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Well of course I spend the weekend with my friends having a good time and my (ex)girlfriend has to go and ruin it. I mean seriously; 4 days after our fucking 1 year anniversary. FOUR DAYS!!! I decide to go over to see her for 10 minutes and then it's a big fuck you. It was kinda weird, I didn't really feel much, I wasn't really heartbroken or anything. I suppose I'm either used to it or it just hasn't sunk in yet. Maybe I expected it sooner or later. I don't know what to think, I've got far too much on my mind right now. Ha, of course, I doubt that will ever change.

Well, today sucked. My car has issues, My boss is 'disappointed' in me, and my roommate is pissed at me. What makes it worse is that it's my 1yr anniversary for my gf and I and we didn't even get to see each other this week (let alone this month). My life is total bullsh*t.

I know why I don't care about work, I know why I'm 'lazy', I know why I hate my life. Its all because my life alone means nothing where I'm at now. I don't truly affect anything around me.

I want to do something meaningful, but I don't see a 'job' as the answer. I don't know what to do yet and that's whats holding me back.

Well, today could have gone better, the first damn thing I did when I woke was to go upstairs and clean some stupid dishes, of course with my luck breaking one in the process. Then it went onto going back downstairs just to fucking do more work like run the vacuum and do my fucking laundry. Thank god everyone was out of the house so It'd at least be somewhat quiet. Of course it didn't even matter cause all I did was smoke and turn on my 360 to burn a few hours. I don't know, It's just frustrating to go through the day just to realize it's like any other. Ha, it's just another day...