Just an update for those of you who have taken the time to not only read, but email with me as well.
I got to talk to my daughter last night! It was her birthday and she actually got on the phone. It wasn't a long conversation, but I at least got to tell her I LOVE YOU and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Part of me wants to think of it in a good way and part of me thinks she did it just to shut me up, whichever it may be, I am so thankful I got to hear her voice last night.
I've been able to get on here and check on her though. Through her journal I see how she's feelin and try to send her comments to let her know everything's gonna be okay, no matter what, but today she blocked me from commenting.
I feel like I'm banging my head on a brick wall. She's now 15 and knows everything, right! I just wish she knew how bad this hurts me. Would she even care, I don't know.
I miss you Ally! I love you honey!
Today is the day I was suppose to pick up my daughter from the airport, but now I can't. She's been stolen and they won't even let me talk to her. I cry every single day. I can't even work because I'm so sad. I can't shake this and I don't know that I ever will. I'm just not even sure life is worth living anymore. We'd come so far and now she's gone. I don't want to breathe anymore!
I've had some really bad times before, but I have to say this week has by far been the worst. It's so strange, I had this feeling not to do something that I did and now I will regret it for the remainder of my life.
If you've read any of my journal, you know I recently moved to New York from Alabama. Well, I allowed my son to stay with my mother to finish out the school year but my youngest daughter (TaintedAngel14) and youngest son came with me (my oldest daughter is married). I knew my daughter was, in the beginning, having a hard time, but when she started school things seemed to be going better, I guess I was wrong. My mother, whom I call Cindy now, absolutely lied to me for months. She knew when Ally got down there she wasn't going to let her come back and that's what has happened. Ally got there on Tuesday and by Wednesday afternoon Cindy had her in front of a Judge saying she hated me and never wanted to see me again. How can this happen? She birthed me. She didn't even give me a chance. I have to admit the past 2 years (since my divorce) has been rough. Raising 4 kids on your own needless to say is not easy, but I did it. I've been homeless and still had my children, without electricity she never took them, but when I moved 1300 miles away and get back on my feet, she steals them like a thief in the night.
When Ally was born, she was 2 months premature. I had to make a decision (alone) of whom they would bring out of the operating room and of course I chose my daughter. Why doesn't my mother choose me. All those times when my dad would buy me school clothes and she would make me burn them just because she hated him all those times she let me sit in the window and wait hours upon hours for him, when she knew from the beginning he had called and she told him I couldn't go. I just don't understand. I've eaten one meal since Wednesday when I accidentally found out. Cindy changed Ally's number, wouldn't answer the phone and now I still haven't talked to my children. They're MY children damn it, they're MINE! I know they're not possessions it's just I don't know what to do. They told the Judge it was too dangerous for Ally and Matt to be with me, yet because Cindy doesn't like my youngest son her other grandson, she said she doesn't want custody of him. So, it's not about safety, it's about manipulation.
My entire family from mother, father, brother, sister, aunts, everyone has turned their back and helped her do this and yet she says "It's God's will", who is this God then because I don't know him.
I miss Ally so much. We had come so far in working our relationship out and now she's gone. I remember watching her walk down the catwalk to the plane, I was crying because I KNEW better, but I wanted her to see her friends for Spring Break, I wanted her to be happy. She turned to me, blew me a kiss and said "don't cry mama, I'm coming back in a week". Well a week will now turn to years. Why??????????????
COMMENTS
You need a lawyer. You're in New York? You should be able to throw a stone at random and hit one.
Even if you've had some contested custody in the past, no court can take your right of custody away without due process and not that quickly. Unless CPS was called in to protect the children, which is doesn't sound like since you weren't involved at all, you need to be made aware by the court that someone is contesting your ability to care for your children and you have every right under the law to be present for a hearing with legal counsel and present your case.
It doesn't sound to me, from the details of this story, that any legal court was involved at all from your mother's side and if that is the case, what she just did would be considered kidnapping. If your children are minors and you are their legal guardian, no one can stop you from demanding your children be returned unless they have a court order stating so.
Find and consult with a qualified lawyer immediately.
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TaintedAngel14
23:48 Jun 08 2009
damn mom you makes me feel so bad =(
i need to talk to you asap, i wont be home im at rachel's, but please email me!