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emotinal rollarcoaster
22:22 Mar 22 2011
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there are times when our emotions get away from our control



Ive have been on this roller coaster since Friday night.

i called my grandma to talk to her and to find out that she had 3 strokes and then slipped in to a coma on Friday.

my emotions are up and down crying and then angry and yelling and deep sadness.



then ill have a mental break a moment of joy or just calmness for a bit and then again i cant get off this roller coaster

the doctors now say she will probably die this week sometime. shes on a dnr and she has cancer



in side i want to scream no you cant take her from me then in my heart i plead please let her go in her sleep



ijust want off the roller coaster and be able to be calm and happy again



dc69

Where Oh Where can He Be?
05:18 Mar 02 2011
Times Read: 480




I once had a best friend that was a Vampire and he was also a dragon..... He has passed 6 months ago.



I know he was a goth but the vampireic side did not come out till one night....



This night was very scary for me.



So please sit down and get comfortable and let me tell you of this one night.



My friend was friends with the guy I was living with and their was also a a female roommate as well...



Anyway He came over on Friday night it was the normal social night where people came over played cards or drank alcohol.



This particular night the boy friend had came home form work was already drunk and was also stoned.



the boy friend came in the living room and then said hi to the people there and went to the shower...

he then went to the refrigerator and got a beer out... about 20 mins of bull shit the card game he announced he was going to bed and told me to get in the bedroom now and go to bed.

I told him politely" I was not tired and I wanted to stay up and talk to everyone here."

He got angery and the stood up above me. I was sittng on the coutch and swong his fist and hit me full force in the eye with a closed fist, he shoutts "I told you bitvh get in bed now!"

My best friend then flew off the love seat acrossed the room and was there in a flash and grabed him by his neck pinning him aginst the wall, ( my best freind at therat time was almost 450 pounds. So him moving that quick and light on his feet was a shock to everyone in that room)



I was in the corner of the room aginst the coutch crying.

I saw the look on his face it was "Oh Shit!" ( the boy friend)

My best freind had this look of compleate rage and his face went pale white and cold black eyes...

His eyes were noramally golden brown.



the boyfirend was let go after a strong warning "if I ever see or hear of you hitting her or any woman again you will not like what will happen next. Is that clear?!!!"

then he went directly to the bed room and slamed the door.

My best freind then picked me up off the floor wraped me in his arms and sat down and got me to calm down from tears and histreics.

about 20 mins later the 5 people ther left ther was o nly the femaile room mate , and other firend spending the night and my best freind and me in the living room.

My best freind then started a conversation that was led by asking if any one belived in the supernatural.... if we bleived in demons and vampires and dragons and ghost and dejvu

... he asked for us to think about it not answwer hiom yet but really think about it... we then were talking about unexplaind things and then finally about an hour later after everyone did belive thers a real possabliity of vampires and that they do exist.

He then wnent back acrossed the room over the the love seat and picked up a little black back out of his back pack. in it was a book called the book of nod....

he read the bookand then asked if we trusted him.

the female room mate and the freind did and I was more inquistive on what he was reading so I asked more .

He told me of the old one the elders and how vampired do exist and then showed me an piece of jewerly that was an ankh that was also a blade. I knew it I saw it .It was from an order I have researched in the libarys in in many of the wiches covens and in the speical collections of books i knew it to be true.

He asked me if I belive and trust him and belive in vampires....I answered truthfully yes.

that night was the first time I took blood and he took of mine.

Two years later I have moved back to the town I grew up in. It was over two hours away from where I have just lived.

On my birthday that night my best freind came over and later in the evening again we had shared the kiss of life and exchanged blood.



6 months ago On my birthday I was to see him again and compleat the process but something terable had happend... He had passed away because of an accentaly over dose of pain pills .



Im still in sorrwo that my Sire has passed on . and Im left with so many questions and Not Knowing much about all the clans and the traints of each. I know he was Malcav............



Im still a new to this and I was learning at a slower rate but it was beause I was also learning my new life as a pagan.



So, I find myself in sarrow but also confused, the things I do know are from what was taught to me



I have learned of the veil and I have seen the other side and I like to hoepfully find a mentor that knows or has time to teach me and guide me through and I do desire to finish the change.



(preperfably a Sire in Los Angles ca since that is close to where I live now)



I have also posted that in my profile I'm single.











darkcherry69