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I remember how the sun made your skin glow with life and how your eyes shined with the moon,

I remember how your hugs made me feel safe and warm,

I remember how your kisses took my tears away when i was sad,

I remember how your words kept me at bay and kept me from harm,

I remember all the fun we had together when i was young and growing up,

I remember seeing you in the hospital telling me you would be home soon,

I remember seeing you in your final resting place looking so at peace,

I remember being held by my family and friends as i cried,

I remember how the day's went by so fast and how its almost a year now since you passed on,

I remember the love i had for you when you were alive, and the love i have for you now and always will, I LOVE YOU MOM

I never saw the light when i fell from heaven,

I never felt the warmth touching my skin,

I never herd the music of harps played by angels,

I never tasted blood before, until i entered the gates of hell,

I never never saw the light, only Darkness,

I never felt warmth touching my skin, only the cold,

I never herd the music of harps played my angels, only the sounds of suffering,

I never new why i turned my back on my maker,

I never knew why i wanted this,

I never saw love, only hate,

I never saw heaven, only hello,

The only thing i did see was death,

Pain runs threw my body like tiny blades

cutting into my flesh,

OK at first then stings to numbness,

My mind pounds with every thought of you,

My eyes grow dry from my tears,

My hart hurts and will never heal,

The blades will cute deeper with every

moment,

I fall in love,

I am my own person,

I will never be free,

The rose turn black as you bleed red from the sharp thorn,

Stabs your soft cold flesh,

I see you crying as i hold you close to me,

My body feels you tensing up,

So i let you go and walk away,

My tears turn to blood as your hart is

cold and i am so alone,

You can see me but I'm not here,

I speak but you don't hear me,

I feel your pain but you don't feel mine,

All of you say you care,

But i know you dint,

So i cry on the inside and smile at every one,

When you Finlay notice me,

Then for get i was there,

Lay me down by the river banks,

Tie me down and watch me sink,

Four white horses will come for me,

To take my head and set me free,

Leave my soul to rest,

Lay me down beneath a tree,

Dig my grave and let me be,

Take me to an empty field and let the earth

become my shield,

Leave my Soul to rest,

Watch my body grow old and you

need not wonder why,

Ive seen him many times,

Only glimpse in my dreams,

I need him close to me,

Oh my dark angel where are you to night?

I wish you were here kissing me with your icy lips,

While holding my virgin body tight,

Your eyes hold the secrets of forever,

your body feels like stone,

I rather die in your arms then die alone,

Oh my dark angel, oh my lover,

How you taunt me in my dreams,

The way you pull me in your arms to devour my throat,

I pray its as painful as it seems,

Show me the promise land where the dead are dead no more,

Take away my pain,

Give me the taste of blood,

Let me feel my body turn cold,

Sink your teeth into my neck,

Give my the power that only immortals have,

Drain my blood away

Let me walk with the dead,

Let me see the sunrise no more,

Give me the world of the dark,

Let me walk this land for another hundred years,

Let me feast on every ones blood,

Sink your teeth into my neck,

Give me the power that only immortals have,

Drain my blood away,

Let me walk with the dead,

We take each other hand in hand and take one step into the sand,

We walk into the water and stare into the sea,

We look into one anthers eyes and you tell me that you love me,

I hold my breath, you squeeze my hand,

This is the last pain that i will withstand,

As i feel my body begin to freeze,

I'm happy to be leaving this so called life,

I know on the other side we will be free,

I feel my insides pale,

He touches her soft pale skin that brings her face into portion,

His fingers combing her silk black hair,

His soft warm lips press against her hard cold lips,

His arms hold her tight as her lifeless body lays in his grasp,

He stares at the dagger that ended her life,

Remembering making love to her and all goes blank,

Waking up to red every where and seeing his angel

in a deep state of rest,

As he try, to make sense of it all but to scared to think,

He takes the dagger and holds his love close to him,

With death waiting in the distance,

He give his angel one last kiss good bye,

Knowing he will never see her again not even in Death,

This is the real world,

This i can see,

Its not the joyful place i wish it to be,

There is war, fights, and people screaming in the

streets,

I think to myself how can this be,

There is racism and hatred all around and every were

i look,

I think to myself how can this be,

Don't we bleed the same color?

Don't we breath the same air?

Don't we walk on the same planet?

Don't we live under the same god?

So please tell me How can this be,

We are all the same but you Deni that we are,

So fore there we will die by our ow hands,

Im a creature of the night,

Im ready to fight,

I will drink your blood in spite,

While you run and hide,

Im dancing in the night,

the change feels so good and right,

As my skin grows tight, and my blood boils deep

with my vein's,

Sexual pain rips threw my body as i go on all fours

and run out into the night,

The night Calls, i taste your fear,

Watching you walk on a path you believe to be safe,

You hear a noise,

Before you can run, my teeth are in your neck,

I can feel your body turning cold,

I lay your dieing body on the ground,

I wipe your blood from my lips as i shed a tear for you,

then i go back out into the dark where the moon is my

soul and the night calls to me,

A cloak made of Darkness, a ghost, or so it seemed,

I walk through his world,

I face in my dreams,

I dream that's i will be with you,

You will no longer walk alone,

My life feels so senseless,

My heart feels like stone,

i need you to whip away all my fears,

Give to me your kiss of death and save me from my fears,

My innocence has died, taken away by a angel with painted wings,

Screaming in the name of Christ, he raped away all i was,

Then he ascended back to heaven,

Demons now invade my soul,

My heart ablaze with hatred,

I realize i am nothing, wasted, used,

I tear away the broken flesh allowing the blood to bleed to the end,

Death now hovers near to strike,

My hell bound angel and his picture perfect Christ

Whispers lies and dreams inside my head

He turns to go, leaving me abandoned, dead,

He stole my piece of heaven,

These words slip away, these feeling's drift aside, and i cant remeber what i felt inside about me, somthing about love, somthing i lost,some hope from above, you look into my eyes and you try to numb the fear, i still try to comfort you, even thou i was never there