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Some days it just not worth it to give a shit. No matter how much you would like to it wont be reciprocated so why bother. In the end it all fades away eventually.........

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shellsbells
16:34 Nov 20 2013

I couldn't of said it better

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Am a little bit annoyed at how tradesmen can have an attitude when getting paid for doing a job and think that turning up 24hrs later is not there problem.



No you are correct it is not your problem as yet but it will be if you get those tiles placed up in my bathroom shower today buddy.



My politeness is limited today and fuse is short.

I just know I am going to regret eating the Grapes and Satsuma late at night. But it was a healthy snack.

My youngest son is going through another moment with Judge Judy. I honestly had thought he been and past it. He went on to like Ellen De Generes but now he has gone back to watching Judge Judy. The wonders of what goes through my Autistic child's mind at times. It is the only time he sits and watches. He will have the tv on for sure but other programs he is not sat from start to end. So I do wonder as to what it is about those two women?

Am a little somewhat irked today. In a previous entry I wrote about the homeless iPod man. By the way he has upgraded and also has a phone as well.

So I am doing my shopping of stocking up for the weakened and preparing for winter. (kids are off this Friday) So have paid and am leaving the store to get a taxi up the road to my home when I spot the homeless man sat outside again. Last week he had been arrested for being aggressive towards some of the public so I was a little cautious as I know for a fact he is not homeless as does most who see him coming out of a drug dealers house high as a kite.

Anyhow im walking to where the taxi's are and he asks me if I would like a hand. I ignored him avoiding a confrontation as much as possible. After all he is only after money which he could gain from my trolley as you have to pay for it. Im not giving my pound coin to him. If he was to help 50 people in one morning he could get £50 pounds which would be wasted on drugs.

So I carry on walking to the taxi and I load up the boot and the driver says he will meet me at the entrance. Which is fine however it meant I had to walk back past this "homeless" man again. So I turned around and next thing he is stood there giving me verbal gob cause I wont give him my money. I ignored him and carried on walking didn't say a single word. As I put the trolley away and went to get into the taxi he carried on verbally abusing me. To add to it all he chose to flip his middle finger at me.

I do believe my brain is plotting now and is seeking revenge. Think I shall go back to the store tomorrow armed with a camera. You know it is illegal to sign on in the UK Claiming that you are not receiving money for work. Now granted the store might not have employed him. However he is still receiving money. I am sure the doll office would be interested to see this.....................

No thank you sir I will not partake in that smile you wish to gain my attention hoping I will open up and offer a conversation. You chose to cut me off just over 8 years ago.

You might very well have given me life along with my mother that does not mean to say you have the right to cast me aside along with older sisters and stomp your foot that I would not back down. I do just fine as I am with my kids your grandchildren innocent factors in all of this and I don't need your presence hovering over myself or my main priority. You chose not to back down. It was your self destruct and single minded stubbornness that was the direct affect of your marriage to fail not my willing to back down and apologise for your bad temper. No sir when I see you in the shops I will treat you with the same manor as I do with any other stranger and look right through you as you did for the 6 years of ignoring me in the same town. You may well have been the one to have placed clothes on my back and food in my belly but you sat for hours and belittled my siblings and verbally treated us harshly. I will walk on by and live my life just fine thank you.

Bloody fireworks are going off again. There really is no need for it at all. Not till the New Year at least that is.

Am becoming annoyed by the neighbours daughter not listening to advice constantly given to her.

When I found out she was pregnant 6 months ago I spoke to her calmly and explained that with my youngest having Autism and his meltdowns that come with violent outbursts it would be best if she did not come into my home. I don't want it my conscience if my son lashes out and causes her to miscarry at any stage of pregnancy.

It sure as hell irritates the fuck out of me that she smokes and her eating dietary is not healthy for her unborn. But I know that it is not my place to voice that opinion to her. Even though she sits complaining about stages of the pregnancy. I keep my mouth shut and ignore it. But today I was close so close to telling her no one cares about her complaining. That she chose to become pregnant and she needed to move on and get on with it. Don't get me wrong I had one hell of time with my youngest pregnancy but you know what I worked up till I was 7 months pregnant and moved from England to Scotland with my eldest and I survived. She travelled from one town to here and cause her parents were not in she thought she would ask me if I had a spare key to her parents home. She already knows I have not. Then she used the dog as an excuse as it was going mental being left alone in the house. Um no she is not as I have been sat at here for an all or so and I know when the dog is upset cause she howls and barks her head off. But not a sound at all. Next thing this daughter is getting her shopping load out of a bag whilst bitching about her mother leaving the dog alone to show me what she has bought for her unborn baby. Has the nerve to ask me for a smoke to which im not encouraging. Seriously with my youngest in the house as well she knows she should not be here. But it gets better she knew that her parents were out and had an appointment at some place and time. No way would her parents be back at the time she turned up. I just switched off after that little slip up. Fortunately my son is calm today so that is a good thing and she has gone.

Bad start to the day. Aside from the usual of my knee being dodgy my youngest decided to have a meltdown. So he is taking the day off from school. Got company I guess for the day. Unfortunately it hasn't gotten any better for myself as the washing machine after a few days of coughing and spluttering has decided to no longer fast spin and is keeping my half washed clothes inside on a lock. So I phoned the estate agents to ask the landlord to get a person out and get it fixed. I am now relying on the good graces of my neighbours washing my clothes and sons bedding as that will be needed for tonight. The frustrating part is I have I have a spare washing machine from my previous resident. However landlord insurance policy and such has claws in it for whatever purpose I don't know so I cant take it out of storage and get it plumbed in. I wouldn't mind so much but its Scotland so I cant hand wash and let drip dry outside as its raining. ~sighs~ my tumble dryer packed up the ghost in springtime this year and so we got that fixed ready for winter with it sitting there throughout the summertime. Never mind fate once again having a seasonal laugh at me.

So the last few days have been a mish mash of ups and downs.



Went to the doctors on Friday as I had woken up with an ear ache real bad to the point I knew I had yet another ear infection. The curses of my childhood are coming back with vengeance. The doctor confirmed my suspicion and has given me antibiotics to tackle it before it becomes worse. Just as I was leaving she asked me why I was limping well it is cold im due for an operation and so what do you expect. I explained and the next she is writing out some more medication. Real nice of her but I know the side affects to the one she wrote out and it requires a lot of drinking. No fun for me plus I cant take anything for two hours after for heartburn. So yep take my limp away but now I have that sickly feeling and burning sensation after I have eaten. Of course this meds does have to be taken with food. Oh the irony of it all.



Anyhow Halloween was fun and I took pretty pictures of course will upload them when I get a second. My youngest handled it real well all things considered but to be honest it was a bit of a wash out given the spouts of rain and heavy down pours at that.



The neighbours are stuck with me again this year as they failed to qualify for a move. Just as well we do get along and I would actually miss them. For the first time since living in Scotland I can honestly say that about my neighbours. But they do have their quirks of annoyance as I am sure they view me in the same light.



So once again the request of a chocolate Tequila cake has been made and of course I shall be happy to make it.