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Wondering why I get the men that always hurt me.

Not knowing why I never find the one.

I belive there is someone out there for me.

but why do I cry my lonely tears?

My heart betrayed me to thinking I loved him.

My head was telling me it shouldn't be the truth.

Why is it that I always Listin to the one that makes me blind.

He promised me such glorious riches, Mostly love unconditional.

Yet when it came time to love me forever he ran away scared.

Why do men love and when times get tough leave?

My heart hurts, I have never felt pain like this.

I thought I have cried for everything, up untill this point.

I never thought I shed a tear for a broken heart.

Will he ever come back and tell me it was a mistake?

Will he beg me to forgive him and take me away?

Why am I the fool who doesn't see.

That he was trying to break our bond.

No matter what happened I will forgive him.......

But I will never forget the night he left me,

Only my tears for reasurance and My broken heart for company.

Wondering....Waiting...Unknowing..Seeing....If we were meant for this end.

We couldn't be together they said.....

We couldn't even see eachother.....

Yet we loved eachother at frist sight.....

And we held Hope so close.......

We couldn't speak to each other......

We couldn't touch one another........

They tried to tear us apart.........

Yet we remained strong...........

Lovers our souls were joined.........

They seaperated us......

trying to make us forget eachother.........

IN DEATH THEY WILL NOT SPLIT US.........

IN DEATH WE WILL FOREVER BE JOINED.

LOVERS FOR ETERNITY, LOVERS FOR LIFE, LOVERS EVEN AFTER DEATH DO US PART.

How am I to feel....

When the world seems to be against me......

How am I to feel.......

When being used by friends......

How am I to feel.....

When I loved someone and lost him.....

How am I to feel....

When I am being lied to....

How am I to feel......

When I am losing my life to darkness.......

How am I to feel.....

When the games I play stop......

How am I to feel.....

When I lost my oldest brother....

How am I to feel.......

When I lost my best friend.....

How am I to feel......

When I don't see the light.......

How am I to feel.......

When I know there is no awnser.......

My problems seem so insurmountable I want to take a sigh.

My life is so dramatic it make me want to cry.

Trust that was there is now broken in pieces.

Life to cherish forever seems to be hell that never ceases.

Truth is now not real it has turned into fiction.

Help dosen't come, It is never an depiction.

How Do I feel???

Life has gone to hell

Lies nothing but lies surround me.

Hurt and pain run through my mind.

We three are best friends, why do you lie?

I would have been happy for you two.

Anger and rage is my pacifier.

Lied to by the people I trust most.

Hurtful no good backstabbing liars.

I told you all Please don't lie to me I will be truthful to you.

Now I wonder, have you always lied to me?

Can I trust you like I did, or always have?

I have confronted one will i have time to ask the other?

My life was fine till this had to come out.

I suspected truly I did I suspected the whole time I was at work that night.

Liars, fithly liars, Why am I a magnet for them?

Pain so much pain. I hate it I really hate It.

The truth comes out eventually, Did you forget I was Psycic?

Lied to by my best friends, Why does this always happen?

Frist it was my Wrestler guy, then my Friend Charlie, Now It is them.

Why? Why? Why do the lies surround me all the time?

I am too trusting and I have made up my mind I will be a hermit.

No one around me, No one to despise, No one to hurt me with all their petty lies.

Pain hurts awhile as you try to find a way to end it.

The Curse was brought on to you as the rage builds up.

He promise love everlasting and still betrayed you at his frist chance.

You know you will never be the same.

Someone there that holds you close, yet tears you up in the end.

He has driven you to the place of insanity.

Seeing him with her is stabbing your heart.

Her laughing at you is tearing your resolve apart.

You shouldn't cause them the pain they caused you.

Yet the curse is bursting to be realeased.

Fools they are to try and hide themselves from your hatered.

They donot know who they are dealing with.

The curse has broken free of your soul.

The Demon devours them both.

You laugh Mechanically as you look at the remains.

They are battered and cut so deeply a healer will not be able to help them.

As you look at the two sitting there smiling at one another.

Your daydream comes to an end, You realize the curse is anger.

The pain of what they cause will come full circle.

The Plans are in motion.

I strain to see you, as Shadows and smoke swirl around you.

My heart beats faster, as the light of the moon illuminates you from behind.

Wondering who you are while you walk towards me, mystery deepens with every step.

As I start to make out, what you look like, the wind carries your shallow breath to me.

I see wisdom, and strength in your eyes, as you wrap you muscular arms around me,

As I struggle to get free, I realize you are determined to get what you want.

I am afraid to ask but I wonder if Mistress of the darkness is what you need.

You bend my head to the side; I feel pricks of pain on my neck.

Warm beads of liquid drip down my chest as I feel a tugging sensation.

The place spins and spins as I am losing unconsciousness.

You offer your wrist and tell me to drink the fountain of life, or I will die.

I am trapped in a whirlwind of desire and forbidden fruit.

I drink your blood, it has a salty taste, you urge me to drink my fill.

I collapse as you blood mixes with mine. Darkness becomes light to me as I notice detail I have never seen before.

I feel Healthy once again and I feel Invincible.

I hear every thing around me that drowns me in the roar.

As I change and become one with the people that walk eternally in moons light.

You smile and tell me everything is going to be alright.

I curse you, evil creature, you gave me no choice.

You laugh and tell me from now to the end of the world I am to call you sire.

As we silently walk back down the moonlight path I can't help but wonder........

Was I your first choice, or was this a chance meeting.

My Friend, I dread there is something dark within me.

How can I stand to be sadistic and powerful at the same time?

The shadows and smoke dance around with the beat of my heart.

A side of me cannot stand the light of the sun.

Yet I am afraid of the blackness that eventually will consume me.

I see the color red, dark as blood, when I close my eyes.

I feel frustrated as I stand here, Yet Invincible all at once.

I want to cause pain; I want them to hurt as much as I do.

All my feelings run through me during this time.

They torment me just flashing for a second.

As I get control of the pain that they cause,

I realize the darkness within me is My Rage.

When the darkness surrounds me, I fall into a trance.

I know something or someone is there.

The Quiet fills me with dread, As I listen for any small sound.

My Heartbeat quickens with each little snap.

I breath heavly while looking for some small place of escape.

Wondering if I will come out alive.

I Start running in the darkness to the only light I see.

I hear someone running heavly behind me.

My breath comes in gasps now as I try not to scream.

Arms wrap around my waist.

I Struggle and try fight my way out of the grasp.

As I am pulled back into the darkness.

I realize that my mind is the one who has me trapped.

Darkness swirls around me as I walk into the moonlight. I hear the cries of people I know trying to reach my ears. I was hurt long ago by the one man I trusted with my heart. Now I am running madly from the stars. I only hear his voice echoing through my mind. It's drowns out everything elese. I Run along this path of pain. As I remember why I feel this way. Dumb enough to trust someone with my every feeling. Now the pain is a hundred fold as I try to hold it in. Dumb enough to accidently love him will all my body. It is Screaming to be realeased from it's shell. I get my car and head up a cliff towards my doom. I hear his voice call out my name, but its too late and I have nothing to lose. I lost him forever and he needs to know what forever really means. I will never remeber my time of passion, or the pain of his betrayel.

I look at the note in my hands a sigh. I pin it on my shrit. The light of the moon is my guide. Tears of blood come forth, as I lay at the bottom of the cliff. Now he will know what losing him meant to me. I look at the note in the pale moonlight.............I gave my soul to love, I lost my soul to him, I will never live without my heart, It would be a sin.

Why Do I run and hide?

Lost in this darkness created by my mind.

Hope is gone Because of the endless lies.

I feel there is no friend for me.

Who feels how I do, Who know what will happen.

When the world falls on my sholders.

I seen things of horror, I hear the pain in their voices.

They don't know they hurt me so.

Cast aside like yesterdays news.

Left and forgotton is my new trend.

Why do I cry when I am all alone.

because there is no one to hear me.

The stars shimmer trying to understand.

Yet they are out of my reach.

I wonder why I even exist.

When the ones I hold dear won't even listen.

I hate the turn of events lately.

There is nothing I can do to change them.

Song of lies,sing my lullaby.

As I reach for no one that is there.

They are lies of friendship eternal.

Being ignored is my future.

Knowing happiness is in my past.

Can anyone help me out of this life.

I am drowning in my own despair.

How can a friendship end this way?

Now I let the memory go, The memory that was us.

How can we be anymore, when we don't even get to talk.

Gone is the times we shared, Gone is the jokes.

Nothing exisits if you let it die.

I tried my friend, and now I ask Why did you let this happen?

We had fun and understood eachother.

Now I don't know you anymore.

Goodbye I guess, you don't care anymore.

Death of a friend, and death of my Happiness of all.