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My smile has faded into a frown, now every things upside down, I used to be a goody-two-shoes now that I turned around I’m upside down, sucked up by a black hole, turned inside out, screaming out loud, fighting through the crowd, trying to win your heart, when its beating in my hands, yet again I turned around, trying find it in my heart to forgive all the people I hate, no matter what I do, it always comes back to you, not this time, I got to keep time, trying to find myself, wondering how, why would he do this to me and her, its impossible that ten years ago it all started, but possible that my life is halting at a fast stop, who was I to stand up for mom? Who am I to keep a promise? I’ve stayed clean for a few weeks, all because of mom, not you, no never you, who are you, I don’t even know, watching my first Christmas you have no idea how much I miss us, crying whenever I see a father and daughter hugging and saying I love you, I refuse to watch anything where a happy family is not mine, its all I wish, to be true, for you to quite, and refuse too, what you want and I hate, its got to stop or I’m leaving you out of my life, for good, this time, I’m done with your bullshit, I’m done with your lies, your hate, your fights, I’m done with you, for good this time, my smile has faded into a frown, now every things upside down, I used to be a happy girl with her father always there, and now that I turned around I’m upside down, hanging by a nail, turned inside out, screaming for my life, fighting for survival, leaving you behind, and never looking back, never again to turn around, afraid of what I will turn into next, nothing will be the same, after death reaches your heart, you’ve killed yourself, and I don’t mind, because I have never once wanted a father like you, I think I’ve found myself, not wondering anymore, it gotten old, I gotten used to it, now its dead, and I wont ever mind, because never once have I wished for a father like you! So now I’m saying goodbye forever, because I’m done with you dad! I’m done!