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Okay, so I'm going to try and get personal. Cause I'm stressing and I need this I think. It's 3 am here in alabama and I'm so worried about where my life is going to go. I have a girlfriend, or rather had, she's leaving in a few months to go back to texas, and I need to start finding another place to live. Something I can afford for me and my boys. I've thought of totally moving away from here, but I still have school, and I have a baby sitter. I am interested in one guy, that I hope continues to stay interested in me. Who knows maybe this is the one. But I need some security I don't have. I'm scared shitless and I feel as if I'm going to fail. Fail my children in keeping them secure fail myself in not doing what I want to do with my life. I have to finish school for my web design, graphic art, and digital art before I can even think of getting the job I want. And believe me I'll take it anywhere away from here. I just don't know anymore. I feel as I'm getting more lost the more time goes on and I feel I'll never truely be happy unless it's with someone that loves me as much as I do them. I guess I just love to easily I don't know but I do know that I have to do something or I'll be indebt to my parents yet again and I won't do that. I'm 27 years old with 2 kids. I don't want that. *sigh* okay, I think I'll add more later on how I'm feeling but for now that's it.



scared and alone



aurriana