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yeah i finally got around to writing it....



Well yeah im to lazy still...so



We arrived in phoenix. and sat around...we got bored waiting. and you couldn't go wait in line until 10. it was about 8:56. so we went to the desert sky mall. fooled around a bit. then went back, parked in front of some apartments. and then went and got in line JUST IN TIME.



after we got in line a crowd came and the line got HUUUUUGE.



there were some guys in front of us. they yelled out WHO LIKES BEER and the line yelled. and my friend was like(hehe) WHO LIKES PROSITUTS and no one yelled. and then he was like...umm YEAAAAAAH! and everyone laughed.





when we got in. we went to the lawn. my friends didn't believe me there was a second stage....until 3 FUCKING HOURS OF SITTING AROUND! and then a guy was like Yeah there is a second stage. and then i took them over to the second stage..(idiots)



while going over there we stoped at the hustler Rv watched the girls shake. and throw things to the crowd.



then went over and two of my friends got in the little mosh pit. Charlie's earring for torn out. hmm. then we BLAH i will add more later

i was dreaming. for the first time in a long time. usually i do not.



well i was dreaming...about him. my best friend...and it was weird.....and i loved it. it makde me happy. for the first time in a long time...



in my dream. we were at this weird place. its hard to describe. because even in my dream it was changing. and well i guess he was drunk like totally plastered. and he was going to get in a fight. andhis girlfriend ran to me for help. screaming that he was going to get in another fight, so i ran over there, took ahold of him right as he was about to fall. and talked to the big guy. and asked him to not do it right now. and walked away. i took him to a bedroom thing. that i was in before. that was open. and had lots of people. and i put him in the bed i was in. and slept.(it was weird sleeping in a dream) and he hugged me. and kissed me. and said he loved me.....



THEN MY LITTLE SISTER HAD TO WAKE ME UP. asking me if i wanted to go to vickys(my moms friend where my sister and mom went to eat and swim at her house so im here alone)



which made me depressed. because i was away from him. even if it was a dream.....so i grabbed my book, and clutched it.....(ive cut back to sleeping with one. so my family doesn't think im crazy) and i went back to sleep. depressed....so depressed.

I miss him so much. its tearing me apart from the inside....



i miss my best friend...i want him back. i want him to be here for me. i wish we never got in the fight. i need him...



His name is Tony....he is 19 years old.

He was my best friend.i need him...



we were pretty close.

and then he moved to Chandler. which is like maybe 4 hours away.



we talked on the phone every day... to the point, i expected it. we would talk on the phone for hours. and send messages back and forth on myspace while we did it.we talked so much......

one day. he came down. and he was staying over at our house. and we were watching a movie. under the blankets, two blankets, and he was like im still cold. so i climbed under his blanket with him, and put mine over both of us. and i pulled his hair. and then he pulled mine. we stared into each others eyes. and i pulled his again. we both were extremely turned on. and then. he kissed me hard. i returned it. we made out. and he climbed on top of me. we kissed. and rubbed against each other, i moved sorta on top, i started to bite his neck, i bit all along his body. then went back to my room teasingly. i went back to my room to come back out a total of like 4 times. well he ended up. penetrating me. and then i stopped him.we ended up teasing more, scratching. rubbing. sucking. and sleeping. him on my breast. i ended up letting him sleep. as i went into my own bed. leaving him on the couch.



after that night he would come down, and climb into bed with me holding me. while i slept. he would kiss me.he made me happy.

and yes for a while i did love him, he took me to the movies....and told me he loved me. i wanted to return it. i wanted to say i love you. but i didn't i didn't want to ruin the friendship.



then the day after that...i played with myself ontop of him. he helped me...i didn't let him enter me. i just turned him on really bad..... and then i told him....that i didn't think that we should be more that friends.....



thats whent he kisses ended..........thats when...it was once in a while hug...once in a while coming down to see me....





then he got into the drugs......not pot or things like that....but heavier drugs.......i think it was heroin and meth.....

his calls lessened.... i didn't hear from him for weeks......ocasional calls. that ended within minutes......he replaced me with drugs....



i cried...i cried a lot... he never knew....he never knew i knew.....he confessed to me...told me he was addicted to drugs...he got off them....



it took a lot...to even get to just a fraction of what we were.....he seemed to not care.....



and the recently.........he sent a message on myspace. saying hi whats up. and at the same time his new......girlfriend wrote me...hey did tony tell you we are going out...i lost it.....

i wrote him said i never wanted to talk to him again

he was confused..he said why what i do.

and i told him that i didn't want to talk to him. ever.....and he said fine...and then i said you only care about drugs and girls. that he didn't even tell me that they were going out. she is younger than mE!! by like a YEAR!



he replaced me with a girl.....first drugs...then a girl....she was even first on his myspace....he always had me first, before all his girlfriends in the past.....



our friendship was over. i apoligized...he never accepted it he said he was angry...... he ended up saying "I talked to my baby she said i should forgive you so i forgive you"

i mean could it get worse. he had to have someone tell him to forgive me.



i found out. that he told my mom. when she found about about the"Sex"(the day after) that he was going to wait for me.....this is not waiting......this is far from it..he said he loved me. and was going to wait......he didn't....



i do not know anymore....

i have become pathetic..i cry myself to sleep. i cry during the day.....



i even,......took the books he gave me for an x-mas gift. and slept with them. he gave me 9 of the Anne Rice Vampire Chronicles....i held them....sorta like spooning them......them laid out on my bed....crying..soaking Interview With A Vampire in my tears....probably taste salty if you licked it......but because it is smooth, it just slid down it.



oldish picture.....

you are a worthless piece of shit. you fall in love with people who will never love you. you stupid piece of shit. no one likes you. everyone hates you. or do not like you for your personality...they think your "hot" which you are not. you are a fake. take away your make-up and you have nothing. take away you light and you are hideous. take away the fixing of pictures and you are a monster.



you will amount to nothing. so why even try. no one loves you, and when they do they just love you, they are not inlove with you. so why do you even try. stop putting up a fight. you know you want to die. so why do you keep fighting. you are ugly, you have an attitude, you take mental beatings from everyone letting them put you down to the point you believe them. so why!!! answer that you stupid nasty freak.



you are too weird, you take things toooooooo far, to the point it is not funny anymore. people want you for nothing more than sex.



you are dirty, nasty, and disgusting. your habbits are nasty. you do things that only a mutt would do. you are sick in the mind. and think death is funny, and exciting. you find joy in watching people suffer, only a sick fuck would do that. whats the point of you? you are nothing. nothing more than a pimple on a elephants ass.



why do you try? why. there is no point in it. you are disgusting. you have no true reason to live. love is the only reason you think life is for. to love and be happy. its not about money, its not about getting that kickass job, and living in a nice house.....but its about love. and being happy, and finding yourself....but mostly love. because if you LOVE not lust, you are happy,w hich makes you find yourself, without hardship...and you are loveless, you cannot be loved. you are fat and ugly. no one could love you. so give up already!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha this conversation is soo weird..that was funny!!



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to rose= cassie







Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho= "molly" (long story how HE got that nickname)







Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:38 AM):



And I'm not gay!



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:38 AM):



I can't be gay



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:38 AM):



yes you are



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:38 AM):



YOU'RE GAY!!!



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:38 AM):



'*



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:38 AM):



Right



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:39 AM):



I'm about as much gay as you are preppy



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:39 AM):



like omg like that is like totoally a lot



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:39 AM):



...



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:39 AM):



Fuck



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:39 AM):



hehe like totally



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:39 AM):



Balls, teeheehee



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:40 AM):



eww you are like soo nasty!



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:40 AM):



Whatever, just 'cause I like hard cocks in my soft asshole doesn't mean I'm nasty!



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:40 AM):



lol



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:40 AM):



Molly!! you are like soo nasty, like you need to like totaly be like good, LETS GO SHOPPING!



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:41 AM):



you can soo afford to get your nals done



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:41 AM):



NAILS*



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:41 AM):



No way, I need lipsuction, I'm soo fat



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:41 AM):



oh yes you are girl!



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:41 AM):



I can't believe you just said that, you're supposed to be my friend!



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:41 AM):



lol



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:42 AM):



im sorry, but i swear it jsut keeps building up, lay off the sweats you know they go straight to your ass



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:42 AM):



SWEETS*



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:42 AM):



All I eat is water



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:42 AM):



well water is MUST be fating



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:42 AM):



because you look like my mother



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:43 AM):



You know who looks like your mother? YOU!



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:43 AM):



Now go into the fucking kitchen, and don't fucking come out unless you have a fucing chicken fucking pot fucking pie!



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:43 AM):



lol



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:43 AM):



Heehee



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:43 AM):



well that was intresting



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:43 AM):



I concur



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:43 AM):



..lets never do that again



Alexi "Wildchild" Laiho says (2:43 AM):



Amen



Despite the lies that you're making,Your love is mine for the taking,My love is Just waiting,To turn your tears to roses says (2:43 AM):



lol