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You always have to say I dont care If u Die everyone always does!!! Except, do you think If Someone pointed a Gun at ur forehead do u think u would care then??? I know I still wouldn`t cause I had alot of crap go on in my life maybe some of u havent even heard of!!! The only reason y I wouldnt want to die is because I Love Nick and Jason!!!! I mostly do want to die though I already tried suicide a few times and the stupid hospital brought me back to life!!! I ended up on Suicide watch for 3 years!!! I Tried running away a bunch of times too!!! Dont know why but I felt trapped in a bottomless pit and didnt care to go on anymore!!! Now If ppl actually see me smile they say its nice to see you smiling again!!! Dont get me wrong I Love my parents and sometime the friends I can actually trust, But I dont feel anything anymore!!! Again dont get me wrong Im not some type of Emo person cuz I hate Emo I dont even remembered the last time I cried!!! Instead I just get mad and when I get mad I get so furious w/ anger I cant keep it in any longer and burst on someone and it ends up I get suspened, have to go to court, or acationally I get slapped after and I Get into a down and dirty fight!!! So what Im tryin to say is be yourself and dont lie for others to hear or to be cool or anything, cause I know someone and told someone she wouldnt be afraid If death came her way and she ended up in the hospital w/ stab wounds cause she proved a point wrong, and now she hates the thought of death !!! So dont do netin u might regret l8er on!!!!!

Okay So far I have 3 Broken knuckles, a broken finger, Pulled muscles, screwed up knees (might need surgery If they get worse), 2 Broken toes, Bruses all ova, Shattered Shoulder Blade, And cracked ribs!!! Mostly from gettin into fights a couple of them I hurt in my sleep when I dont even know it until I wake up, Sleepwalking like almost!!! I guess you can say this is beyond braking point!!! I`m supposed to keep a camera on me while I sleep some nights to see If it really is from sleep walking!!! Oh Well, I`ll Find out!!!