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hey supposed to have a date with 35 yr old lawyer Rick and he signed out quick so never know um got to dress hot too know what im wearking too bye mom says nonono im me adn going we will see

My depression is going up and down and I read steps on how to get through depressed adn mania episodes, like same schedule, exercise, read, stuff i try to do everyday, i dotn know mom and finances and any stress doesnt help any episodeadn sometimes brings it on. We will see. I am also hoping to fiz my teeth lost weighta nd my acne before the heat to hit the beach...G@G at libraby went and looked at a house to hsare today in Ports wit huncle tom. $500 incl all is great but can i live on $230 a month??? Others dont think so but others dont want me on my own, Uncle ray doesnt, far away stranger no food no cats etc...What to do? Big decision not much time to think throuhg, Frank whose owner of house anf lives there with his 3 yr old son parttime says think thorugh weekdn other calls will come in too...I need food stamps and a job to move thats not simple either with economy and shit going on...Prov bus toi live by with apts and family...NO CATS??? Thta is an issue but i will have to talk to mom about the whole tihng///:LATER CARMELLA



Craig and I are done hoping to enjpy myself with bryan tomorrow g2g see ambry pms pain crabby napping got bud for us so got to catch it

I have been keeping my house clean but I will be out more enjoying the fresh air and nice weather now, need to exercise outside and study lots too. Looking at rats but doesnt look like I will be geting them but they just want love. I went to petrageous today too and then library for an hour then uncles then meds now at sisters and gotten some singlesnet responses. Craig same on singlesnet and hasnt contcted me sad... I am alive and got myself my uncle my ambry and her family and my kids. SAw my cousin Jason at uncles I dont like him much but he looked better than usual if he bought some new clother brushed his hair mopre an wore his teeth (lost teeth due to seizure on highway on cement sad cuz that could happen to me) I am also looking into teeth repairs and weightloss,so I Can love myself my looks for me. fuck anyone and everyone who didnt aprove of my looks when i approve it will not matter... I need to take care of my schooling and my health first,,,LATER trying to get a house house

G2G Carmellla

So Craig is MIA and on singlesnet again... so we shouldnt be together. Charles is a pathological liar so he is not an option, Kyle is in Iraq & Joshua in NY so they are far away. so one way or another im alone... I cleaned mom's room and that took hours yesturday, the livingroom is a mess but thatll wait til tomo, at janies babysitting memphis now waiting for them to come home, bored adn alone. I was happy to see hima nd mark (Went to his dads) and gave them their easter gifts... I hve beenstretching and good with burning calories around the house adn eat lightly everyday, may have salt at dinner but choices is the food in the house to eat. Uncle came on easter and so did stacy we sat int he room with a blunt on oz uncle in the parlor with mom and sandra. nothing new, school havent done since the end of march exam 1 complete thats it. Sleep in moms big bed on floor more comfy and dont want to wake up. tired now ambry came at 7am for sugar then at 9 to wake me up. got to eat sometihng at janies later



nothing much new...Carmella