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I am the first to appreciate individual expression but god help me some of these profiles full of neon colors, flashy backgrounds, and glitter graphics all swirled into one are killing my eyes. It is hard to focus when my gaze gets too distracted. I rate some of them a ten just for a decent attempt to kill me through the internet.

I was thinking about strength today. Not physical brute strength. Emotional, mental, spiritual strength, strength of ones self. I have been lacking the strength I am commented to have in spades. I have endured, as so many others can relate, numerous tests to my sanity. I feel at times that my mind will simply give up and refuse to process any further thought or challenge put before and yet I struggle on. I have been sick for six weeks now. I was well for about three days after I completed the antibiotics but, now I have a new strain of the same old thing coursing through my system. It is no excuse. I have always thought you should still function and go on. Rest is of course necessary but only to a point. If I set myself back even a day my flexibility suffers and I will not reach my goals in yoga, pilates, or contortion. I need to work out because I feel it keeps so much in me balanced. My mind is calm and free from aggression. I feel productive and happy and without those things I start to feel depressed. I cannot workout like I normally due to a broken rib. I have to adapt to it and change the way I work out. I suppose most people would just stop working out.



When tragedy occurs it is no different in my mind than a virus. A death, violation, heartbreak, you need to choose whether it will change the course of your life, who you are, or how you function. I cannot let that happen. Limitations are only what you make them. I have two jobs and a three year old. I just took off from school to get my website up. I suppose I just needed to write this and see it myself.