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I am lost inside

Lost and alone

Full of pain

Never been loved

Though I have given love

To many who has wished it

And to those who have not

Yet I am still so lost inside

So alone and whimpering

Longing for his touch

Longing for even a drop

Of his love

Or a small space in his heart

Even though I am what I am

Worthless and weak

I am lost inside

Maybe that is best

The chasm opens beneath the heart

Showing the true power of love

In all of its dark glory

This is what happens

When you jump in blindly

When you don't step back

And look at the whole package

Before you get too involved

Trust me on this

Behold my battle scars from love

I have walked that path

Too many times in my life

So please heed my advice

Look before you leap

Else you end up crushed

In the chasm called love

With these broken wings

I try to soar high

Above the crowds

But all I can do

With these broken wings

Is crash back to the ground

Cause they won't heal

They keep breaking

More and more each day

Stuck on the ground

Trampled on by the masses

No one can see me

No one can hear me

So with these broken wings

I sit here battered and bruised

And I cry my heart out

With broken wings

As my only shelter

From the cold world

From the pain inside of me

Just me and my poor broken wings

And a world that

Doesn't care about

The likes of me and my broken wings

I give up

I surrender

I'm tired of this dance

I get the picture now

I'm meant to be alone

There is no love for me

I'm the comforter

I'm the friend for those in need

In the shadows

Is where I will be waiting

Just in case I'm needed

But I understand now

I can't be loved

Not even by myself

Behold the darkness falling

Heavily upon my fragile heart

Dragging me down

Holding me back

See how small I have become

See how scarred I am

I have become a shell

Forever locking myself away

To keep myself safe

From being destroyed again

Everything I hear

Always sounds like a lie

Even if it is the truth

How twisted I have become

How jaded I now am

All thanks to a tiny thing

Called "Love"

Welcome to the pit of despair.



You look familiar.



I think I have seen you before though it was a long time ago.



Perhaps we can speak more of this after the tour is done.



Shall we begin?



As you can plainly see, on the left is the heart.



Why is it so scarred?



Well, you see, the owner she just kept giving it away even though we both know that isn't a wise thing to do these days.



But she never learned her lesson, the silly thing.



On the right is the soul.



Why are there so many holes you ask?



Well as I said before, the owner is rather silly.



She kept giving so much that she started to let people take pieces of her soul when there wasn't anything let to give of her heart.



Then, when promises were not kept, she didn't know what to do to fill up what she had so foolishly given away.



So now there are all these holes, please do watch your step.



We don't want anymore accidents in here.



Accidents you ask?



Oh now that is a story for another time my good person.



Let us continue with the tour, shall we?



Up ahead you see what is left of the mind.



Now before you ask, with everything that has happened to the owner, she doubted herself even more than before.



The truly sad part is that she wasn't really all that bad once.



Now, look, she is just a mess.



Just between you and me, I am surprised that she is still around.



But I am afraid that is the end of the tour.



There really isn't anything else to see here.



Before you go though, how about a drink?



You look like you could use it.



What?



Haven't you seen what love can do to a person when they give it their all?



You haven't??



My, my, my, you are lucky.



Here is your drink my friend.



May you have a safe journey and do come back again.



As you well know, we are always open for business.

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Lyrithia
03:21 Nov 30 2009

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You forced your sins on me

When I had commited no crime.



You forced your ways on me

When I tried to be myself.



You broke my wings

When I tried to fly.



You broke my heart

When I tried to love you.



Nothing I did was good enough

For you was it?





And thats why I am GONE!

Touch me softly

Let me pretend that you care

Kiss me slowly

Let me pretend that your only mine

Hold me gently

Let me pretend that you think of me

I need my little world of illusions

Or else my grief

Would overwhelm me

And I would crumble into

A thousand pieces

Just as my heart

Is now

Cleaned up

Yet uncleaned



All dolled up

Yet a dirty whore



Make me pretty I ask

Make me pretty I beg



But the canvas

To be worked with



Makes such a simple task

Completely impossible



No matter how skilled

The artist may be

Pain

How I have missed you

You have always been there for me

When no one and nothing else

Would dare dream of it



Pain

My one true friend

My most faithful lover

How I welcome your

Familiar caress with open arms



Pain

How I love and hate you

How I long and fear you

I wish you here and wish you gone

Why must you be in my life

Why can't I escape you

Why do I need you so

Watch me bleed

Watch me cry

Watch me break

Watch me die

Lost and alone

Sad and tired

Broken and small

Ignored and worthless

Why do this to me

Did I do something wrong

Am I that bad of a person

Do I deserve this pain

Tell me and I will do

Whatever you want of me

With no regrets

Just tell me what you want

And it will be done

Have you ever seen a heart

turn blue from saddness?



Have you ever felt a heart

break without making a sound?



If you saw me now,

you would see the results of it.



My eyes tell my tale

better than my words ever shall.



Believe me as I tell you

that this pain I feel right now,

I wouldn't wish on my worst

Enemy let alone a friend.



So please look away so that I

may finally cry and drown in my tears.

Ignored for someone else

Something I have become

So very used to in my life

Thought the loneliness hurts

It is a pain I am used to

Just as well

No matter my desires

For some sweet attention

I am pushed to the side

By a lady considered more special

Yet I never say a word

And I never will

For I have no right it seems

To voice such things

When she needs his touch

And his attention

And is considered much more worthy

Of such things

That I shall ever hope and pray

To ever be

So here I will sit

Ever so quietly

Ever so understanding

As my heart breaks

Ever so slightly

Ever time I am pushed away

But what can I do

When I know it is pointless

To ever think that

Someone like me

Will ever matter

To someone like YOU

What do you do

When your dreams

Turn against you

Every time you close your eyes

And your heart betrays you

With its every beat

Reminding you of its control

Over your mind and soul

Allowing you to fall in love

To give your heart away

Even if they don't want it

Allowing you to wait in the shadows

For the day where you

Will be loved in return

Even if that day may never come

But I will wait here in the shadows

Now and forever

What else can I do