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grrrrr

15:23 Jul 27 2006
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RANT ON***

AHHH! I am soooo completely sick of my bad luck with peircings, its driving me INSAAAAANE.



I just took out my eyebrow piercing. I am going to let it heal up. WHY?? I dunno exactly.



But all I do know is the fact that this makes THE 5 TH fucking piercing that I've had to take out for some odd reason or another.



I've lost 2 sets of snakebite piercings already. Due to my retartedness to actually fit in and get a normal job....yeah my stupidity..NEVER again will I take out piercings for a job..I want a job..but I don't NEED a job. If they dont like it, they can kiss my happy lil ass and I'll move on.



Anyhoo....yeah obviously me and piercings do not get along. and this seriously pisses me off to no end. I keep wasting money on the stupid shit.



Well, I assume I'll be sticking pretty much to tattoos from now.



Which Im not complaining to much, I'd take a tat over a piercing ANYDAY.



bahhh this sux donkeyballz!!!!



*RANT OFF (for now)



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Random Jibberish

14:51 Jul 26 2006
Times Read: 704


Well, unfortunately, at the moment, nothing better describes me other than lyrics, so this will have to work.













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Korn Lyrics



Alone I Break Lyrics







Pick me up

been bleeding too long

Right here, right now

I'll stop it some how



I will make it go away

can't be here no more

Seems this is the only way

I will soon be gone

these feelings will be gone

these feelings will be gone



Now I see the times they change

leaving doesn't seems so strange

I am hoping I can find

where to leave my hurt behind

All this shit I seem to take

all alone I seem to break

I have lived the best I can

Does this make me not a man?



Shut me off

I am ready,

Heart stops

I stand alone

Can't be on my own



I will make it go away

can't be here no more

Seems this is the only way

I will soon be gone

these feelings will be gone

these feelings will be gone



Now I see the times they change

leaving doesn't seems so strange

I am hoping I can find

where to leave my hurt behind

All this shit I seem to take

all alone I seem to break

I have lived the best I can

Does this make me not a man?



Am I going to leave this place?

What is it I'm running from?

is there nothing more to come?

(am I Gunna leave this place?)

Is it always black in space?

Am I going to take it's place?

Am I going to leave this race?

(Am I going to leave this race?)

I guess god's up in this place?

what is it that I've become?

is there something more to come?



Now I see the times they change

leaving doesn't seems so strange

I am hoping I can find

where to leave my hurt behind

All this shit I seem to take

all alone I seem to break

I have lived the best I can

Does this make me not a man?



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Rant

14:49 Jul 26 2006
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Again, another 3 A.M. Rant.



Yay me. I have finally decided what I am going to do with my life. Its about damn time...shit it took me damn near 24 years to figure out what I want.





It's July 24.



Very soon, I will be applying for college. Some fucktard class dealing with some kind of computer technology shit and web design, and blah blah .... all of that lovely crap.



So yeah, I at least figured out something to do.



Classes start in September, so by then hopefully I will be all signed up and ready to go.



This way I can spend alot more of my time actually doing something useful, and spend less time worrying about everyone else.

Finally I can do something for MYSELF. Its about damn time I start getting a little selfish. I think I deserve it, after always doing doing doing for everyone else, and never getting shit back in return. heh thats a whole nother rant.



Anyhoo, Other than this college shit I'll get started soon.......

I have yet another plan for myself.



In december, when Loki and I go back to Louisiana, if things go well, and my old man// Biker buddy// Ironworker.. Sparks can hook Loki up with a job,



I will be purchasing a house. Hopefully one with a little land to it. Oh yeah...and a German Shepard puppy. heheh :)

So yeah ... I'll be buying a house...so this way later on in my future I can really FUCK MYSELF OVER royally.... in the case that Loki and I ever split up, I'll have a shitload of bills to pay by myself and all that good shit.

But anyway, I really don't care.



My life is BOUND to fall apart at the seems, And no matter how good it may seem to get, It will always fall down the drain somehow.



But if we decided to stay in La. I will be doing this.

I may even be extra fun and get us a set of bikes.

He wants a crotch rocket, and I want a Honda Shadow. So, either way,

We'll proberbly get something good.





I've already invested in a man (time and emotions). Now I'll invest in a house, a dog, and whatever else I can waste money on.





I can see my future now........ MY DOG DIES......MY MAN LEAVES......MY HOUSE GETS SOLD.......IM HOMELESS PIDGEON LADY!--LMFAO



yeah. woohooo yay me!





*Rant OFF*


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Hannibal Lector Aint Got S**T On Me......

06:37 Jul 19 2006
Times Read: 727




The Middle






Recently Iceheart1313, had asked someone to send me a message asking me to take her (Iceheart) off of my blocked list because (Iceheart) wanted to apologize to me for past bullshit and drama that went on between herself, me, and Loki.

Basically she attacked me by sending very sweet (hence the sarcasm) messages, after Loki and I decided to start and relationship together, which left her out of the picture...



This is the messages that were sent between Ice and I. Here's what I unblocked her for:









On 06:42:21 Jul 11 2006 Ice wrote:



i just wanna tell ya that i changed my comment in your profile and i do hope you and i can talk again as friends cause honestly you are a good person and i mean it a lot you have helped me in the past and i would like to say sorry for the past as well it was wrong of me to even say anything mean to ya all you did was try to help me i do hope you can forgive me and i saw that your here in cali i do hope you like it out here as well but i hope all is good between you and loki and if its ok can ya tell him i said hello hope we can talk again if thats kool with ya



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On 06:59:35 Jul 11 2006 MaidenUnderworld wrote:



why the sudden change in attitude?



yeah actually, everything is good between us. we'll proberbly be moving soon if all is worked out.



I tried telling you from that start that I didnt lie to you. If you are ready to hear what happened I'll tell you..



when he came to visit in December, yeah we spent the nights with each other and cuddled..and in fact he left there with blueballs cause I refused to do anything with him.

we didnt even hook up untill March which was after I left the guy I was with. and thats when he decided he wanted to try a relationship. He said you two didnt have the same things in common, it would have never worked out. And as I really do hate to say it, he said it was just a fuckbuddy thing between you 2. anytime he wanted a quick piece of ass, all he had to do was call you. He said you were supposed to be his sub, but whined about the floggers, and he barely got to practice with you (maybe 1 session not even a full one) because you couldnt handle the pain.



This is not me starting shit, this is me simply trying to explain to you (like before you decided to call me a liar), exactly what went on.



This wasnt my fault, this relationship was his decision..I do hope you realize that. I personally did not deserve to be called a liar, and thats what pissed me off.



Origionally yes I was supposed to only visit here maybe a week or two, but from the first night I got here, he doesn't want me to leave at all. So judging by our conversations, we'll be making a life together, it's what he wants.



And thats about it. I tried to tell you this, but you refused to listen. I'm hoping you can now. Cause I really hate drama shit.



Other than that, your sudden change about this baffles me. I cant help but to think that this is a scam.



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On 07:14:06 Jul 11 2006 Ice wrote:



i do thank you for the truth but i am truely sorry for what i did your right you didnt do anything wrong and i am happy that you 2 are happy together im glad that you 2 got each other cause i had a feeling that he liked you from the past but i do understand



are you guys staying out here or going back home plus is your son with ya out here as well cause your son is a cute little boy



and for loki its kool what he says i guess the flogging well i was told by other dom that he could hurt me cause he didnt know how to flog but when he came over to do it the second time well he just wanted to play on the computer so we didnt even practice but i dont really care anymore about that im actually with a master dom now who is in the top 5 in the world for the whips and when we practice or play whatever they wanna call it we do that for about 1-2 hours but we are not doing it now cause the doctor told me to take time off from it cause of my other situation right now so im like on bedrest from everything right now



plus my master and i just got back in town like last week we went on a vacation trip for awhile



but honestly i do hope we are able to talk and maybe be friends again its kool if ya dont want to cause i know what i said was wrong and my master made me realize that you didnt doing abything to hurt me one bit and your right it just happens and its not your fault i do hope you forgive me



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On 07:28:29 Jul 11 2006 MaidenUnderworld wrote:



we havent decided yet weather were gonna stay here or not. if we move back home we're going to get a house so we can have our kids with us, get the family thing going, and settle down. at least this is his plans for now.

If we stay here we'll get an apartment and do whatever then.

My son is in Louisiana. Thanks for saying he's cute.



I get that your sorry, but what I want to know is why did you lie about being pregnant and why did you lie about loki knowing?



I'll have him send you a message or whatever if he wants to. Thats up to him.

But from what I heard, and everything he said about you, he has no interrest in talking to you at all. (Just what I heard from him) again..this is NOT me starting anything.



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On 07:44:25 Jul 11 2006 Ice wrote:



its kool if he doesnt want to its his choice no worries there at all about that happening and i didnt lie i am pregant thats why im on bed rest right now we never really talked about it cause we stoped talking

I was absolutely right, he just wants you completely out of his life. And I am willing to do whatever it takes to give him what he wants. Unfortunately, I made him sit down, unblock you, and message you to clear things up. Now take it like it is, then leave us alone. Neither one of us wants anything to do with you, or anyone like you.

but im sorry hun but i gotta go now i need to go home i just stopped by my sister house to say hi to her cause i moved out awhile back ago i and i still have a lot to unpack still i can only do so much now these days and it sucks i just bought a 2 million dollar home and another brand new truck and car plus i have to get up early and take my sister to the airport to go pick up her friend since he is coming back into town also my boyfriend will be coming home for lunch soon since he got a graveyard shift tonight on the docks and he is my dads partner so they are both coming over for dinner/lunch

We find it odd how someone on bedrest can do all this shit, like unpacking, and driving around here and there and to and from airports, and cook dinners, and yadda yadda yadda...pffft what the fuck ever bitch..you obviously forgot I was pregnant too... and to be on bedrest at only 5 months pregnant is a VERY UNBELIEVEABLE THING, HAHAHA Docs dont put a person on bedrest untill damn near the due date. pfffft FUCKING LIAR.

so i do hope we can talk again and soon take care i might be back on when i get to my house just gotta do the drive now

^^^fuck, you make it sound

as if you are 9 months pregnant and can barely walk. I was hopping, skipping and bouncing around at 5 months. You are obviously "milking this for all it's worth" well, let me tell you something, we don't PITY lying, contradicting bitches like you.


and your welcome about the comment of your son and i wish you and loki the best let me know if yall tie the knot ill get ya a present lol but seriously i would cause you deserve it



have a good night if you rest tonight and if not when you do rest



and thank ya again for letting me talk to ya take care night :)



*NOTE* Icewhore continuously contradicts herself in all of these messages.

Notice how, one minute she makes it seem as if she's 9 months pregnant and cant move around very good. Then the next minute makes it sound as if she's doing all this overly active stuff. As also claiming shes on bedrest at a mere 5 months along. FUCK THAT. I have no pity whatsoever, nor should any other person who unfortunately has to cross her path and listen to her lies.




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On 08:26:43 Jul 11 2006 MaidenUnderworld wrote:



so when are you due?



and if it's Lokis what do you plan on doing about that?



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On 07:44:25 Jul 11 2006 Ice wrote:



Im due the end of oct early nov and i dont know what im going to do about it i have not talked to him about it and if he doesnt want to talk to me then i dont know what to do but i guess i will see and its his call if he wants to talk to me





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Here is a copy of the absolutely LAST message that I sent to her, before putting her back on my blocked list.



I want everyone who reads this to understand just how much of a manipulative liar she really is. The only reason she was trying to be nice to me, is to sabotage a relationship. It's a scam that will not work that easily.


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From MaidenUnderworld:



Ok, nevermind about the phone number, obviously Loki decided to send you that lovely little message.



Now, on my behalf, where should I begin?



Allow me to lay it all out for you.....







To me, Loki is absolutely right. If you were pregnant, you should have made some kind of effort after you found out for certain, and you should have let him know. Not wait sooo many months after the fact, then pop up and say something

after you find out I'm here with him and everything is going good.



I know you've been keeping tabs with as many times as you and Sexmachine has visited my profile, portfolio, and most likely my journal as well. So do tell, which one of you is the puppet, and which one is the puppeteer??



By this action, yeah we seriously doubt the pregnancy. And thus far, it seems like you're the type who is willing to do whatever it takes to sabotage Loki's relationship because you didnt get what you want, and we all know Loki is what you wanted.



I'm sure maybe some PROOF would be nice--- Like a Picture of you. Untill then, we'll consider it as scandelous behavior from you.



Secondly, everything that you have said to just me..not including Loki, has had soo many holes in the story.

None of it adds up.... which proves to us that some lies are included.



(and you had the nerve to call me a liar, when in fact, you've proven the liar is you)



I'm also sorry but I really seriously DOUBT that you have all that money.

Even if you did...

It doesn't really phase us one bit.

We're not materialistic people.



By bragging about it..what?..do you actually think Loki will just jump at the chance to take you back because you have money?!? Sorry hun things on this planet don't work that way.



In all honesty... which I shouldnt even tell you this anyway. You're not the only one with money.

I'm actually FAR from any kind of poor...but you dont fucking see me bragging about it.

In all actuality, Even if I did have 10 million dollars.... I'd be lucky If I spent 30 grand of that to buy a crappy small house.

WHY, because I like comfort, and comfort to me comes in small doses.



And because MONEY does NOT make ME.

I'm farrr from materialistic....and thats yet another reason Loki and I get along so very well.









On yet another note....

I may have chose not to be in the BDSM lifestyle, but I know quite abit, and most likely more than you think I do.



You must really think I'm some kind of moron to believe that you actually hold sessions for 1-2 hours long with a BULLWHIP of all items.



I'm sorry but you're obviously the moron on that subject. Let me correct you....... "It's called SESSIONS, not playing, or playtime or whatever they call it" Any TRUE sub knows this.



In my eyes, just because you freakin did one stupid rope suspension...it's apparent that your EGO totally blew right out of the water, and you act as if you know sooo much about this lifestyle.



It's apparent that you dont know much about Loki being a DOM either. Considering any and all dom's can hurt their subs if they dont know what they are doing. Duhhh, that's a given.



Unfortunately, Not 1, but 3 people have said that Loki is a "natural" with both floggers and whips. And that comes straight from TRUE Masters... including Bullwhip himself (which taught me with the bullwhips) Master Max, and Liam.

They all said Loki's an excellent DOM and very good on the floggers, bullwhips, and rattails.

And personally, if those 3 told me that specifically, Then I'm going to have to believe them 100% over you're so-called master, (which proberbly doesn't even exist, except only to you in your own little world)



Any TRUE person in this lifestyle damn well knows, not even most professional dom/subs can LAST with a full hour or 2 of the BULLWHIP. Any anyone that CAN actually handle that long with the bullwhip, has built up their tolerance for it over YEARS of practice.

That tolerance is NOT built up in only months, or even a couple of years.







If there's is anything else you would like to lie about, or come up with some off-the-wall story about, keep it to yourself.



As of now, I personally do not and wish not to be any kind of friend to you.



I REFUSE to be aquainted with someone who has damn well proven, long enough, to not only be a total SLUT, but a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR also.





And to get this straight........

The reason I call you a total SLUT is that fact that you NOT ONLY tried more than once (and with quite afew different VR guys)

to have online CYBER SEX, but you also tried this with someone who was UNDERAGE!

That right there tells me a little too much about you.... trying to cyber...you are obviously hanging on the balance of child molestation...geee, and you really think you should be having kids? haha I'd almost hate to think what kind of life your son is going to grow up with. :/ Thats just sick, and wrong, you need help.

See, I personally know about this, for the fact that I've heard this directly from the guys, who decided to

share this info with me, out-of-the-blue, in conversations.



You are not only labeled a slut to Loki and I, but to quite afew other people, especially on VR.



But why stop now? Continue doing what you're doing, and you can be the most popular female on VR...



"The Notorious VR Cyber Slut" or "IceWhore" either way you'd prefer it.



Fuck, I may even be nice and make a banner of that for you to post on your profile. :)





Anyway, point blank, I refuse to have anything to do with people like you. Or you in that fact seeing as you have damn well

proved that is that way you really are.



Besides, your a female...we all know females are caniving, manipulative, backstabbing, shit talking little bitches.



And fuck, I'll admit, I can be when I pushed to those limits. But I choose not to be that way, for the simple fact that

that is what makes me quite different from most typical females.



Besides.. I don't believe in lying, when the TRUTH can be sooo HARSH sometimes.

I'd rather tell the truth, be brutally honest, and be be such a bitch that way.

Yes, I bask in the glory of making people miserable with the truth. I have sooo much fun doing it too!



So here I am, telling you...The truth.



And here I am admitting, that even I, think, that if you are actually pregnant and if it is

actually Loki's, Like Loki said... you'd do best getting an abortion or putting up for adoption.





I am in Loki's life now. Everything that goes on, deals with me as well.

And I REFUSE to put up with any stupid drama, or bullshit from any little bitch looking to get some kind of kicks

with my ole man.

I REFUSE to let my future be jepordized by anything, and if my future includes Loki, then so be it,

I'll stand my ground for him too.





Do UNDERSTAND:

Our relationship is strong, and NOTHING or NOONE will come between us...unless we, ourselves are ready to

let go of this. Which I don't see happening anytime soon.





POINT BLANK...Back the fuck off bith. You only get this ONE warning from me.



STOP NOW while you still can.

STOP your little LIES,

STOP your little flaunts for attention.

ohh and it might help if you STOP acting like an internet slut.



STOP trying to get in touch with us after this baby shit is settled.





When this is done and over, YOU walk away, no questions asked, and you forget we exist.

I do so hope that you fully understand this.





And from this point on.... If you even come anywhere CLOSE to pissing me off,



I will **edited incase police get called and involved in this for what would like to be said. :D ** Let's just say that it consists of that little pug-like face in a glass display on the mantel of a 2 million dollar home.





Do not push me to that point. You have noo idea what my background consists of.

But I just might suprise you. And as for me, Nahhh, it'll never be prison, only back

in a straitjacket, which is like my second home anyway, nothing new.



People always warn about psychos.

Neither Hannibal Lector, nor Dee Snider's character as Capt. Howdy in Strangeland cannot possibly even hold a candle.





We all know, I need help with my little psychological tendencies and problems...



Professional help didnt work for me,



But at least professionals can help you with your pathological lying and attention cravings.





From this point on...you're back on my blocked list.





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On One Last Note...



Hannibal Lector and all of those, wouldn't nearly be as artfully creative as I can be when it comes to flesh and blood and everything else included.



Territorial is an understatement for me.



This letter was said as nicely as I possibly could



Nice try. But do so give it up now, while you are still in one piece.






You may call me a bitch slut whore or whatever else you would like to. It's nothing new. It's not my fault jelousy is an issue with you.

Just remember:

Unlike you.... I actually have proof behind my reason for calling you that.


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Jelousy and the heart of ice

06:22 Jul 19 2006
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The Begining






IceHeart1313



Email to Self



do me a favor and please take me off your friends list cause i dont like liars and well you are a liar in my eyes you said you were never gonna get with loki and well you fucken lied to me and i dont care for people like that



and by the way loki knows but we havent really talked about it much but im pregant with his child and he knows



also you can have fun paying his cell phone bill as well cause i did pay for it so we can talk and so he can talk to his daughter but now i really dont give a fuck about his problems anymore i always cared but you both lied to me and i hate fuckin people like you now see ya you fucken liar









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Jelousy and the Heart of Ice.......



Here is one of my newest ratings from Ms. ICE who used to be considered as a decent acquaintance of mine here on VR. Someone I even bothered taking the time to create her retarted looking background for her profile on here.



Lovely how things change so quickly when jelousy is involved.



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Date: 05:18:41 - Apr 10 2006







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Well Iceheart,



considering the fact that we used to chat and hold decent conversations and such, I never thought that you would go this low as to take your jelousy out on me.



I understand the situation, and I thought you would have handled yourself in a better manner than this.



Its a shame that you had to go and do this out of sheer jelousy just for the fact that a relationship has evolved between me and Loki.





But to send me such a rude message and bomb my profile, then block me like that,



well, that just shows a complete lack of maturity on your part.



I'm sorry it had to come to this, but on the other hand, I'm almost glad it did. I can't stand immature people that throw little bitchfits just because they dont get what they want.



My advice to you:



Don't let jelousy over-run your life.



Grow the fuck up and stop acting like a childish brat just cause you didnt get what you wanted.



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And in regards to your message:





LOL I never promised anything, and at the current time that I said this, I was in a relationship with someone else..NOT LOKI.. and when he came to visit me, I never lied when I said we didnt mess around..because I respected the fact I was with someone else. Loki and I started off as friends and stayed like that for quite awhile. Call me a liar all you want you dumb cunt, but your naive.



ahhh pulling the typical "revengeful bitch" scheme.. this is far from suprising. I find it completely funny that when I had a conversation with him about this he had absolutely NO FUCKING CLUE about any of it. This is one desperate chick indeed.



Thanks, although he can damn well take care of all his bills and shit himself, I have fun helping him pay his bills...I'm enjoying every minute of spoiling my baby.



Trust me, its perfectly fine and dandy if you dont care about his problems anymore...Thats what I'm here for. He dont need you, never did and never will.



I'm sorry if you cannot handle the fact that you were nothing more than a quick piece of ass, apparently slutty enough to give it up when told to.



Seeing as you are obviously like that, did you honestly expect to get treated with respect and not like the slut you've obviously proved to be. It dont work that way, sorry. You have been treated the way you deserve to be treated...a quick piece of ass when needed or wanted.

And when you were used up, thrown out like trash for someone who actually has some kind of value. Thats all. Get over it.

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11:57 Jul 09 2006
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i love to bleed. i love pain..if I couldnt constantly feel pain, then I'd be numb to every feeling.

without pain, there is no feeling.


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This is too funny...

08:02 Jul 05 2006
Times Read: 788


Now this is something that I just absolutely could not pass up copying and pasting into my journal.



GPSF12.... you're soo damn adorable I haven't a clue of what to do with you!!



Much Much Love to you sweetness.










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Rate meeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!! Tell me I'm beautiful!!! Visit my pages!!!! My life is meaningless without your approval!!!!!!!!! I visited your page... Please rate me... for I am merely a pathetic little whelp who's cluelessness is due to "head up the ass syndrome" ROTFLMFAO!!!....



And this little furballs page was just right... So little red riding Jaye tucked himself into the big bad Wolven's bed after reading the pro and scarfing down a nice warm bowl of porridge.... Waiting... :D





This was GPSF12 and myself, making fun of all the rating whores, lol it's purely self-entertainment, and a damn good laugh!



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