

And all of these words

Things best left unspoken

Words I always wanted to be herd

Of all the things that you said

Of all the things that you do

A peace of me remains

Hidden deep inside you



Now that time is growing near

For yet another good bye

Yet again you walk away

Another day is done

Another sun will die



Soon the darkness is around

Then the dreams will come

Of fire’s, water, and beaches

With your face in my hands

And my last view is of your eyes

I slowly slip away into another day

Tied To You
01:17 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 812

I want to be tied to you

By cords I can’t escape



I want you to drag me around

Right here and all over the place



I want to crawl so much

I’ll have carpet burns on my knees



Chain me up lock me in your world

Pull me apart then put me together again

Let me feel the back of your hand

But then a kiss on the cheek



I’ll do anything for this

Anything for you

Just for the touch of your skin

You don’t know what I’ll do



Come on chain me up lock me in your world

Pull me apart then put me together again

Let me feel the back of your hand

But then a kiss on the cheek



I’ll crawl for you so much

I’ll on my bloody knees



I want you to drag me around

Right here and all over the place



I want to be tied to you

And I’ll never want to escape

Put me in a box and keep me with you!

Survival
00:57 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 819

Ripped out heart

Told what to believe

Told who to be

And what to perceive



Don’t do it

The yelling man screamed

That knife the handle you know it

Don’t twist it



Warm piss running down the lag

Feelings of trauma to the chest

Cavity rib broke skin torn



The serpent eats the egg of the bird

The nice big red egg

Survival of the fittest

And I am not fit



Ripped out throat

Told what to say

Told when to speak it

And what not to think of



Don’t do it

The yelling man screamed

Don’t turn around to see its teeth

Don’t see the wolf



Warm tears running down the cheeks

Feelings of trauma to the throat

The Yelling man screams no more



The wolf eats the flesh of the sheep

The nice red skin

Survival of the fittest

And I am not fit



I am just a man

The villagers killed

With There Ignorance

Long live the predator

Suburbanite Urges
00:47 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 822

I needs smokes.....

I needs coffee...... and I needs road kill!

Not to eat......

To poke with a stick......

Is it alive.....

Or is it dead........

What was it.......

Was that its ass.......

Or was that its head........

You can never be very sure....

When transport truck tires have been fed!

I Feel As If These Are My Last Days
00:43 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 824

I feel as if these are my last days

As everything is slipping away

It seems the tighter I try to hold on

The quicker it all melts away



Another day spent here in the darkness

Another night spent in the light

In my chest I feel a tightness

Is this the right time

I think I might….



I feel myself turning into something

But this something is less

Then anything I ever knew



Another day spent here in the darkness

Another night spent in the light

In my chest I feel a tightness

Is this the right time

I think I might….



I want to smash myself to peaces

Because there is nothing I can do

The bricks are mortar

This life is made with

It all reminds me of you



If I burry my self some place

Who will be the one to come

To look under the right rocks

To see how much of me

That they can find



Another day spent here in the darkness

Another night spent in the light

In my chest I feel a tightness

Is this the right time

I think I might….



I feel myself turning into something

But this something is less

Then anything I ever knew



I think I belong down here

In the filth and the piss, and the shit

I think I belong here

Burred right next to you

You

You

You

You

You

You

You

I and You and Me and The Sea
00:38 Oct 16 2005
Times Read: 827

I’m sinking down into the sea

The water washes over me

As I sink below the waves

Shadows ripple over head

Just whispers of what could have been



As I sink down deeper

The water gets warmer

Sandy waves beckon me

The bottoms coming closer



As I slowly sink down

I surely will slowly drown

It’s like my face in your hair

Your smell

Your touch

Your taste

It’s not an ocean I’m drowning in

I know its you



Then suddenly I’m afraid

I’m pulling you down with me

I hold you so tight

As the water goes far above our heads

You make me not far the bottom

The sand is just the future



As we sink down into the what will be

There’s a sweet sucking sound

I’m so close to you

As everything goes dark

Arms and legs rapped around each other

We sink into the future

With you I’m not afraid