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As i watch the sun in the rising east,

i miss the things I cared for least,

As I remember the sun in the fallen west,

I list the things i thought were best.



As i wish to see those shing lights,

I curse this life that has no rights,

As i dream of life afar,

I block out thoughts from the Morning Star.



As i write these words, I hope,

I hope The Word will help me cope,

with life inside these four walls,

with weighted chains and metal stalls.



As i think of those who at first seemed to care,

I realize, of them, I've seen not a hair,

As I long for sound of my angels voice,

I hate this wasted time for my choice.



As i miss the time that i had school,

I see in front of me, A Fool,

a stupid fool who walked the line,

An ambitious fool who wished to shine.



A smart fool with talent wasted,

who knows his lifes been merely tased,

A fool who thought life would be so simple,

As getting what he wanted with smiles and dimples.



A fool who saw but didn't see.

Damn... That Fool in the mirror is me...

As i mark off another day,

I stop for a sec and pray,

i pray in life for one more chance,

I pray my girl give me one last dance.



As my mind starts to wander i pace,

And pray for those stuck in this place,

I pray for courage to live His way,

I pray I'll soon see the light of day.



As i pace and pray, I think,

I think of my past and shrink,

As i pray, I dream of last seeing the moon,

And pray my day is coming soon.



As I pray, I read His Word,

I pray my crying won't be heard,

I pray and hope The Word's the key,

And as I lay dieng I pray for me.

Lord, please help me to be the man you want of me,

You know who I am and what I can be,

Without you Lord, I am nothing,

Myself tou you I give to make into something.



One you can use to help others see,

Your plan in Life you chose for me.

Show me, teach me, make me like you,

A beacon of light to help others through.



You are love, life and Glorious Light,

I give You my life, which is yours tonight.

So please, Lord, always be my light,

My guide to show me what's right.



I'll acknowledge you in all of my ways,

So direct my path the rest of my days.

My hope in life, is to be more like You,

Please give me the Strength to follow through.



Father, please prepare me so i can come home,

My praise, to thank You forever, begins with this poem.

When I'm awake, I dream of our past,

Memories of love that may have flown to fast,

When I'm asleep, I dreamof your love,

Sent to me on wings from the Alimighty Above.



As I ponder, I dream of lost romance,

I dream that you'll give me one last chance,

As i count the days, I dream of your smile,

And dream youcould love one who's been so vile.



I dream of days that I'll hold your heart,

and regret the pain when we we're apart,

They says our dreams are portals to what we hold true,

If so, i hope you dream of me too.



I dream of your eyes, your laugh, the smell of your hair,

I dream of days when you'll hold me with care,

I dream that those days will soon be near,

when my dreams fade they turn to fear.



a fear that my dreams are as a bard said a'fore,

"A dream is but a dream and perchance nomore"

I love you and care for you, I always will,

And dream that one day you'l take my last name for real.

Oh beautiful girl my angel of light,

when i saw you "twas love at first sight,

We knew each other for what? 2 months it seemed.

but within that time my soul was redeemed.



But alas, i left, perfectly content,

not knowing that Prison was where i'd be sent.

Inside these four walls, made of cement,

10 months with 2 left is what i have spent.



I dream of your laugh, and the wind in your hair,

I dream of your voice so filled with care,

when i left, the pain 'twas hard to bare,

and every night i dream i am there.



I loved you then and i love you still,

not ever knowing haw you may feel,

I dream of you everynight we're apart,

and dream one day we'll hold each others heart.



I dream of our futre and what it may hold,

whether t'gwether or 'part, truth be told,

I pray that God puts us together all of our life,

and pray that someday you may be my wife.

Have you ever felt alone in a realy crowded place,

had a smile painted outside but inside tears run down your face?

have you ever hoped for at least one true friend,

but afters all over they desert you in the end?



you try to help out but you feel youre always used,

so on the surface youre whole but underneath youre broken and confused>

how can others who seem just like you

have a darker side show through?



All your life; to the side youve been tossed,

so now, you feel on the edge and lost.

youre looking for a way to finally end the pain

youre on the verge of breaking and think youll go insane.



youre looking at a knife a gun ormaybe even pills,

maybe a rope a ledge or anything that kills.

you believe noone feels the pain you feel inside,

swelling up and crashing just like the ocean tide.



hold out my friend although you feel alone

theres others out there with hearts of crumnled stone.

I'm living proof of one who's walked in that trance,

prayed to god and was given a second chance.



JUST REMEMBER, EVEN IF YOU HAVE NO EARTHLY FRIEND,

GOD WILL ALWAYS BE THERE JUST AS HIS SON WAS IN THE END.