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Momentary Happiness
02:55 Sep 13 2009
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I had forgotten how good a laugh felt and how happy it made me feel to smile and just have a good time away from all the stress and negative energy that the city life gives. My wife and I snuck away Thursday afternoon and went up into the mountains for a much needed break from everything. We enjoyed some much needed time together away from everyone else. It felt good to just be alone and unreachable. We camped out under the stars, made smores by camp fire, went horse back riding, went sight seeing up in the Wild Life Park, Taking Pictures while sightseeing. It was all worth it. I haven't felt this good in a long time.

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GarfieldsGirl
21:22 Oct 30 2009

sometimes that is all it takes is a little time away from all the stress of life in general. Good for you.

Birthday
19:46 Sep 03 2009
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For those of you just tuning in.. Yes, it is my birthday. But I really do not see the appeal of it anymore.. Basically to me it is just another day where I wake up, walk into my bathroom, take a good look in the mirror and see just how badly this last year as affected me. More grey hairs on my head, bags under my eyes, the works.

Than I start to analyze my life and what I have managed to accomplish within the year and I realize that I don't really have anything to show for it.. I am not filthy rich, I don't drive a nice car, I am working a bullshit job.. You get where I am going with this.. Basically I am jealous of every one else. Why in this so called world is it so hard for a guy like me who has dreams and ambitions to get a break and actually live a decent life for once?

I am not asking for a miracle because I don't believe in those anymore.. This last year alone has made me give up on those. They say money is the key to everything. If you don't have it then you are not worth the ground you tred upon.. I am starting to believe them..

I am not asking to win the lottery. I would be content with just 50 grand. That is all I am asking for. Yet there are people in Hickville Illinois or Iowa or some back country small time town that are winning huge jackpots from casinos or getting lucky and winning multi million dollar lotteries and are just wasting the money they get on stupid shit.. Its pissing me off..

ALSO People on Welfare and Food Stamp programs.. You are spending my HARD EARNED tax dollars on shit you have no right buying!! You make me sick. Here I am struggling to keep food in my fridge and stretching every dollar I have to keep fuel in my beat up dodge neon while killing myself working you that you can be fat and lazy sitting on your ass eating Steak and Lobster every night and buying things like high definition flat screen television and buying high end escalades with full audio packages and gps.

Now don't think of me as an asshole here! I don't hate everyone who uses these programs.. I am sympathetic towards the guy who was hurt on a job site because now he can't work and he has to use these programs just to keep his family afloat and his family is struggling like me to keep a home over their heads. I just hate people who want to be lazy and use these programs because they refuse to get off their fat ass and get honest work like all the rest of us HARD WORKING PEOPLE!!!!

Well I think I have said enough in this entry today.. I will understand completely if you all hate me for it now but frankly I don't give a shit either way.. When I start seeing some positive change in my life instead of always having to deal with the day to day bullshit than maybe my outlook on life will change..

Otherwise I thank you all once again for taking the time to listen to my rants and raves and hope you all have a blessed day. Take care.