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Breath Deep, Young Love... It's All You Can Do...



i'm drowning in a sorrow you couldn't even fathom. thoughts floating on a sea of blood, death, destruction. lost, crashing through the waves that have become inevitable, a tide of self hate. i watch it trickle down, the life inside of me, growing steadily faster. i'm losing control, fading out, slipping away. breaking. stumbling. falling. dying. slowly. losing grip.



i scream inside. can you hear me? do you know that this pain in my eyes is nothing but a reflection of the emptiness within me? i feel nothing. see nothing. hear nothing. except echoes from a past that will never be a present. never be a future, again. i can't even live in it anymore, so faded it has become. just like me. just like my life. do you think of me?



i see her. i feel her. i taste her. she can give me everything i want. everything i need. she could hand me a life of pain, sorrow, heartache, happiness, joy, laughter, love, loss, anger, terror... life... everything i need to become whole again. to dull that knifes edge of regret that has stabbed me so deep, i don't think i can pull it out again. every move i make, every thought... shifts it... tears a new gash in an old wound. would you approve? i don't think so.



and still i bleed for you. no one sees. no one knows. they never will. before they even suspect the scars will be long gone, covered over by life. life i don't even think i want, anymore. please save me. i need you.



i'm terrified of death. of the unknown. what lies beyond? will i be there, in your arms once more? or am i destined to go throughout eternity as nothing? i'm scared. what shall i do? you know these fears. you once chased them from my mind with kisses, murmured words in the dark... arms around me, protecting me from the thoughts within my own head.



i need you more than you know. more than i would ever tell you. i'm happy you're happy. and i hate to ask you this... but please... save me once more... chase these thoughts away... i'm losing my mind... losing reality... losing grip....