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Walking up the road.. Freezing Cold.......



A cat lay in the road.... As I approached, I wasn't sure if it was still alive, it had obviously got hit by a vehicle. Eyes were still open, I touch it to feel for a heart beat, Fur still warm, I felt a sickness start to approach my throat..



The kitty, had gone, and only just. .... I Feel poop..And I cried..



Fuck......

Made a HUGE and positive impact or difference in my life during this year.. You've all been just the best friends, and outstanding, precious people; In no order.. Just a Big up, and thanks to.....



SeleneTremere,

Nosphoratusvamperess,

nipsnkisses,

LadyWinterRogue,

LadyMinaMurrey,

KCRC,

Harpia,

Jens,

kontradiction,

Craig1459,

Bloodlife,

karnstein,

Maledicta,

mearhinas,

MysticMoon,

darkangel30

faithnomore





Thank you ALL for being who you are!!

Girls too!! No particular order!! I love you all...



1) Selenetremere

2) QueenofChaos

3) Harpia

4) WinterdarkMoon

5) NosphoratusVamperess

6) Kontradiction

7)Darkangel30

8) nightqueen89

9) xseductivexlustx

10) maledicta

Hehehe this should be fun



Top 10 Hottie Guys of VR

In no particular order



1) Faithnomore

2) xesevird

3) craig 1459

4) bard (for his written word, he's amazing)

5) souleater

6) Demon420

7) deathsembrace

8) Jens

9) cancer hehe

10) jason

I am going to completely re-vamp my Profile.. It'll be reflecting who I am, now... I've evolved quite a bit in the last year.



And I am further away from certain poisons. For the better, I am far stronger than I imagined I would be. As poisons is quite Insidious. Especially if one is Spiked Unknowingly and over a period of time! (Analogy)



I've out-grown my profile as is.. and it isn't accurate to how I am feeling now.

Saw a bad accident tonight, hadn't long happened. A Kid was in the car and slouched over the front seat.. hadn't been strapped in at the back and must have been thrown forwards... The car appeared to have skidded on Ice and went in to a tree.. We drove past, There was already 8-10 Cars there stopped to try to help... I was in a Cab. No Emergency services had arrived yet..

I feel sad and upset about that, I pray the kid is Okay, and will make Christmas.





So, Everyone, Think Winter, think, ICE, think SLOW DOWN.. AND more importantly.. Strap your Future in their SEATS.

Wow...



All my 18 Months here had been great!! But this little shit came along.. and Gave me this!!



What a Lovely person~~~~ NOT





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treyrox16



14:48:24

Dec 13 2007



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first of all nobody cares about yo damn body after two babies



second of nobody likes yo ugly ass



third of all you need to see a psychiatrist for some help



my guy friend saw yo picture yesterday and thought you were hot but when he saw yo ugly ass face he said never mind



thats how ugly you are



plus you need a make over



lol :) :)

Thanks Guys...



All 3 of you.. You're great friends!

X X X

My Darling CJ... Happy Birthday you BEAUTIFUL Ray of Moonlight, My shining star.. I am SO proud of you.



I Love You Forever

Oh Okay.. I'm nervous about this Date.... It's not til 14th.. But this guy is like UP there.. and OUT there.. And he is interested in.... ME.. I don't see myself as anything special, I don't see myself as appealing. I have no self-confidence, but I have confidence in people. And I have a good heart.



This guy has actually asked my friends stuff about me.. I can't take it seriously, because I see him WAY above me. But my friends say I have been beaten down by A Scab that took away all my energy to make him feel better.

So... I'm going to take a shot, and go on this date.. I usually can't shoot the breeze, but I already know we have Egyptology, and alternative health in common. What else is that he is actually rather attractive. Warm, smoldering looks.





I have no qualms from my past now.. so why the heck not...

Still poopin myself.. What colour should I wear> eek

I shall be completely re-vamping my profile---



It'll be a New year, and almost a year away from 'Scum of the earth'- Even stink itself says THAT Creature- Stinks!



It'll be a celebration. It'll be showing the who-I-am-Now!



I'm still standing! I feel great.. Life is good!

Before I was a Mother



I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.



I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.



I never thought about immunizations.



Before I was a Mother -





I had never been puked on.



Pooped on.



Chewed on.



Peed on.



I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.



I slept all night.



Before I was a Mother



I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.



Or give Medicines



I never looked into teary eyes and cried.



I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.



I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.



Before I was a Mother



I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put Babydown.







I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop

the hurt.



I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.



I never knew that I could love someone so much.



I never knew I would love being a Mother.



Before I was a Mother -



I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.



I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.



I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.



I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important

and happy.



Before I was a Mother-



I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to

make sure all was okay.



I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache,

the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mother.



I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mother...



I am SO PROUD to be a Mother!

OK, I REALLY don't Understand this guy.......... He keeps Emailing me totally Random stuff.... Way OUT stuff.. His profile is completely literate, yet His personal mails, are WHACK!



WTF....



From bottom to top!





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17:24:05

Dec 01 2007



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minx i may have something to you sorry if mind went a stray aftern 36 hrs i guess i am an asshole sorry can you forgive me



On 09:25:44 Dec 01 2007 Minx wrote:



Nobody hurt who?



I am okay..Not long been up.



On 09:10:05 Dec 01 2007 cainestillalive wrote:



hi how doing i am happy but i was making sure thant nobody can hurt her i had a long nite

I have had this 'grumbling appendix' now for about 5 days.. Now and then it really becomes sore.. When I lay on my right side & Especially after I have eaten. if it prolongs, I'll have to go see my doctor about it.

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I have been chatting with Jamie a lot lately, She has this amazing strength. I admire her immensely and I am glad we are friends.