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Im living on the outside

I dying on the inside

Trying to catch my breath

It seems such an impossible task

Driven by the fear of dying

Not living for the fear of death

Just trying to catch my breath

We talk



Not for my satisfaction but for yours.



Meaningless words and simple phrases



All for the hope that a story will begin.



All for the hope that our lives will begin.



We talk about the weather



While hiding our meaning.



Cryptic messages in the words of a friend.



Cant say what we mean



Cant say what we feel.



Its to bold to daring



We cant see thats we need



Cant see thats what the world needs



People unafraid



Say what it is



NO!



People will get offended



Who cares!



The world is offensive



Lets take the child lock of our speech and off the world



Show what it is so we can show who we are



Let the growing begin



Expand your simple mind



Get the fuck out of your world and into another



Learn! For gods sake!



Live! Christ’s sake!



Stop being held back by your so called freedom



Stop letting people tell you what is free and be FREE!



Just for you



No one else



Live for you



No one else



Learn for you



No one else



Its all for you



No one else

Almost every smile that I make



Is a smile that I fake



When will my heart awake



From death





I never really feel alive



Why cant I feel alive



I just want something to breathe for



To see for



To heal for



To reach for





Why cant I just be one or the other



Instead of one with the other





Dead through and through





Or living, clear and true





Why does my heart have to die



My soul wants to fly





My mind keeps going back



To my past



It should have been my last





My body



Keeps going through the motions



Everyday living through the motions





No





Not living through the motions





Merely passing with the motions

Im blinded by the darkness in your soul



You blur the lines between care free and careless



No human thought



Only primal instinct



Stalk



Hunt



Feed



Chasing your prey



We’re nothing but animals to you



Vermin that must be extinguished from the world





You hunt and kill



We plan and rise



Victorious in the end



Unphased by your kinds of torture



We’ve dealt with your kind before



We know what to expect





You look so different



Face to face



But that is only skin deep



Underneath your all controlled by the same demon



The same monster trying to rise





You’re the ones to weak to fight it



Letting it consume you and take your mind





I loved you once



My dear friend



But if you must die



Then Ill be the one



To release you from the demons grasp





Set you free



Set your soul free





You may be gone



But Ill keep fighting





Because Im stronger then it





Because Im stronger then you

Strong



weak



Bold



shy



Brave



terrified



The mask



the truth



Take off the mask



Let the truth breathe



Let the truth see



Cant do that



Someone will see



Wear the mask



So no one will know



Only let a select few in



But never let them see the whole truth



To dangerous



To vulnerable



Some will get hurt



Not sure who



To many lies to let shown



To many secrets to let known



Don’t like that life



Put on another



Its simple just dont get to close to me



Or youll see through my smoke screen



Nothing through there but me



Just me



Don’t see me



Just me



Please





Don’t see me

The vines wrap themselves around my mind



Consuming and confusing



all that is mine







Cant think



Cant breathe



Cant feel



Anything inside







Hello, Hello



Is there anyone inside







No, just an empty shell



The shell of someone who was once alive



Who couldnt survive







The pain of home



The pain of lies



The pain of nothing inside







Cant survive



The empty lives



The empty lies



That no one buys







And still



They stand



They watch



They look



But they try not see







The pain of a broken child



Cant stand on her own







Silent begging



With no reply



She crys







Tears mixing with rain



The storm cloud



Its all thats left behind







Standing



Trying not to fall



Counting the time out loud







Growing



Still alone



Lost alone







Aging



Seeing what others dont



Trying to keep it inside



Trying to hide







Amongst the shadow in the dark



They look again but they still dont see



The lonely eyes



The hungery eyes



Looking for a sign of hope



A sign of freedom







But no hope



No gain from the search



No tears from the pain







No one sees



The pain turning to hate



Hate turning rage







They blame her



When its all to late



For her to be saved







She breaks







Cant see



Cant hear



Cant feel







Silnce







She breathes



Heart beats







But shes gone



Dead while still alive







Nothing left inside but torment



Of the fact



Shes alive but she couldnt survive







A pointless fight



Trying to win the losing game







Cant even cry anymore



All her tears gone







So she stands alone



In silent shadows



Watching as the world goes by



Watching as the world dies







Still counting the time



Until she can finally...



Rest