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have you ever been hurt so much that if someone stabs you all you do is sit there and feel numb well guess what that's me and will always be me love me great hate me even better think I'm ugly don't look at me think you know me you have no idea if you wanna know just ask me I might not have the best answers but I will try and just to let everyone know if you think you love me or like me please don't it's a waste

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TheSleepKing
02:20 May 14 2018

noted.

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i think I've found something
That's not pain or suffering
But instead it's light
Makes me wanna fight
For life but what if it's fake
What is it going to take
When will it end
Or when will it begin
I'm lost I'm found
I'm crazy
So who will walks
This path with me
Must be crazy in love for me

If you loved me you wouldn't have cheated
If you loved me I wouldn't have been beated
If you loved me youd let me die
If you loved me i wouldn't cry
If you loved me I would play
But you never loved me anyway

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TheSleepKing
02:24 May 14 2018

well said.

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It's the same each and every night.
Glare at my screen with two big bloodshot eyes.
I'm stuck self-torturing; my meds are failing me.
Internal clock in smithereens.
Can't fix this, I'm hopeless.

My eyes are stapled open wide,
As I lay down on my side.
I am bouncing off these walls.

Notice my hands begin to twitch.
Unprovoked assaulting of my conscious wit.
Me and the TV are enemies.
Sickening static surrounds my mind.
I'm losing time, and realizing that
After days of thought that I'm
Stuck self-torturing; my meds are failing me.
Internal clock in smithereens.
Can't fix this, I'm hopeless.

My eyes are stapled open wide,
As I lay down on my side.
I am bouncing off these walls.
As I focus on the clock,
Time stands still, but I cannot.
I should strap myself in bed.
I guess I'll sleep when I am dead.

Talk to myself, lie in the darkness so content.
As the sun begins to rise, I can barely shut my eyes.
This crazed, delirious mess; laughing at everything I see.
My sanity is spent. Just tell me where my time went.
I'm losing it.

Attention: All insomniacs, please raise your right hand.
And kindly, repeat after me.
"I guess I'll sleep when I am dead!"

'Cause I'm stuck self-torturing; my meds are failing me.
Internal clock in smithereens.
Can't fix this, I'm hopeless.
My eyes are stapled open wide,
As I lay down on my side.
I am bouncing off these walls.
As I focus on the clock,
Time stands still, but I cannot.
I should strap myself in bed.
I guess I'll sleep when I am dead.

I guess I'll sleep when I am.

You don't look like you belong here
Did you pinch yourself to see
If you'd wake up from a nightmare
Or could you still be asleep?

I tell myself it's all a dream
And monsters are not all they seen

You took a fall into the maw
Where hunger's always peaking
All we got for cargo
Are the meats for feasting
Lots of chomping jaws
And rotten teeth for eating
Button up your coat
This submarine is leaking

I'm stuck in a dungeon with some ugly company
Watching me hungrily, stumbling bumbling
Thundering after me, clutching their cutlery
Ducking and jumping, they're above and under me

All of 'em wanna just smother and butter me
Gut me and dunk me in gravy to cover me
Hide in a cupboard, but now in the oven
I don't wanna go in that pot they got bubbling

Could I be sleeping? Cuz I don't feel slumbery
Tumble through tunnels, they're gonna discover me
I'm on a boat but there's not any luxury
All that I got is my cunning to comfort me

If I get lucky somebody will come for me
Time I depart from my prison under the sea
Take me away where the sun is abundant
And give me some grub that I honestly wanna eat

Cuz I'm fed up with the stuff I've been stomaching
Sick of this scum, my tummy is grumbling
Should I succumb to my hunger, I'm wondering
Will I become a victim of gluttony?

This nightmare ain't over
I watch my window for the morning sun
I know when it's over
I'll just be hungry for another one
(Hungry for another one)
Gluttony has overrun
(Hungry for another one)
Wonder where you're coming from
(Hungry for another one)
Do you know what you'll become
Are you hungry for another one?

Oh mirror, mirror,
How the face you show disgusts me
Find me a child for whose youth my heart is hungry

Your vanity will eventually lead to your demise
Humanity - a profanity, under your watchful eyes
How can it be, who sent for me
A better question - why?
At the end of these dreadful fantasies
I hope the sun will rise

But until the sun is up
We'd better greet our guests
With a wonderful buffet
Where all the meat is fresh
They don't even need to eat, this is so grotesque
At least I'm not alone, I hope the nomes know best

Hey - follow us and you might make it alive
Even though not many of us survive
Give me a hug, tell me it's alright
Whatever you do, just stay out of sight
Powerful eyes watch all the time
Don't ever step in the light that they shine
We'll give you something for your appetite
The number six is the end of the line

This nightmare ain't over
I watch my window for the morning sun
I know when it's over
I'll just be hungry for another one
(Hungry for another one)
Gluttony has overrun
(Hungry for another one)
Wonder where you're coming from
(Hungry for another one)
Do you know what you'll become
Are you hungry for another one?

I've never been easily frightened
By the worst in all my dreams
What once, was a little nightmare
Is bursting at the seams
As I try to get by, their eyes stare

Feel them burning into me
Did they come, to have a good time here
Or where they forced to feed?

Stomach is turning
And churning with greed
Has someone cursed me
I'm yearning to eat
Need something fresher
Than bread or dead meat
I want it to squirm in my teeth

This nightmare ain't over
I watch my window for the morning sun
I know when it's over
I'll just be hungry for another one
(Hungry for another one)
Gluttony has overrun
(Hungry for another one)
Wonder where you're coming from
(Hungry for another one)
Do you know what you'll become
Are you hungry for another one?

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Imperfectpet
02:38 May 09 2018

Poor baby sad part is there be a mommy out there that says if u want your food squirmming so be it

Love the poem hope its heard

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"Everybody Gets High"

Once upon a time in a land far away
There lived a little boy and he drank all day
Friends called him stupid and his brothers called him gay
Emptied all the bottles 'til the pain went away

Whiskey was his friend
He didn't have another
Vicodin his vice
His real and only lover
Yup
Smoked a pack or two
It never was a problem
Popped a pill or two
They really made him blossom
Yup

Take a sip, take a sip, take a sip
And I trip, and I trip, and I trip
And I'm like
When you bitch, when you bitch, when you bitch
Counterfeit hypocrite holy shit

Once upon a time in a land far away
There lived a little boy and he cried all day
Playboy bunny magazines would never get him laid
He downed another bottle 'til the pain went away

Whiskey was his friend
He didn't have another
Vicodin his vice
His real and only lover
Yup
Smoked a pack or two
It never was a problem
Popped a pill or two
They really made him blossom
Yup

Take a sip, take a sip, take a sip
And I trip, and I trip, and I trip
And I'm like
When you bitch, when you bitch, when you bitch
Counterfeit hypocrite holy shit
Yup

Take a sip, take a sip, take a sip
And I trip, and I trip, and I trip
And I'm like
When you bitch, when you bitch, when you bitch
Counterfeit hypocrite holy shit

Everybody gets high, why the hell can't I?
Everybody gets high, why the hell can't I?
Everybody gets high, why the hell can't I?
Everybody gets high, why the hell can't I?

Yup

Take a sip, take a sip, take a sip
And I trip, and I trip, and I trip
And I'm like
When you bitch, when you bitch, when you bitch
Counterfeit hypocrite holy shit

Everybody gets high, why the hell can't I?
Everybody gets high, why the hell can't I?
Everybody gets high, why the hell can't I?
Everybody gets high, why the hell can't I?

Shadows settle on the place, that you left
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness
Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time
From the perfect start to the finish line
And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong
We are the reckless
We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our futures
One day we'll reveal the truth
That one will die before he gets there
And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone
We're setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting pictures from the flood that wrecked our home
It was a flood that wrecked this
And you caused it
And you caused it
And you caused it
Well I've lost it all, I'm just a silouhette
A lifeless face that you'll soon forget
My eyes are damp from the words you left
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest
And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone
Setting fire to our insides for fun
To distract our hearts from ever missing them
But I'm forever missing him
And you caused it
And you caused it
And you caused it

Got all my keys don't you follow me, call on me
Ain't mood for no drama
Outta my face, didn't you read my policy
I do what I wanna
You ain't my parent but think got the formula
So stay in your corner
Last thing I need is my head underwater
Even though I want ya

Wanna feel the good
Wanna feel the bad, feel it all
Got a human heart
I'ma let that fly and fall
When I feel insane
And I rap that pain
No doubt
I'ma spell it out

Don't tell me to calm down
I'm about tear this fuckin' place down
Kinda like the way I let it go
Don't tell me to calm down
I'm about to tear this fuckin' place down
No, I ain't afraid to let it go
Don't tell me to calm down
Don't tell me to calm down

Don't hit me up like you want an apology
I'm too busy riding
Sipping down vodka 'cause you ain't my cup of tea
I put you on silent
Say one more thing and I'll take it from zero to sixty
That's good to be honesty, honestly
If you get none of it
Get off my fuckin' back

Wanna feel the good
Wanna feel the bad, feel it all
Got a human heart
I'ma let that fly and fall
When I feel insane
And I rap that pain
No doubt
I'ma spell it out

Don't tell me to calm down
I'm about tear this fuckin' place down
Kinda like the way I let it go
Don't tell me to calm down
I'm about to tear this fuckin' place down
No, I ain't afraid to let it go
Don't tell me to calm down
Don't tell me to calm down

Yeah
Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna, let me know (yeah)
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad and low, yeah
I'm sad and low, yeah
Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna, let me know (yeah)
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad and low, yeah
I'm sad and low, yeah
I gave her everything
She took my heart and left me lonely
I've been broken, heart's contentious
I won't fix, I'd rather weep
I'm lost then I'm found but
It's torture being in love
I love when you're around
But I fucking hate when you leave
Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna, let me know (yeah)
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad and low, yeah
I'm sad and low, yeah
Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna, let me know (yeah)
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad and low, yeah
I'm sad and low, yeah
Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna, let me know (yeah)
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad and low, yeah
I'm sad and low, yeah
Who am I? Someone that's afraid to let go, uh
You decide, if you're ever gonna, let me know (yeah)
Suicide, if you ever try to let go, uh
I'm sad and low, yeah
I'm sad and low, yeah