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There are so many days I wish I could have more. So often do I dream of it, and sometimes it feels so close that I can taste it. Why can't I have it? I ask myself that question daily. Am I asking for too much? Maybe I don't ask for enough. Either way I must have patience. I must wait for something that I may not even be aloud to have. Is it my fault? I'd like to blame myself. It's easier to think that way. My pessimistic nature gets the best of me most times. I wonder if it wants me the same way I want it, the passion, the feeling of caring for something better than yourself. Do I have what it takes? Maybe I'm not cut-out for it? Maybe I'm just fooling myself into believe that something exists here for me. It could all just be an illusion. It might not even want me in it's presence at all. It might just continue lying to me about something that isn't real, just like it did before...

One would think that my heart shattering the first time would have taught me a lesson, but here I am trying to find it again. Have I even found it? Does it want me to find it? What if it just wants me around for comfort instead of a real reason? Do I love for naught? Is it all a game? Am I the Pawn or the King to my Queen?

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LadyZombie
03:49 Oct 29 2010

You will find love. Just remember, it is okay to be a little selfish in any relationship. If you want it, do whatever it takes to get it. I found love but it was in such a normal package.

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phantomsgrief
02:25 Oct 30 2010

i wish i had an answer for you... a pat answer that is.. the only thing i can say is search your heart and listen to what it has to say. if that does not help then find out how she really feels. the one way we did this to our men. we had one of us use another name and come onto them and see what they said to the person doing this. mine said he was taken and loved me.. so i know mine loves me, either that or just watch how she acts with others and with the men more than the woman.. she if she respects you when it comes to them. listen to what your friends say when they talk about her or what they do not say.

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