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Rain Poem, written to 'Angelus'
00:30 Jul 13 2007
Times Read: 642

Staring out the window, i must run.

run outside as fast as i can.

the heavens are crying, it seems just for me.

as i stand out in the middle of the street.



drip, drop, whooshing down.

twirling and dancing as my toes get wet.

each drop, a sensation. each drop gets more orgasmic.

sending jolts to my crotch.



Thunder Lightening All around me.

hearing the skys scream out to me.

filled with power;filled with strength.

All that bugs me disappears;with one single drop.



Strength to over come all the pain.

strength to think nothing of my ex friend.

Strength all brought to me, by one simple storm.

strength that i will crave.



Nothing matters, standing in the rain.

your mind goes blank as it hits your skin.

feeling the rain run down your face.

you smile as your life is complete.

Slice My Skin
06:40 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 656




slice my skin. make it bleed.



make it go away.



slice me there, slice me here.



watch the blood, as simple as a tear.







end this pain, pull the trigger.



make it end, with a flick of the finger.



end it all. and end it fast.



take away this pain forever.







kill me now, kill me forever.



never let me breathe again.



take this pain as your own.



keep me safe from this nuisance







wash your hands clear of my blood.



let me die than cry forever.



you left me broke, what should i do.



i cry with every thought i think of you.







let me move on, let me be free.



something i shall never do.



lost in thoughts, and memories.



to die is to excape, to excape i must die.

Love E/>
06:38 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 658

Why does it hurt to breathe your name?

why can't i get over the thought of you.

you were my world..and now i am nothing, rotting away from this world.

as if i was never there....

you do not care about what happens to me.

you do not care if i die...

i go threw this pain over you.

i try and move on, and i succeed.

......but the pain remains....the pain you caused me...it will never fade.

found love, from someone else.

i loved him...i love him.

the cause.

he hurts me with the constant need for others.

the constant need for someone not me.

the effect.

those cuts left on my heart from you.

reopening.

thoughts of heartbreak and lies, lonleyness, and wish for death....

return...

the need for love, the need for someone who wants me and no one else.

grows within me each day.

wanting more.

it eats away what is left, and craves more.

kills me until i am nothing...worthless...death has become me...

and will be the end of me, s of every other living thing...

sooner than most, mine may come in a worse way than most.

just walk away. walk the fuck away!

leave me behind..

i am nothing.do not worry. you soon will forget.

this pain you cause is nothing

i can deal....

for now....

Hate You =D
06:37 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 659

i hate you so much



i wish you would die



i hate you so much.



if you could see me cry



maybe you would change your mind



you would not hurt me



you would be kind



just only if you could see



i am not who i want to be



i want to be someone else



that i want to be free



i want to be free from you



free from the pain you cause me



i am locked away and i don't have the key.

Lie
06:36 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 660

ultra short poem.





you think you can tear my heart apart and learn how to sew.







i am falling apart all because of you.







i look smart but i am not. i beleived you love me, when that was a lie







i wished for it to be true, even though i knew it would never happen, it was a lie that i beleived.

The Girl
06:35 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 661




i have always been cheerful when i was not







i was the girl who watched and was never loved







the girl who could make others smile but not herself







the girl who watched romantic love movies by herself, so she could cry without anyone knowing she desired love







the girl who crys herself to sleep,the only time she can cry,because she is susposed to be the tough one, the one who doesn't cry.







the girl who feels unwanted



the girl who is lost and doesn't know what to do







the girl who wants more than anything to be found and never ffeel alone again







the girl who gave up on love knowing it wouldn't come...

My Mind
06:34 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 662

this is one of my frist poems....





My mind is a very complicated maze,



and i am lost inside my thoughts.



and i cannot find my way out



people ask me what i think



and i cannot speak



my mind is a complicated place.



that i am scared to face.

random thoughts that would be good myspace icons.
06:33 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 663

sometimes little things pop into my head, and i write them down so i wont forget, and sometimes i can combine them but i do not know.

these are in no particular order..





You use me you hurt me and worst of all you made me believe







you didn't care you wont care, you never will care, you broke me.







you won my heart, you used my heart, you threw it away.







i gave you everything, you gave me nothing, my world came crumbling down.







you took, and took until i had nothing left, and then moved on.







you lied, you cheated you killed what was left of my heart







i loved you, you said you loved me, you really loved her.







i cried you listened, i begged you got a new girlfriend.







You have a new girlfriend, and i am left in the dust, still loving something i do not have and never will.







i have nothing, you have her, you stole my heart too.







your a nice boy, i am a piece of trash, flip it around and you have us.







i lay in bed crying, while you lay in her bed smiling.







i want what she has, you have what you want and she has you...







i hurt myself, you hurt me. whos next?







you were my everything. i was your nothing, you led me along.







i was broke about to break, you finished the job.

Bleach
06:32 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 664

her life is puzzled down to a single cup

a cup that holds life and death

a cup that will decided her fate



should she live or should she die

it is all held within the cup

why should this be her decision, why should it not?



people die everyday, what diffrence will it make

who should care if she died,who shouldn't care

it is all just a mystery. death that is



you never know what you are going to get

you will be missed people will care if you die

but answer me this, who cares if you live?





A cup full of bleach, sits on the desk

a single cup full of bleach could end it all

is it worth it, is it worth the pain to be gone?



the cup touches lips, the liquid falls

the cup is empty with one simple gulp.

do not let it come back up, make it stay down.



lights start to fade, into darkness she went

she passed out, as the bleach eats away

hours have past and she is dead,no more pain no more life

Best Poem i think i have ever written!
06:31 Jul 08 2007
Times Read: 665

i feel so abandoned

and i don't really know what to do

every person i ever loved

they didn't love me enough to pull through



so i am left here in the dark

alone,cold and afraid

not knowing what to do next

wishing the last one would've stayed



what is love but a pittyful thing

it brings the strongest to their knees

breaks hearts and causes death

until all you hear is pathetic pleas



everything you once believed

has shattered now;turned to dust

everything that you loved

means nothing now, you cannot trust



your life is hettick

there is nothing left for you

so take your life, pull the trigger!

show everybody whos who!



dont you dare ask for more,

we all know you've had enough

so remove that spoon from your mouth

no need to show that you are tough



put that razor blade to your wrist

show everyone who is boss

no need to cry

your no big loss



kill yourself

thats what he would want

don't fight with your mind, you have nothing else

if you don't it will always haunt!



WHAT, second thoughts?

Why would you think twice

it is not that hard, stop second guessing

All it is, is one simple slice



One simple slice runs threw your mind,

will it hurt, will you cry?

what does it matter, you will end your life

just do it already you don't need to say good-bye



get on with it don't think, just do!

there is not much time to waste!!

once you think you cannot do it!

so you really must make haste!



who would care if you died today?

No one that's who, so do it!

No one cares, you are useless

Cut your wirst, it it time for you to quit!



You feel weak under the pressure

As you hold that razor blade

Slit your writs, watch the blood run down

As your life seems to fade



You are no longer living

You are dead now

No need to breathe

No one wonders why you did it or how….



You disappear from this world

One day you are gone

Everyone moves on with their life

While your time has drawn

You
19:52 Jul 07 2007
Times Read: 672

why do i sit in pain.

watching you be happy.

why do i do it to myself.

i lay down.

eyes full of tears.crying wishing death upon myself.

wanting it to end.

as you sit tehre. happy,

as if nothing happened.

tears run down my face.

as i think of you.

in search of a razor blade.

no where to be found.

wanting the blood to run.

from no cut to be seen.

afraid of what i will do.

wonder what people will think.

why do i feel so alone..

when surrounded by people...