If I cast away the darkness would a new path show its way, for the last month depression has taken the best of me and yet I look for ways to stay hidden within the realms of my mind.
My writing has become dark and grey and blurred with every word that is written upon these pages. For once a golden path seems to have lost its luster in this forsaken world we have endeavored.
Yet is there a light that soon will break away these clouds and give me the bliss in which I have thought my life would always be.
Cold air seems to wrap around me and not let go, for this cold seems to linger on and not seem to fade away. The doctor says it's just a cold and it will pass but it has been over three weeks now. ugh just feel drained.
Drained much like society has done to me lately, fall has been an inspiring time for me, yet the greyness and dark have surrounded what light that could come is blocked away from its darkness. clouded mind seems to hold in what thoughts and words I like to express yet cannot find them on the white pages of this journal or life.
It's just the cold, that has me bound, yet I will overcome and live again in the warmth at some time, for these years has blown by so fast I think it's a new year already. Wish time would slow like when the body of the youth was in me, now an old man that has turned away from society has taken its place, because all of the hate that fills this dying world.
I give love and ask for nothing in return, I show you love thru the words dripping from the pages of fantasies I create to show my emotional orgasm in dreams. Yet I shy yet am protected from the mistrust of past virus that has plagued me. For if words can create an illusion in the mind so clear that the body’s emotional state heightens and churns than love is shown and kept. For I do love yet only express in words not in the real society for the fears of hurt and collapse would bring me to an altar state I wish not to bring back from the tears of the past.
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ThianaNight
03:35 Nov 19 2025
I've been in something similar. Thank you for sharing.