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Why is he trying to make me turn against my own mother? The man who helped my mom raise me, not biological father, one that adopted me when I was younger. He is starting up with his mind games with me. He thinks I am still scared of him after all the abuse he put me through. Yet, he says that was all put into my head, says that my mom told me that it all happened. Says that he would never do something like that to me. But memories don't lie. brusis that I had when I was younger don't lie. I know the truth and he is just trying to deny it all. Like it never happened to me in the first place.



Now he is saying crap like the courts said that she was unstable. He is saying so much shit right now it is starting to push me over the edge. but I am a much better person that he will ever be. I am not abusive. I am not trying to make everything about me. I care for all of my family.



he has the nevre to try and call me his son after all that he has done to my family? He is out of his mind. He needs to be locked up, permently. I feel that he is a danger to all those around him. but for now, there is nothing that I can do at this time or the next.



He has no clue of what he is messing with or who he has pissed off. He is going to get a big bite when karma makes her round and gets his ass. He thinks that his life is all glouris now, he thinks he can do what he wants now and get away with it. What until karma comes and bites him in the ass. Bet he will be begging for mercy then.



And at that time, ill look, laugh, and keep on walking as if nothing ever happen.

I know why I like the fall now. Cause the summer is too damn hot and the winter is too damn cold and the spring is too damn, weel both. The fall is nice and cool and looks kinda cool with leaves all over the ground.



I use to like snow, but after 2 years in Germany, I can live with out it. Plus, the weather can change in a snap during the winter monthes.



The summer gets entirely too hot. Starts to remind me of Iraq. Really hate remembering all that stuff that went on over there. Not to mention. There are even more people on the roads. And more aggrivations to have to deal with everyday.



Well, the spring aint that bad. Just, well, it is said to be the time for new beggings, and yet, it is the same every year. Someone else supposibly falls in love, new birthes to replaces lost loved ones. Just gets too crazy for me.



Now the fall, it is the same, but at times different. Unexpected things, good and bad happen all the time. Either some goes good, or something goes bad. There is no in between in fall.

If you are racist and you read this. I hope you are extremely offended.



I would have to say that racism is one major cause for sooooo many deaths in the world today. Something that happen 600 years ago or less seems to have made that big ass mark in history.



There should be a law against it. There are still places in the states even that wont serve people because of their nationality or the color of their skin. I mean, what the fuck is that? People are still raising their children, some people, to hate other races because they are different on the outside. But, I look at it this way, we all look the same on the inside, we all bleed the same color. And we are all, believe it or not I am saying this, we are all Gods children.



We are all here, breathing the same air, living on the same planet. Just, racism is making it harder for some people to live and prosper on this world we call a home. Maybe all these racist should be put through what others had to go through soooo many years ago.



Me, I can get along with everyone, except when they give me a reason not to. And that, to tell you the truth, does not happen too often. it does once in awhile, but not often.

Ok. Heres another problem not really heard about now a days. Multi racial families. You all know what I am talking about. Black men marrying white women and the other way around. Mexicans marrying white or blacks. I have heard somethings said in all my years how they should be "put down" for doing it. Those who said it should be put down for saying that.



Believe it or not folks, Im a white guy, who use to be married to a black woman. Yep, its true. It lasted a little over a year, found out she slept with 3 other guys. But hey it seemed to of worked for awhile. But everyone has their own "cup of tea" as it is said.

OK, Ok, OK. I know people have always talked about this before. But it is a really keen subject that I am always hearing and thinking about.



Same sex marraiges. Should they be allowed or not be allowed. I say...............let them marry who they want to marry.



Heres an example. People say that they will go to hell for someone having sexual contact with the same sex. It is a sin to love someone of the same sex as they do. Even bi sexual people are ridiculed everyday (excuse my spelling).



How would these so called "people of God" feel if someone told them that all preachers and fathers of the church are petiflies and child malesters? Or if someone told them they couldn't love and marry who they wanted to love and marry?



I am tired of hearing about people that are gay or lesbian being told they are going to hell because of who they love or want to spend the rest of their lives with.



The reason why I brought this up is because my wife is a bi sexual. And my moms MALE cousin is gay. I am tired of hearing all this negative shit coming from people because of it. IT NEEDS TO STOP ASAP!!!!!

Ok. So, I live in Florida, waiting for this Debbie storm to hit, and guess what, nothing is happening. I want it to storm. I love the rain. Makes me sleep. Calms my nerves. Helps me think straight.



After the week I had and that I am about to have. I need to be calm. Bout to start school.....again..... in a couple of weeks. Jeez, I am so glad I quit drinking after Germany. Or else I would be a worthless drunk. But hey, there are worst things in life.



Laters all.

EVERYONE, WATCH OUT FOR Nancyjrwife1989.



SHE WAS JUST TRYING TO GET ME TO COMMIT ADULTRY AND SHE LIES ON THE WAY SHE LOOKS. SHE HAS NO RESPECT FOR ANYONE ELSE BUT HERSELF. SHE THINKS SHE CAN GET WHAT SHE WANTS WHEN SHE WANT5S IT. PLEASE, DO NOT CONTACT HER. SHE WILL TRY TO EITHER SCARE YOU OR TURN YOU AGAINST SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT. BEWARE!!!!!

Yes, I am still jobless and have been for 2 years now. I do not get it. The government wants to fix our problems across seas. Why not concentrate right here at the home front? Why? Do they not relize that everyday, more and more people are becoming homeless? Losing their jobs? Families? Homes? They say they are trying to help, but I have yet to see it. I live here in Pensacola, FL, and I see more homeless on the street everyday.



Plus, I have tried to get unemployment here. But I can not get it because I would have to of had a job for atleast three monthes. Kinda hard to do that if I cant find one. All I know is that I have put in over 500+ applications online and in person, had 3 interviews and yet no one cares to hire me. I can be easily trained, but they still wont hire.



They need to worry bout what is going on here and try to get more jobs for us, not worry bout anything else. I am tired of having to selling my stuff just to make ends meet every month. Sooner or later, I aint going to have anything else to sell. Then me and my wife are going to end up living on the street. I really don't want that to happen.



Someone really needs to get everything straightened out and fix this shit before we drop into another Great Depression and people start to die for no reason.

Actually, to tell you the truth, it is not worth it. Every year, people die in war, soldiers, civilians, the enemy, and their families as well. No matter what we do, there will always be a war going on somewhere.



War is pointless. All it is is tring to show off infront of the other guy. Tring to show that someone else has more power than the other guy. Yet it gets more and more people killed everyday, every week, and every year.



Will we not stop having war until the earth is consumed in fire? Is that what everyone is waiting for? Is that going to be the destruction of the human race? We die by our own weapons?



Yes, people turn war into video games. But those are different. On a game,you die, you can restart. In real life, you die, there is no restart button. I play the games, I have heard what people have said. They think the games are like the real wars going on out there. They have no clue on how wrong they really are.



Yes, I was a soldier. I have seen what war can do to others, what it can do to a country, families of us and them. It is not a pretty sight. All these people over here thinking they know what it is like from just watching the TV. Unless they are a war vet like me, they have no clue on what it is like.



Under the constant threat of death, watching others die. Rolling out the gate, not knowing if you are going to come back that day or not. Not knowing whats in the next house, around the next corner, or even what is in the next persons pocket or in the next trash can.



Like I have said before, I have stories to tell, and I am willing to tell anyone the stories if they are willing to listen.

Everyone seems to think that death is the end of everything. Why is that? What if death opens up a whole new world of possibilities? What if it is only the next step in life? What if you die, then you instantly come back as someone else? These are questions that have always been asked. And there are many other questions as well.



Some people say, when you die, your soul either goes to heaven or hell. What if your soul just passes onto someone or something else? What if when you die, your soul goes into a womans wound and you just go into a body of a new born? Isnt that possible?



Sometimes I have extremely vivid dreams. Like the battle of troy or rome or something like that. It feels like I am actually there. Like I actually lived it. Some people think they are just dreams. What if it is actually a window to the past and the dreams you have are actually memories from the past life or lives that you had? Isnt that possible? Have more than one life. I mean, what is the point of living once and that's it. Live one life then just die.



I know many people do not believe in my views, but I also knopw that there are people out there that know where I am coming from.



So, in ther choice of life and death, would you die to actually see what happens, or would you want to live on forever and never experience the choice or to see into the great beyond as some call it.

Time, the one thing that everyone is running out of./ No way to stop it. No way to reverse it. No way to change it. What has happened in the past, well, now stays in the past and there is no way to go back and change anything. The money that was spent is gone. The words that where said are said, the things that where done are done, the arguments, no matter how small, are there now and forever. Nothing can be done about any of them. They are part of our history and can never be changed.



I look at time as a river. A river can only flow one way and that is down. Even if you try to re route it, it will always find a way to flow downwards. Like time. Every hour, minute, second. There is no stopping it. No changing it. No slowly it. Just having to live it, no matter what happens, no matter what comes our way, no matter how big or small, we all just have to live with it.



Sometimes, it seems that the older we get, the faster time starts to move. No matter what we do, it seems to move faster. As if,minutes are seconds, hours are minutes and so forth. It seems like, when I stand still, everything is just passing me by,but, as I start to move to keep up with it, everything else starts to move much faster, and everytime I get close to what I want, it just disappears, as if time itself is taughting me with something I want and yet, not letting me get it. No matter how hard I try or how hard I push for it, I can never get to it in time.



Everyone one says that we have to explore space, and the depths of the ocean. But what about time? We all know that time is always going on, but why can we not explore time? Or work on trying to figure it out. Trying to figure out how it exsists, and why, no matter what, it keeps running like it does, no matter what. Is there a way to stop it? Is there a way to rewind it? Is there a way to fast forward it? I have heard people ask these questions, and there are no answers to these questions, as of yet. But maybe, one day there will be.

Why is it everytime I try to sell something, someone wants to pay half or less for it. Everytime. It doesn't matter what it is. I mean a few weeks ago, someone wanted to buy my TV which I wanted $300 for, for, get this, $180, in cash. I mean, really? Is this world really getting that greedy? Jeez, people, just because a lot of people out there have an ass load of money doesn't mean that I do. I swear, when someone else is selling something, they price it high and wont drop it for no one. But when they are selling, they expect you to drop it to the lowest price possible or to just give it to them for free.



What is this world coming to?

So many people, so little time. Does anyone actually have boundaries now a days? Me and my wife strated playing a new game online together. And some guy sends her a message asking her out AFTER she told everone at that time that she was married to me. How crazy is that? I mean, do people really have no boundaries these days? Do people not have a mind that works? Or is it just guys that think with only one head? ASnd not the one they are suppose to use. Just, that is what get people hurt now a days. Pushing past their boundaries and trying to hook up with someone over a game site that they don't even know.

There is someone sending sexual harassing rates to females on here. I am not sure if he has stopped or not but his name is redmoonwolf. He is 37 lives in Hickory, NC and birth day is August 10 1974. His name is Duane Thomas. If your scroll to the bottem of his profile, you will see the message that he sends or use to send to females of ALL ages on here. He sent a message asking my wife "what, you don't take your clothes off online anymore?" She has never done that before. This man needs to be stopped and bann from VR because there are underaged females on this website and they do not need to get that message. Me and my wife have turned him in already to several different people on this ste and many others. He needs to be stopped asap. Please, watch out and be aware of him.

Well, some people live off fear. Some people try to hide from it. And yet others, others claim to be fearless. These so called "fearless" people are scared to admit that they are scared. They are scared of the simple things in life such as darkness, being alone, water or heights.



Everyone on this planet of ours is scared of something. Weather it be a bug, or even a sound, they are scared of something.



My wifes step mother is scared to lose hold of my wifes daughter. She knows that is the only lavage that she has right now over anyone. She knows that once my wife gets her daughter back, that her life is pretty much over.



I look at it this way. People fear what they do not understand. If they would actually sit down and take a moment to understand something instead of trying to destroy it, the wotld, dark and light, world be a much better place.



That is all for now my darklings. Have a nice eternal night.

I am trying to sell some items on Craigslist. People get greedy when it comes to their money. But when they see something that they want, they try to rip others off and pay the least amount possible for it.



For example. I am trying to sell a X Box 360 slim with 2 controllers, intercooler, 5 games and 2 game guides. Someone told me he would give me $200 for it all. That is crazy. I just need the money to pay bills and get gas in the car.



this world is way to greedy. I am not rich. I barley make money to survive. But me and my wife make ends meet everyday, sell whatever we have to.



People just are getting to greedy now a days. I wander what would happen if everything went to shit and currentcy no longer exsisted and we went back to having to trade for everything.



That's all I have for now. Any comments for this or any other postings, feel free to leave them.



Have a nice eternal night to all.

I know I have not been in here for awhile, but today I will be talking bout the one thing everyone hates the most of all. Backstabbers.



Everyone knows aty least one backstabber. I know quite a few. In fact the most recent one is my wifes father. He said we could keep the car as l;ong as my wife was in school. But then turns around and wants to take it and tells us that we have to find another mode of transportation. Then when we actually get our own car, he says it looks like crap. He doesnt even keep the car he took from us. He trades it in for a new truck. this guy can barely walk, falls asleep half the time without knowing, complains about shit going on at his house. He is suppose to be on his daughter side of things, but all he can do is complain when she is trying to make a life for herself.



Then, there is my ex who left me when I was 3 monthes from leaving Iraq. She said all these things to me. Making promises and all. God knows what she did when I had no contact with her. Now, I jhavent eve heard from her for years. We are suppose to be the best of friends. We have known each other since childhood, and yet I havent heard from her since I cant remeber when.



Tghen, there are all the friends I have had before and during the military. I havent heard from any of them since I got out. There is this one guy who borrowed an ass load of money from me. Has never paid me back. He better hope that I never find his ass or Ill take it out of him my way.



Thats all for today folks. Have a lovely eternal night.

Personally, I like to stay hidden from the world. There are entirely too damn many judgemental people out there. Always thinking that they are better than everyone else. Thinking that what they say is the only thing that matters. thinking what they have to do is more important than what everyone else has to get done. What is it with these people? Where they born into royalty and no one else knew about it or something? Who made them God and didnt tell anyone else?



Those kinda people need to be set straight and be set in there place. Let one of them spend a week in my shoes and let them go through what I have to go through on the weekly bases and then see what they say about life. See if their minds change any or if they keep on thinking that they rule the world.



I gurentee that either they will change their minds or just get worse. Some people just love making others feel like shit when they can. Just because they where raised differently and where taugfht to disrespect the less fortunate doesnt mean that they cant change. Everyone can change. They just have to want to bad enough.



Well, that is my rant and rave session for now. Have a wonderful eternal night and watch for others and your own.