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You would think them remembering what month this was they would know better.... instead sitting there on there sofa they bring her up....



"we thought she was so perfect for you"



I was almost over her..... I had put her into that black place into the back of my mind..... only to have you drag her back out again....



Since last night I have once again become so painfully alone..... I did not even go to where I had been having my coffee tonight I just drove past.... feeling like there was no point.



If only someone would tell her what she walked away from but I doubt it would make any difference I am not good enough....



No matter who else I find myself in the company in it's like my heart is trapped with her.... no matter what I do it all seems so pointless....



I wish I had a house by the ocean so I could wander out there, and watch the waves looking off into the distance as if someone was lost at sea because that is what this feels like.... all these little deaths.... you come in you stay a while you leave again with out so much of a word.....



Being home also brings me another problem.... more people I knew a long time ago I keep running into people who remark how I still look the way I did back then.... its almost been 40 years yet I remain the same..... at some point someone is going to start to ask questions.... and I wont have any help this time.



I need to leave soon.... this place is full of ghosts I wish to not see any more.... a heart broken nothing seems to fix.... everything rots around me.... the curse has its way..... it has its way of making one so interesting to some yet no one ever stays....



I need to find a big city where I can get lost in it..... come and go as a please for a while with out any one to ask questions.... Maybe Ottawa

or Quebec city....



Staying here hurts to much.... and it's becoming entirely way to dangerous.